Status Messages From Bean

ricky martin is gay. im going drunk who is coming with me? Bean doesn't abuse alcohol--it abuses her. Bean Says live life to the fullest and ride the bull drunk in a tube top in the middle of a redneck bar. What's the worst that could happen? Bean finds it funny how children in the dark cause accidents and accidents in the dark cause children. Bean If you don't want me to drunk call you, then you should have been the one drinking with me! Bean drinking promotes freedom of speech call me tonight and i'll tell what i really think of you! 1 drink, 2 drink, 3 drink, 4, 5 drink 6 drink ,7 drink, floor. Bean will be drunk until further notice! Bean hates that the only time you can be honest about your feelings is when your intoxicated!! Tonight I'm leaving my sobriety at home, along with my indoor voice and any behavior that can be mistaken as 'ladylike'. Wine Wine everywhere, drink enough and you won't care. Wine Wine in a glass, drink enough you're on your (_i_) *hipcup* Bean says "excessive consumption of alcohol seems like a good idea at the time." Bean Is not an alcoholic I just have a phobia of being sober!!!! Bean says...If you can't be happy at least you can be drunk. Bean says.. Alcohol may be mans enemy but the Bible tells us to love our enemy ;o) Bean thinks that next time you wave to me please use more than one finger.. thanks. You should concentrate LESS on what I'M doing and MORE on what you are NOT doing! It may take two to tango but it only takes one to fuck it all up! wait, lemme think about it for a minute... hmm nope, still don't give a fuck! If you walk across my floor, leave the drama at the door. It doesn't matter who is right or wrong, for in MY house, you will get along. when people get you down get back up and smack them in the face. Some things are better left unsaid, if I don't talk to you it's not because I don't like you, it's because I would rather not say something that I may regret. Bean hates it when someone texts me "Hey sorry if I woke you up." If your seriously worried about waking me up then don't fucking text me! Its that freaking simple!! When you lose something, why does someone ask you, "where did you put it?" Right, because I totally remember where I put it, it just disappeared!!

Fuck It

I go there & listen to you
I sit there to hear what you have to say
You say nothing is wrong with me
I disagree
If there is nothing wrong with me than why the fuck am I seeing you?
I got to be moving on

Why do you feel the need to make me so angry?
If you only knew the thoughts in my head
You would agree with me
And I wouldn't want people dead
I live my life
Go on every day, waking up, and its a repeat process
I can't breathe, I gotta move on

Why do you feel the need to make me so upset and angry
Is it in your blood
Or is it just your job
You get paid to make wrong assumptions
There is nothing you can say to change my mind

You are pulling me in a million directions
I am going on what I was told years ago
If you are so right than why was I given disability
Fuck it

Coldness In My Eyes

You felt the coldness in my eyes
Though you've gotten used to me not hiding
I have my reasons
You didn't listen to me
You think I am fine
You'll change your mind
When someone dies
I hide in the dark
Hide behind the shadows

Going to reveal the pain that i never show
There will be blood on my hands
Don't make me lose it tonight
I don't want to kill, it just wouldn't be right
I sit there and listen to what you're saying
I think you don't know what the hell you're talking about
I don't tell you everything because I shouldn't have to

But you'll understand when someone dies
You'll realize you were wrong
When someone becomes so disfigured
You will feel the pain that I never show
Then you will understand, you will know

I don't tell you what's really going on
I put on this facade
I am hiding behind this pain tonight
I am fine until you make me break
You can sit there & pretend everything is okay
This is the me I let you see
I have my reasons to hide behind this mask

Going to reveal the pain that i never show
There will be blood on my hands
Don't make me lose it tonight
I don't want to kill, it just wouldn't be right
I sit there and listen to what you're saying
I think you don't know what the hell you're talking about
I don't tell you everything because I shouldn't have to

But you'll understand when someone dies
You'll realize you were wrong
When someone becomes so disfigured
You will feel the pain that I never show
Then you will understand, you will know

Midnite Bean

Well my cat Midnite was crying last night in pain and I didn't know why. She was drooling all last night and today so I took her to the vet and the vet opened her mouth and one of her teeth was broken. So she has to stay overnight because they are putting her under anestesia cos they have to pull out her tooth. They have to pull out her tooth from the gum. Poor baby. I hope she will be alright. They are going to give her all her shots that she needs. I go to pick her up tomorrow.

Update

Well, this past weekend was Labor Day as you know. We went to visit friends & family in Hopewell this past weekend. We stayed with Helen & Jason at their house. We had a blast. We went to Deana's 1 year birthday party on Saturday which was fun. I took a ton of videos which you can see on my Myspace which is It was a lot of fun and tons of laughs. We also went and saw where Helen & Robbie board their horses. The farm was huge and there were tons of horses there. Helen got a new horse, an Arabian horse, her name is Fire Angel. She is beautiful. Okay so the worst thing that happened this weekend was walking through the woods. I know have poison ivy all over my body and it itches like crazy. I went to the emergency room and they put me on a steroid & gave me cream. So I am confined to the house until this shit clears up. It sucks.

Whats been up

Went 2 Hopewell yesterday 2 get Deb's jewelry out of the pawn shop & went to see the family & friends. Had a good time. Debs friends r fucking hilarious. They crack me the fuck up 4 real. Dads laptop came n yesterday. He is all happy that he has a laptop now. He got a kick ass laptop. I picked him out one of the best HP's that Staples had. His has a remote control 4 it that is used 4 the DVD player & CD player on his laptop. Its kick ass. 4 real. I'm thinking I should have gotten an HP. S real. Leigh Anne had 1 that had a remote 2. Well I'm sitting here in downtown Staunton waiting for Scoop to come down so I can take him 2 clean Bear's car out. He is taking forever. Its all good though.its nice outside today. Its not 2 hot & not 2 cold. I'm tired. I'm not used 2 waking up so early.

Thats Life

Well I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to get anywhere in life. I'm never going to be successful, I'm never going to have a nice vehicle of my own, I'm never going to have anything. The only thing I actually own is my clothes. Life sucks.