Engaged, My Relationship, My love For Jen & How We Met Etc

Me & my girlfriend Jen Graves are engaged. I bought her a beautiful engagement ring today. She loves it which I am so glad of. She said it was the best piece of jewelry she's ever had & Jen has had a lot of jewelry in her lifetime. I'm so glad she likes it. I was aiming for an engagement ring that she would like & I gave it to her & she said it was beautiful & she loves it. Yay. I'm so happy. Jen makes me so very happy & I am so lucky to have her & so glad I have her in my life. She is definitely a gift from God. God put Jen in my life for a reason, not sure which exact reason that is but I know that there is a reason Jen was brought into my life & I am so glad she was. Me & Jen are so very happy together. We have been together for almost 9 months, it will be 9 months on 25 September 2011. We are going to go have an engagement dinner this Friday or this weekend unless I'm working in which case then we will have the engagement dinner the next time I'm off. Yep, me & Jen are going out to dinner at a nice restaurant, probably Outback Steakhouse because that is where Jen wanted to eat & we are going to celebrate our engagement. I'm so happy. I'm glad that Jen said yes when I asked her to marry me. I'm such a lucky person definitely. I am very lucky to have Jen in my life & I am even luckier that Jen chose me to be her spouse for the rest of her life. You just don't know how happy I am. I'm so very happy that I could jump for joy & Im very happy that Jen said yes that she will marry me, that makes me so very happy. Me & Jen have a great relationship. We have been together almost 9 months an we are still going strong to this very day. We never fight or argue which makes our relationship so great. We have unconditional love for each other. We always make each other laugh & smile & crack up. I act crazy because I am a crazy person hahaha & Jen acts a little crazy too which I love, I'm glad she's not completely normal because that would be no fun, its great that we both have craziness in us, its way more fun that way. Jen is such an amazing person all around. If you have ever met her or get the chance to meet her then you will know what I mean. If you are a friend of Jen's & she accepts you into her life then know this, you are a very lucky person because Jen has been hurt in the past & taken granted for & has been used & abused in the past & she doesn't trust very many people at all because of her past so if she has allowed you to be a part of her life then you are one of the lucky ones. I love Jen so very much & I try very hard to treat her as good as I can & I try very hard not to treat her the way all of her exes have which was horrible, none of her exes treated her any good & so I try very hard to be the opposite of them & I do believe that I have thus far done a good job at that. Me & Jen are very much in love & we always will be until the end of time & I don't care who likes that or not, if you have a problem with it then I don't care because I am going to forever continue to love Jen & be with her for the rest of our lives. Me & Jen are a perfect match, we are so good together. Me & Jen are definitely meant to be together. Like I said before, there was a reason that Me & Jen were brought together but I don't know what that exact reason is but I'm glad that we were brought together. I think this was our destiny, I do believe that we were meant to be together. An I also believe that Jen is the ONE, I truly believe that. Its like I had been searching 29 years of my life & finally Jen came into my life & it was like a missing piece of the puzzle was finally complete & everything just started fitting togeter & working out for me. My life has been much much better since Jen has come into my life & I am so happy & so gla & so lucky that she did come into my life, especially at the time that she did. We both came into each other's lives at a time when we both were having a rough time & we helped each other through it. Jen was married & still is but she is separated & she soon will get her seperation papers in the mail in like maybe a couple weeks or so & after she gets her seperation papers I do believe that she will be able to get divorced from her husband after that which she is so glad of & she is so ready to be divorced from him. I was married when Jen met me & I still am but my wife & I have been seperated since the end of November 2010 but I am new to the whole Gay Marriage thing & I don't think seperation works the same as it does with straight people so I doubt I will be getting seperation papers & neither will my wife. I'm not sure how it works, I'm not sure if I have to file for seperation or how that works but anyways I am looking forward to getting a divorce from my wife so me & Jen can get married. After both of our divorces go through & are final then we are going to get married & we can't wait for that day to come. After me & Jen both get divorced we are going out to dinner to celebrate our divorce from our spouses & that is definitely something to celebrate for sure. Me & Jen we like to go out to dinner with each other & spend time together if you couldn't already tell so we like to go out to dinner & celebrate & me & Jen always have something to celebrate because good things are happening to us. I know that me & Jen are going to have a good life together. I try very hard to provide for Jen & I work my ass off to get Jen everything she wants & needs. I hadn't worked since, hum, my last job was at Roses the department store & I worked there in late 2009 & I only worked there for maybe 2 months, it could have been longer. But before that job I hadn't worked in forever. My last lengthy job was at the Kangaroo Express which I worked at from 2004 to 2007 but I quit in 2007 because I started school at Woodrow Wilson Rehabilitation Center & I couldn't work & go to school because I went to school full time & did extra curricular activities & I just didn't have time for a job & go to school at the same time so I quit my job at the Kangaroo Express in April 2007 & started attending WWRC. I went to school at Woodrow Wilson Rehabilitation Center from August 2007 to March 2009. So I hadn't worked from April 2007 to November 2009 which in November 2009 I do believe that was around the time that I got the job at Rose's & like I said I didn't work there very long. So after I quit Roses I stopped working & was just living on my Veteran's Disability & hadn't worked since then until I got the job where I work at now which I started like 2 or 3 months ago. I've been working there almost 3 months. I think I started working at my current job in like August I think, at the beginning of August I do believe though it coul have been July when I started working there, I don't remember exactly. But anyways, my point is, I hadn't worked in forever & since I hadn't worked in forever I gave up on getting a job since I hadn't worked in so long. But then Jen & I got together & I still wasn't working when Jen & I got together but after her & her husband seperated then it was time for me to get a job so I could support me & Jen since we were living together. So Jen & her husband seperated & we lived off of her unemployment & my Veteran's Disability & I started looking for a job because I realized that we wouldn't be able to live on just her unemployment that she gets every week & my Veteran's Disability that I get every month. It just wasn't enough to live on so I started looking for a job in April & I was applying for all kinds of different jobs & Jen was applying at anywhere & everywhere too. We filled out so many applications online for different jobs. Me & Jen would be called for interviews & go to the interviews & think they went good but never hear anything back after our interviews. But we didn't give up & we continued to apply for jobs. The couple who was living next door to us moved out in about April or so & right after that a girl moved in there with her baby daughter. I greeted the new neighbor & struck up a conversation with her & realized that she was pretty cool & was going to be a good neighbor & she was very nice & close to me & Jen's age also. Me & Jen became friends with our new neighbor & every time I would be outside & my new neighbor would be outside also me & my new neighbor would strike up a conversation. Sometimes we would be outside talking for what it seemed like was hours even though it might not have been that long but it felt that long lol which I didn't mind because my new neighbor was pretty cool & I realized she was a good person to have a conversation with. Well, since my new neighbor & I became friends & we always talked & Had conversations, I happened to be talking to her one evening & told her how hard its been for me to get a job & that I've been looking for a job since April & have ha several interviews but never heard anything back ever after I had each interview & she told me that her Aunt was a manager & I had seen her Aunt outside her apartment when my neighbor was moving in next door so I knew what my neighbor's Aunt looked like because I had seen her once or twice when my neighbor was moving in & I ha said hi to her & my neighbor's Aunt seemed really nice & friendly. Well, my neighbor told me that her Aunt was hiring because the place her Aunt managed was about to go 24 hours. She told me where it was that her Aunt was manager of & told me to go fill out an application. I said thanks to my neighbor & I kept forgetting to go own & fill out the application. So the next time I saw my neighbor she asked me if I had gone down to fill the application out & that same day that she asked me I went down & filled out the application because if I hadn't done it that same day then I would have probably forgotten to go fill out the application. Well, I went down & filled out the application & it just so happened that the person who was working there at the time that I went to fill out the application was someone that I had worked with at a previous job. Since we knew each other we struck up a conversation while I was there filling out the application & my former co-worker she likes to talk, she can talk your ear off which I don't mind because I am the same way & can talk anyone's ear off, however I was there filling out the application & I was there for almost an hour, now normally it would not take you an hour to fill out an applcation, which it didn't take me an actual hour to fill out the application