Dinner

Sara, shay, kristen, i decided 2 go out 2 dinner so we went 2 boston beanery. We're all just sitting here havin a good time, takin pix enjoyin new years eve. I ordered an angus steak with mushrooms onions. Sara i are goin 2 her mom dads 2 ring in the new year.

Me this is who i am..dont like it sorry

Im adventurous, energetic, courageous, enthusiastic, confident sometimes told im conceited but on the bad side..im selfish sometimes, quick tempered, very impulsive, impatient even tho ud thought id learned patience n the army, foolhardy a daredevil. Very open 2 new ideas a lover of freedom. I welcome challenges will not b diverted from my purpose except by my own impatience. Always takin pix of myself always lookin n the mirror. Sumtimes i come off a little arrogant, cocky conceited. Been told im an asshole many times.

My dog

Stupid bipolar.. I was huggin zeus and than he decided 2 get up he figured he was goin 2 fall i was tryin 2 get up wen all of a sudden he knocked my lens out of my glasses i started crying i dont know why..i need 2 take my medicine..i havent yet today.. Its like i got all this shit built up inside i jus snapped 2nite.. I dont have any1 that i can talk 2 really..no 1 that will listen except 4 my therapist but she gets paid 2 listen 2 me talk 2 me...

Thinking........

Today was graduation at school. Aaron, who is my "bro" graduated today. Aaron is like a bro to me. He is one of my best friends & he graduated today. He's leaving, even though I know I'll see him again, it still kind of upsets me that I won't see him as often. Okay im going back to my school work now. I dont feel like writing anymore.

About me

Yeah so maybe im different. I have bi-polar disorder and paranoid schizophrenia. people treat me differently when they find out though. im no different than anybody else. i dont know why i am this way or what i can do to prevent it. im on medicine for it.

Big Five Word Test Results

Big Five Word Test Results

Extroversion (35%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive. Accommodation (24%) low which suggests you are overly selfish, uncooperative, and difficult at the expense too often of the well being of others. Orderliness (67%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun. Emotional Stability (7%) very low which suggests you are extremely worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Inquisitiveness (41%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly small minded, traditional, and conventional at the expense of intellectual curiousity, possibility, and progress.

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The Big Five is currently the most accepted personality model in the scientific community. The Big Five emerged from the work of multiple independent scientists/researchers starting in the 1950s who using different techniques obtained similar results. Those results were that there are five distinct personality traits/dimensions. Here are your results on each dimension:



Extroversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun.

Emotional Stability results were very low which suggests you are extremely worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Accommodation results were low which suggests you are overly selfish, uncooperative, and difficult at the expense too often of the well being of others.

Inquisitiveness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly small minded, traditional, and conventional at the expense of intellectual curiousity, possibility, and progress.

Global 5: sloan RLOEN; sloan+ xL|O|ei; primary Organized; X(50%)L(93%)O(67%)E(76%)I(41%)

Personality Disorder Test Results Paranoid |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Schizoid |||||||||||||||||||| 86% Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 78% Antisocial |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Borderline |||||||||||||||||| 78% Histrionic |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Narcissistic |||||||||| 38% Avoidant |||||||||||||||||||| 86% Dependent |||||||||| 38% Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||||||||| 86%

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Test Note: Read the descriptions below to avoid misinterpreting test results (for example, the Antisocial classification does not mean you are a loner, it means you tend to be insensitive towards others).
General Note: the validity and reliability of DSM personality disorders are still lacking in strong statistical evidence and clear agreement in the scientific and medical community. They are determined by the American Psychiatric Association and will likely be revised in the future.
Author Note:I don't think Schizoid personality is a valid disorder (read), some of the smartest people in history were schizoid because they occupied a remote end of the intelligence bell curve. Schizotypal personality can encompass highly original thinkers as well as totally insane people so I think it's a flawed type. I think the remaining eight disorders are generally valid.


Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal



Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.


Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.



Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic



Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.


Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive



Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.