Time Change

Man this time change has me all screwed up. I see seasonal depression is trying to fight its way in on me but I am fighting it back. At least I am trying to fight back. I hate being depressed and every year around this time it happens to me amd I hate it. I feel like I have no energy its like it sucks all my energy up. I lose my motivation to do anything amd I struggle with it and have to make myself and force mtself to do stuff. I hate that it gets darker earlier cos I do everything in the daylight. I try to keep motivated but its hard.

Coffee and Water

I notice I feel better when I drink lots of water. At work I drink Coffee all day. I used to drink Coffee in the morning and switch to soda but I stopped drinking soda all together. At home I drink water, thats what I have bought to drink since I stopped drinking soda. But I think maybe I drink too much coffee. I need to just drink coffee in the morning and about 12 start drinking water. I think I am going to start taking a bottle of Dasani Water with me to work and drink that after the coffee. I will stay hydrated and have more energy. It aeems like when I drink water I have more energy and fell better. I am drinking coffee now but I think I will grab me some water after I finish my coffee cos I dont want to waste it. My store has good coffee, we have Juva Roast which is an Antioxident Rich Coffee with an Antiox Energy Boost. Its good for you, healthy for you and has an energy boost. It helps me get through the day. And I stayed energized all through the day.

My day

So today was busy at work. At least I stayed busy. And time flew by or so it seemed. I worked with Cheryl amd April today. I raised 11 dollars and some change today for Operation Christmas Child. And after i left Cheryl raised more. I just went there to get more coffee and Cheryl said she has raised 27 dollars so far. Doing pretty good. See if I can just keep them motovated we will raise all kind of money for OCC. Jen and I went to Mcdonalds and I got something to eat but im not that hungry right now so I will eat later.

Goodnight

Let the dogs out they are peeing. And then off to bed I go. Took my meds so I should be passed out soon. I slept good last night and hope I sleep good tonight. Talkes to dad and mom earlier and I woke up jen while I was talking to them. She wasn't happy at all. But she got in a better mood. Goodnight.

I hate the time change

So I folded a load of laundry and started another load. I don't feel like doing much else. I hate being cold and I hate this weather. I need to remember to take my iron pills. I haven't taken it today so I gotta find my bottle. I don't feel like doing anything when I am cold. But I try to do stuff and move around so I get warmer. Its kinda a double whammy. Oh well. Seasonal depression sucks for sure. So I went and got more cat food. I don't plan on leaving the house anymore tonight. I am gonna put on my pajamas here soon. Since the time change jn the mornings with it being daylight it makes me think I am late for work. And in the evenings it sucks cos it gets dark earlier and i don't like that. I like it to get dark later. Oh well Spring will be here soon enough. I just gotta make it through this Winter.

My day

So I am feeling better than yesterday and more motivated also. Just got home from work and stopped off to get toilet paper and some more Mr Clean. Still gotta go buy the essentials like cat food and dog food and cat liter. So I had a pretty good day at work. Its always better when April is there. I raised $13.29 for Operation Christmas Child today. Not too bad at all but I could have done better. A lot of people are doing it at their church so they say no.

So last night Jen came back home and I was happy to see her. She sat down on my couch next to me. Ahe never really sits on my couch but it was nice to have her sitring next to me. So I held her hand as we talked and it was nice. I love Jen so much and I believe she is the one I was meant to be with. I don't ever say that but I believe it. Her and I relationship reminds me of my parents relationship so that's why it works so well and I want to hang onto it. That is also why I believe she is the one. My parents have a great marriage and love each other dearly as I love Jen the same way and can't imagine being without her. She brightens my day, she is my sunshine. I love her so much. She is sleeping right now cos she has to work. So I will try to be quiet while I am doing housework this evening.

No cleaning for me

So I decided not to do laundry or clean house. I am just relaxing this evening. Jen went to her grandparents to visit them and see her aunt and cousin. I guess I was boring her or sonething. She is off today and had all day to go see them. I come home and she is here for a few hours and leaves. Guess I am boring oh well. They are probably more entertaining and more fun.