but I was there for almost an hour because we ha struck up a conversation & we were talking & w2hat has been going on since we had last seen each other. Well, I finally left after I finishe filling out the application & came home & later that evening I saw my neighbor & she asked if I had filled out the application & I told her that yes I had gone to fill out the application & I told her that I saw that my former co-worker happened to be working & that my former co-worker said she was going to put in a good word for me. My neighbor said that she was going to let her Aunt know who I was & that I was her neighbor & that I had filledo ut an application & that I really needed a job bad & that I was willing to work any hours that she needed me to work. So a day or so later I received a call from my neighbor's Aunt who was the Manager & she told me to come in & talk to her so I immediately went in & talked to her. I went & talked to her so it wasn't even like a job interview, when I went in to talk to my neighbor's Aunt, she told me about the job & what I would be doing & tol me about the company & told me about the benefits & gave me all sorts of information. WHen my neighbor's Aunt who was the Manager got done telling me everything she asked me if I was still interested in the job after all the information she had given me & I told her definitely. I told her I was definitely intereste din the job & that the job sounded great so my neighbor's Aunt had me fill out a paper for a background check & she gave me a paper for a drug test & tol me to take the paper to a place in Staunton that would give me a drug test. Well I signed the form for the background check & signed the paper for the Drug Test & I left there & went down to the place where I was going to be given the drug test, I went that very same day, I went to take my drug test right after I had left from talking to my neighbor's Aunt. I got to the medical place & gave the receptionist my paper so I could take my drug test & OMG I was freaking waiting forever there or so it seemed. I know I went up to the receptionist desk twice to ask how much longer it would be, when finally I was sitting there waiting & they finally called me back. I took my drug test & left & came home. I saw my neighbor that evening & told her all about me going to talk to her Aunt & told her how it went & told I was going to take the job & told her that her Aunt sent me to take a rug test & that I had went down to take my drug test & told her that now I just had to wait for my background check to come back & had to wait for my drug test to come back before I could start. I think it was like maybe 2 days later, my neighbor's Aunt who was the Manager, she called me & asked me when I wanted to started. I didn't realize I would be able to start that soon. I think everything came back on like a Thursday, yeah I think it was Thursday that my neighbor's Aunt had called me back & she asked me if I wanted to start Friday or if I just wanted to wait until Monday to start so I told her I wanted to wait until Monday to start. I told her Monday because for so many months I Had been so used to spending every day with Jen & being at home with her every day so I wanted to have one last weekend to spend with her before I started working. I spent the weekend with Jen hanging out & spending quality time with her & then I started working on Monday. It was a Monday in either July sometime or August. I later saw my neighbor after I had started working there & I told my neighbor thank you so much for helping me to get the job. My neighbor said she really didn't help me get the job & that I didn't need to thank her because all she did was tell me to go fill out an application but I just have a feeling that her being my next door neighbor might have helped me to get the job, maybe or maybe not, who knows. But I still thank her for getting me the job because I wouldn't have even known about the job if she hadn't told me about it & told me to go down there & fill out the application & if she hadn't kept reminding to go down & fill out the application. I thank her for getting me that job which I am still working at to this day. I love my job & I am very thankful to my neighbor that she told me about the job. I appreciate her so very much for telling me about the job because I was in desperate need of a job for sure. Anyways, back to my point of what I was saying, I hadn't worked in so many years because I was going to school & I was going through a crazy marriage & well I just hadn't workedin so many years & in a way had gotten adjusted to life without a job. But when Jen & I got together & I fell in love with her & it finally came to it being just me & her & we were both seperated & it came time for us to pay our bills & we realized that we couldn't just live on her unemployment & my Veteran's Disability then I worked my ass off trying to get a job & I finally did a get a job & I still have that job currently & I work hard & try to do my best & put all my effort & give it my all at work. I do what I can & try to work very hard. My boss knows whenever she needs me that all she has to do is call me & if she needs me to come in or needs someone to work that all she has to do is call me & she does call me if she ever needs someone to work or if someone calls in or whatever the case may be. I am glad that my boss knows & realizes that she can rely on me, plus I don't mind when she calls me & asks me to work because most of the time that puts me into overtime & overtime means more money for me & means a bigger paycheck which I always look forward to. So yeah, my point about working is, I hadn't workedin so long but I went back out into the workforce so I could support me & Jen & so me & Jen could have a good life together & so that we had money to survive on & money so that we could pay our bills. It has been a little rough because after Jen & Her husband seperated we were only relying on her unemployment check & my Veteran's Disability & Jen & I started having bills of our own that we were starting to pay own. Jen put the electric in her name & the electric company of course charged us a deposit which they said we could pay in monthly installments, I don't remember exactly how much the deposit was but since we had a deposit that we had to pay on including what we owed each month for our electric bill, that put us behind. There were times when it was rough & our bills did get behind but at this moment I can honestly say that I do believe that me & Jen are going to be okay. Having our bills get behind was rough & very stressful on us, more stressful on Jen then it was me because I make the money & Jen uses the money to pay the bills. I let Jen handle paying the bills because she is better at that stuff then me so I let her handle that part of it & so therefore since she looks at the bills & I don't & she see's what the amounts are of our bills & she realized we started getting behind that really stressed Jen out, which I don't blame her. It did stress me out a little but but I tried not to think about it because I knew if I did think about it too much that it would stress me out big time & Jen was already stressed out to the max & so I needed to strong for her & be there for her through the stressful time that we were going through. But its okay because I can honestly say that I do believe & I do think we will be okay. Everything seems to be working out for the best. Me & Jen have been very blessed since we've been together. We are both so lucky. We are lucky to have each other & we are both lucky to have such great families. Me & Jen have definitely been blessed that's for sure. I am so happy that finally after 30 years of my life I have finally found the one, the one who I'm going to be spending the rest of my life with. Finding the one is the greatest feeling in the world. It feels so good to know that the person whom you love so very much & care for so much & feel so strongly about feels the same about you. Its such a great feeling to know that Jen loves me as much as I love her. I can honestly say that I am very truly happy now, more so then I have ever been in my life & I have Jen to thank for that * I am so lucky that she came into my life & I am so glad to have her in my life. I'm lucky & I've been blessed. God works in mysterious ways that's for sure. Me & Jen don't go to church but we both believe in God because there has been many times when we have seen that God has been there for us & we have both seen God help us. God is definitely great & I am gla dthat GOd is a part of me & Jen's life. More & more every day me & Jen continue to be blessed & for that we are very lucky & me & Jen are both very appreciative of everything we have & everything we are given. I'm so glad that I found Jen. I first met Jen when I was like in middle school or high school. I used to go to Skatetown which is an inside skating arena/skating rink in Staunton. Yep, that's where I first laid eyes on Jen, however I was like in middle school I do believe & I would have been in my teens. Her & I talked when I knew her at skatetown but we didn't really become friends or anything, it was more like we were aquaintences, we saw each other at Skatetown when we were there skating & more or less just said hi to each other. Jen's mom(grandma) Nancy worked at Skatetown for years & I do believe that Nancy was working there at Skatetown when I first met Jen. Now that I think about it, I'm almost positive that it was when I was in middle school that I met Jen because I don't ever remember going to Skatetown when I was in high school. Yep, it had to of been in when me & Jen were in middle school when we met. ME & Jen didn't go to the same middle school however, the middle school's would always have skate night for each school at Skatetown & even if it was my middle school's skate night, Jen was probably there even though she didn't go to the same middle school as me but she was probably there skating too because her mom(grandma) Nancy worked there at the time. When I first saw Jen, like I said, I was in middle school. It had to of been, damn I don't know, it was before I knew I was a lesbian & it was before I started liking girls & it was before I came out of the closet as lesbian. But, I do remember thinking Jen was cute & at that time I thought she seemed nice because she had always said hi to me. However, I also do remember unfortunately thinking that Jen was kind of, as Jen would tell you, a "bitch". YES, Jen will tell you if you ask that when I first met her many many years ago that I thought she was a bitch & mean. In fact that is what I told Jen when her & I first got together. The reason I thought she was, as she says, "a bitch" was because she was very popular & she always had a corwd gathered around her & she was always hanging out in a group & well, really because she was popular & well I wasn't popular at all & didn't have that many friends really. I was far from being popular, I was more of an outsider, an outcast you could say. I had friends but not that many friends because a lot of people were mean to me & made fun of me & picked on me, so yeah, I wasn't popular. I wasn't popular like Jen, I was far from being as popular as Jen. I remember thinking that Jen must be a great person if so many people liked her & if so many people wanted to be around her & hang out with her. Anyways, after I got in high school I didn't go to Skatetown anymore & to be honest I haven't been to Skatetown since I was in middle school. Well, the years went by & I was dating a girl who just so happened to be friend's with Jen. Jen & my ex girlfriend's cousin were best friends. I remember meeting Jen again years later back in 2006 up on the Avenue (Greenville Avenue) as we call it. Me & my ex girlfriend were hanging out on the avenue when my exes cousin & Jen ride up & pull up next to us & get out to talk to us. My ex girlfriend's cousin introduces me to Jen & at that time I didn't put two & two together that Jen was the popular girl from Skatetown that I had talked to a couple times. I said hi to Jen when my ex GF's cousin introduced us & I remember thinking, damn that girl is hot. It was love at first sight for sure. I saw Jen & mmmm, damn. I thought at that time that I met her on the avenue that she was absolutely gorgeous & beautiful but I even though I had thought she was hot hot hot I didn't think anything about it anymore. I don't even remember if I had seen Jen anymore after that night that we hung out on the avenue. Well, the girl that I was dating at the time, well me & her relationship eventually ended & I ended up started dating a woman who is unfortunately my wife whom I'm trying to get a divorce from currently. Well while my wife & I were living together, I remember this was when I worked at Roses's. Jen somehow became my friend on Facebook, so Jen was on my Facebook friend's list when I worked at Rose's. Well one day I happened to get off work early for whatever reason that I cannot think of at the moment. And I was waiting on my wife to pick me up from work but she was taking forever & I think there was some delay or something of the sort & she wouldn't be there for awhile to pick me up because she was not in the area or something, I can't remember what it was. But anyways, so I got off work early at Rose's that day & I do believe that I ran out of cigarettes, well Jen offered to bring me cigarettes & she was going to bring me cigarettes but when Jen got around to texting me back that was about the time that my wife showed up to pick me up & my wife had brought me cigarettes so I texted Jen & told her that I didn't need her to bring me cigarettes anymore because my wife had gotten me cigarettes & I thanked for offering to buy me cigarettes & I thanked her for offering to bring me cigarettes to my work which was all the way down in Waynesboro & Jen lived in Staunton & she was willing to get me cigarettes & bring them all the way there to me. That was so sweet of her. I also remember that while I was living with my wife & Jen was on my Facebook friend's list that Jen had posted status messages & she seemed really upset & seemed depressed & seemed to be going through a rough time & I remember writing comments on a lot of her status messages telling her to cheer up & that I hope things get better soon & that I am there for her if she needs someone to talk to & that I am there for her if she needs anything. Another thing that I remember about while I was living with my wife & i ha recently became friends with Jen on Facebook at that time was that Jen had posted a status message about not having cigarettes & I offered to bring her cigarettes since she had run out & was unable to get any cigarettes. I don't remember why but for some reason I never did take her any cigarettes because I can't remember exactly what she said but I do believe that the reason I never ended up going to take her cigarettes was because she said, "No that's okay, you don't have to bring me cigarettes, that's sweet of you for offering but that's okay, thanks for offering" or something to that effect. I offered to bring her cigarettes that night because she had offered to bring me cigarettes before & even though I ended up not needing her to bring me cigarettes she had still offered to bring me cigarettes which was very sweet of her so I thought I would return the favor. So yeah, Jen ended up being on my Facebook friend's list since, hum, damn, let's see, I don't think I got a Facebook profile until like hum, I think it was like 2009 or so. I don't think I got a Facebook profile until after I left Woodrow Wilson Rehabilitation Center which was in March 2009. I took Web Design at WWRC & in class I of course used a