Thursday, November 26, 2015


Thanksgiving Day

Alone On Thanksgiving

Well, I volunteered to work today, I will be working 9 hours. I volunteered to work because I am alone today so I figured I would work so everyone else can spend time with their families. I may as well be at work since I am the only one not really celebrating Thanksgiving. I'm the only one that's going to be alone for Thanksgiving so I just kinda said the hell with Thanksgiving since everyone bailed on me for Thanksgiving. I may as well be at work making money plus 9 hours is like overtime for me since I don't get that many hours at work any way. Plus I was told anyone who works Thanksgiving gets a bonus so hell yeah man. 

I woke up early even though I planned on sleeping in, the fur babies weren't having that lol. So I got up took my medicine and made coffee and then exercises for 21 minutes. Now I am just sitting here trying not to think about how the love of my life is not spending Thanksgiving with me but she is spending Thanksgiving with the biatch. Grrr. Oh well, her and I have other holidays we can spend together. Even though Christmas this year probably won't be one of them. Oh well

Friday, November 13, 2015

My Vows To Vickie


I take you to be my BEST FRIEND
My faithful partner,
and my one TRUE LOVE
I promise to ENCOURAGE YOU
and inspire you and to
LOVE YOU truly through
good times and bad
I will FOREVER be there
to LAUGH with you, to lift
you up when you are down
and to love you unconditionally
through all of our
adventures in life together
to be no other than yourself
Loving what I know of you,
and trusting who you will become
I will respect and honor you
ALways and in all ways
With you I pledge to repair
one small piece of the world
I take you to be my wife
To have and to hold
In tears and in laughter
In sickness and in health
To love and cherish
From this day forward
In this world and the next

I love my baby

I love my baby so much. She means the world to me. I don't know what I would do without her, well, yeah I do. I know now what its like to be without her and boy it sucks so bad.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

My Heart Breaks For Her

You are the one who has my heart and you always will, that will never change. I will never be with anyone else, because I don't want anyone else but YOU. You will ALWAYS have my heart. And I will NEVER love anyone like I love you. I am sorry for treating you the way I did. I have changed and if you came back to me you would see that. I've never loved anyone like I love you. You treated me like no one has & I will never forget that. Karma is fucking me right now and not in a good way either. But that is okay because I deserve it all. Karma has caught up to me and I just have to deal with it. You do what's best for you. Do what makes you happy. I haven't let go and I won't. I'll just live my life and try to make myself happy. Because I don't want anyone else but YOU. And I will push ANYONE and EVERYONE away that tries to get close to me. I can't let go of you and I won't ever let go of you. The only person that I wanted to celebrate the holidays with was YOU. I will never give up on you. But know this, I will NOT get in a relationship with anyone EVER. I will push anyone away that tries to get close to me. Because YOU are the ONLY one I want & that will NEVER change. YOU are the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with. The ONLY one I want to make my wife. If I find out that you do get engaged to her I will just have to let go of you cos than I will know that you will never be mine again.

Monday, November 9, 2015

Random Shit

Sooooooo, this morning I woke up and was freaking tired OMG! I felt like I woke up with a hangover or something of course that wasn't possible since I didn't drink last night BUT I did go to bed later than I normally would. I normally wake up at 5am but I didn't this morning. I ended up waking up at 7 am something. Anyways I was good after I had my 1st cup of coffee and my pill kicked in. My day started off good because I got on Facebook and had comments and likes from the one I love, the one who has my heart. Yep, that made my day for sure.

Anyways, I started paperwork for Friday and had that finished and than I got a call from Billie who needed me to come over to her store and run it so I had to go over there and run the store while she had to run an errand. When she came back I went back over to my store to finish paperwork but than my boss needed me to run an errand for him so I went and did that and than I came back and was finally able to finish Saturday and Sunday's paperwork. I ended up staying until 2pm to finish up what I needed to get done.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

I am the ONE that loves you

#ImThatGirlfriend that hates every girl that has been involved with you in any way, and that loved you before me because I do it better.

I can't wait to be married to you and to come home after a long day and curl up next to my favorite person in the whole world, which is you and fall asleep in each other's arms

The best thing in life is finding someone who knows all your flaws, mistakes and weaknesses and still thinks you're completely amazing.

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Vickie On My Mind

Vickie has been and is on my mind a lot today. Last night I had several dreams and she was in every dream I had. I slept good because I had dreams of her BUT, it would have been better if she was laying there next to me in my arms. 

I can't stop thinking about her and I hope one day she comes back to me. I miss her so damn much it hurts. I am giving her time which is what she asked for. But it is SOOOO hard to be without her. 

I just want my life back, my life with her back. I want her back in my arms and in my life.