Sunday, October 2, 2016

Ich werde eine Veränderung in meinem Leben machen

"NO MATTER

HOW BAD IT IS OR
HOW BAD IT GETS
I AM GOING
TO MAKE IT!" -LES BROWN

YES! I'm goin to keep tellin myself this. It seems bad now but I'll get through this! #determined #stayfocused#goingtogetthroughthis #godhelpme#jesustakethewheel


"Wanting something is not enough. You must hunger for it. Your motivation must be absolutely compelling in order to overcome the obstacles that will invariably come your way." - LES BROWN

YES! I want my own office, I want my own place again, my own space where if I want to shut out the world I can. A place I can go or be to stay focused, a place that I can call my own, a lace to call home. I'm determined to make this happen. I have to change a part of me to make this happen. #goalsetting #focused #igotthis #determined #iwontgiveup


"YOU MUST TAKE ACTION NOW THAT WILL MOVE YOU TOWARDS YOUR GOALS. DEVELOP A SENSE OF URGENCY IN YOUR LIFE." - LES BROWN

Yes! Definitely! I AM going to develop a sense of urgency. I HAVE to get back on my feet. I WILL make this happen! #idontlivelikethis #iwontlivelikethis #notahoarder #ocd #independant #determined #goingtogetmyshitstraight


"TOO MANY OF US ARE NOT LIVING OUR DREAMS BECAUSE WE ARE LIVING OUR FEARS."  - LES BROWN

#truth #notmethough #imlivingmydreams #determined #focused #motivated #entrepreneur ARE YOU LIVING YOUR FEARS OR LIVING YOUR DREAMS?


"YOU MUST BE WILLING TO DO THE THINGS TODAY OTHERS DON'T DO IN ORDER TO HAVE THE THINGS TOMORROW THAT OTHERS WON'T HAVE"  - LES BROWN

I AM WILLING TO DO THINGS OTHER DONT!!! #entrepreneur #livingmydreams #igotthis #determined #iwilldothis


"OLD WAYS WON'T OPEN NEW DOORS"  - LES BROWN

YES EXACTLY! In which case, this means I need to change my life and like right now!!! I know only I am the only one who can do it, I'm the one who needs to make a change because by me making a change that's the only way my life will get better 💯 #determined #needtostayfocused #iwilldothis #gonnamakeachange #changingforthebetter


"WHEN LIFE KNOCKS YOU DOWN , TRY TO LAND ON YOUR BACK. BECAUSE IF YOU CAN LOOK UP, YOU CAN GET UP. LET YOUR REASON GET YOU BACK UP."  - LES BROWN
  • Very true! Well said@lesbrownmotivates My reason for WILL get me back up! I may have fallen, but I WON'T be down for too long! I am fuckin determined to make a change that will lead me to the life I want because this right now is sure the fuck NOT the life I want to live. I love my parents but I don't EVER want to turn out to be the way they are now! This is NOT how they raised me! I am BETTER than this! I WILL get back on my feet! I WILL create the life I've always wanted. I am damned determined to make this current change in my life ONLY temporary. I HATE change but most of the time I'm able to adapt to the change, but NOT this!

"ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR LIFE. KNOW THAT IT IS YOU WHO WILL GET YOU WHERE YOU WANT TO GO, NO ONE ELSE. "  - LES BROWN

I am going to accept responsibility for my life! It is ME and only me that put myself in this situation and only ME who can and will get myself out of this situation. I know that no one else can get me out of this situation and in the past my parents have helped me and bailed me out of situations BUT, I'm not a kid anymore, I'm an adult. I need to be independent and take responsibility for my actions and fix my current situation myself. I did this to myself, I guess I'm gluten for punishment. The thing I HATE the most about myself currently is that I've come to realize that I'm becoming like my father or well let's be honest, I've become just like my father. I love my dad don't get me wrong BUT, I do NOT want to be like him in any way shape or form. I used to look up to him and I used to want to be like him but NOT anymore!!! I AM better than this! I unlike him will NOT just give up on life. I DO have dreams and goals and things I want to accomplish in life. I thought he did too but I guess I was wrong because he unfortunately and sadly gave up on life so to speak in a way. I don't want to stop exercising, become lazy, give up on my health & sit on my ass daily and just let myself waste away! NO I WILL NOT! . I will NOT become like that! I will NOT have achieved Certifications and a College Degree and have gone through years of training only to never put those to use! I want more for my life! SOOOO, I WILL fix this and I WILL make a change! And I will start today, start right now! I will NOT give up!!!! #determination#determined #goingtostayfocused#focused #motivated #iambetterthanthis#iwillnotwastemylifeaway #settinggoals#goingtogetthroughthis I'm trying to NOT let this change effect me but that's easier said than done. I can NOT wait until I get my office and I can't wait until I start back working for Stop In. #betterpay #igetbenefits #iget401k #godguidetheway #jesustakethewhee l#godisonmyside #godisbymyside

Thursday, September 15, 2016

I think I'm Paranoid


Heroin Sanctuary

There is a place I go to brood,
within my soul,
without the rudeness of another's life,
bearing down on mine.

In my place I like to lie,
upon cold stone,
away from the light,
but close enough to the outside,
to hear the ghastly winds arise,
like banshee shrieks in the moonlight,
the winds embellish the midnight,
enough to strike me terrified,
enough to make me fear for my life.

My Hero, His Heroin

When we were young
he was the one,
Who was my hero,
big and bad,
He fought with all he had
to knock out that zero,
and as we grew
I thought I knew
which way the wind blew.

Without a doubt
he would take me out
to hang with friends
and show me how to blend.

Time went and he was gone.

I did not know
how trouble could grow
and before I knew it
he was all into it.

I did not know what to do
and I became blue.

He was not the same
he seemed to be insane.

He started with cocaine
and everyone else was to blame.
then like the wind,
He was into heroin.

My hero was gone
when the beast came along.

Lord please help him change his ways
before he sees the end of his days.