computer & was able to get on the internet but at that time Facebook wasn't popular even though it was out already but it wasn't popular at that time so I never got on it. At the time that I was attending WWRC, Myspace was what was popular & Myspace is what everyone used at the time. Myspace ended up becoming blah & boring & not used very much in 2009 sometime. I started using Facebook after I graduated from WWRC which was in March 2009. I remember after I graduated from WWRC I moved back in with my parents & I had two Facebook profiles at the time & I would always constantly be on Facebook playing Facebook games such as Farmville & Cafe World. I played those games because really, I had just graduated & didn't have a job & really didn't have much else to do & didn't have anything else to occupy my time. Anyways. So yeah, I started using Facebook in 2009 sometime, can't remember exactly when in 2009 but I do remember that it was 2009 because it was after I graduated from WWRC which was in March 2009. I remember when I first started using Facebook which was in 2009 that I was obsessed with playing the games on there, yep, I was an obsessed Facebook gamer at that time. LOL. Anyways, back to my point of what I was saying, Jen ended up being on my Facebook friend's list, she was on my friend's list on the Facebook profile that I used the most. Around that time I had two Facebook profiles & really only used one. The Facebook profile that I used the most just happened to be my 2nd Facebook profile, it was the 2nd Facebook profile that I had created. The first Facebook profile that I had created I didn't use very much & I remember that I only created that profile because when I created that first Facebook profile, Facebook had just came out but it wasn't very popular at the time. So yeah, Jen was on my Facebook friend's list on my 2nd Facebook profile. Jen & I always talked on Facebook but we weren't that close at that time. Me & Jen got close after my wife & I separated & I had moved back in with my parents. A month after my ex & I sepearted & I moved back in with my parents, that is when me & Jen really started talking & we got close, shoot, it might not have even been a month after I moved back in with my parents LOL. Me & Jen didn't get close & talk a lot until after I was sepearated though, just for your info, because my damn wife apparently has tol people that I left her for Jen which so was not the case because after her & I seperated me & Jen weren't even close & didn't even really talk that much at all. Me & Jen started talking about a month after I moved back in with my parents & that is when we started getting close & when we started talking back & forth on Facebook. Me & Jen would chat all the time on Facebook chat, we would chat for hours, all night sometimes. And eventually we weren't jsut chatting & talking on Facebook, we started hanging out & meeting up & spending time together & we got very close & yep, we fell in love. I can honestly say it was love at first sight, definitely. Anyways, to make a long story short, that's really how me & Jen met & how we became closer & that's how we became what we are today. You know, I remember the first time I saw Jen(as an adult), we first met & I first saw her years later & we met up in the JC Penny's parking lot. I happened to be in the mall with my best friend of 17+ years Karen. Me & Karen were shopping in JC Penny's because Karen had a gift card for JC Penny's. Jen happened to call while me & Karen were in JC Penny's & she wanted to meet up with me, now min you, I hadn't seen Jen in years, we had only talked on Facebook but hadn't seen each other in forever & we had never hung out with each other. Well, Jen pulled up in the parking lot at JC Penny's & at first I couldn't find where she was parked because, well for one I didn't know what kind of vehicle she drove. I ended up finding that she was drove a Camaro & ended up finding her in the parking lot. Me & Karen walked up to Jen's car & Jen & I started talking. I leaned in through the driver side window so I coul talk to Jen better because she was driving. And BOOM, damn, when I leaned into the window & looked into her beautiful blue eyes & saw her beautiful smile & adorable dimples that was it for me, I was done for. Yep, it was love at first sight & that day when I met up with her at JC Penny's is the day I fell in love with her & I've been in love with her since. Me & Jen have been together ever since then. We fell in love & it was love at first sight & we have been inseperable ever since then. When we first dating it was a little rough because we were dealing with our spouses & that was a lot of drama & a lot of craziness & other things happened that was a little crazy & stressful but all in all, we ended up pulling through & getting through all those rough times because our love was strong enough to get us through it all & we have been together ever since. I'm truly blessed & truly lucky to have Jen in my life. I couldn't be any happier right now, well, maybe I could I don't know but right at this moment I am the happiest that I have ever been & I know Jen is too. We are so very much in love with each other. Jen tells me all the time how much she loves me & she tells me all the time how lucky she is to have me, which I love & she is so sweet & its great because I feel the same way about her. Me & Jen are definitely meant to be together. There has been many times when I would be talking & Jen has finished my sentence & there has been many times when Jen would be talking & I would finish her sentence. We know each other so well & we know what the other one is thinking & we are able to finish each other's sentences. Its like me & Jen are connected, its like we are one, what she feels I feel & vice versa. There are so many reason & signs that me & Jen are meant to be together, so many that I can't count them all. I have definitely found the one & I know that Jen is the one, Jen is the one for me. Jen is the one I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. Damn, wow, I seem to have written a book tus far, holy crap. I think I've been sitting here writing this for about an hour, maybe its been less time then that or maybe it has been longer than that, who knows. Anyways, so yeah, I have just been sitting here for what seems forever, for what seems hours, just sitting here rambling on & writing about how much I love Jen & writing all about Jen & writing all about me & Jen's relationship & yeah its been pretty much all about Jen. Shit, Jen is my world, she is my everything. I absoultely love her so very much & adore the shit out of her. She means so very much to me & I don't even want to think about ever being without her, I hope that day never comes. Yep, its all about Jen, she is everything to me, she means so very much to me. Jen this & Jen that, LOL. I could go on for days & days, even months & months, probably years & years talking all about Jen & about our relationship & about how much I love her & about how much she means to me. I'm so very in love with Jen. I've never been in love like this before. Never have I ever loved anyone the way I love Jen, NEVER! Anyways, it is 12:45am now & Jen is currently asleep in the recliner. Yep, Jen fell asleep in the recliner. Poor thing, yall should see the way she is sleeping, ow, her neck is so probably going to hurt her when she wakes up. She is like, sitting up in the recliner but at the same time she is like leaned over & her neck & hanging over shoulder & she is passed the hell out. One of the cats just made a noise with a bowl in the kitchen & it was freakin lou & Jen didn't even wake up, she is obviously & clearly that passed out. Then again, Jen hasn't slept since, hum, I think it is Sunday. Yeah, I think it was last Sunday when Jen last slept, but then again it could have been before Sunday when she last slept. Let's just say that it has been almost a week that Jen has gone without sleep. I'm thinking she hasn't slept because she hasn't been tired or hasn't been able to sleep or it could be that she's had bad restless leg syndrome which causes her to be unable to sleep at all. Well, either way, she is asleep & passed the hell out right now. She is getting much needed sleep that's for sure. She looks so beautiful when she sleeps, she looks like an angel when she sleeps, she is an angel though, an angel sent down from God. She is so adorable when she is sleeping. I don't think I have a picture of her sleeping unfortunately. She would get mad if I took a pic of her sleeping & uploaded it to Facebook LOL. She has to approve any & all pictures that I take of her that I decide to upload on Facebook, she doesn't want any bad pictures of her being put on Facebook, then again, some pictures that she thinks are a bad pic of her happen to be pics that I think are good pics of her, but unfortunately even though I think they are good pics of her & think she looks beautiful in them she unfortunately thinks they are bad pics of her & she thinks she looks ugly & horrible in them & really in my opinion they really are not bad pics of her at all. Jen is the type of person that doesn't think she is beautiful or hot or anything like that, even though I tell her everyday how beautiful & hot & gorgeous she is, yet, she doesn't believe me, she doesn't think she's beautiful or anything like that. She is absolutely beautiful in my opinion though. Jen is the most beautiful girl ever, even though she doesn't see it that way. Oh well. So yeah, anyways, I guess I am going to end this long ass rant/blog/journal entry that has now become a book or a novel as many would say. LOL. Hope yall enjoyed reading, if not oh well, I wrote it anyway & if you didn't like reading it then I don't care, if you didn't like reading it or whatever else then you didn't & you don't have to read it. If noboy likes reading the rants/novels/books that I write then ya on't have to read it, ya don't have to read what I write. I don't care whether you like it or not because either way I am still going to write it. Oh yeah, I almost forgot, if you want to see a picture of the engagement ring that I bought Jen then go to this link, it is a link to the picture of the engagement ring that I uploaded to my Facebook profile, http://upload.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10150391131771271&set=a.175872861270.160317.729966270&type=1&theater
Anyways, I'm done now ranting & rambling & writing a book & done writing a novel. I'm through. The End!!!