So life has been a crazy roller coaster ride at the end of 2015. I think if you remember that I was trying to get Vickie back, well, we are back together. We have been back together since 17 Dec 2015. Her birthday was 18 Dec 2015 and I got to celebrate her birthday with her. So we got back together and then not long after her and Bo moved back in with me, Rocky and Cinder. I couldn't have been more happy, I was beaming with happiness. My Christmas Wish, the only thing I wanted for Christmas was to get Vickie back and my Christmas Wish came true and her and I got to spend our first Christmas together. We have been going strong ever since and I couldn't be more happy. YES, I am so happy to have her back in my life and to be honest our love is stronger this second go round then it was the first time. Things are great and our connection has gotten stronger and my love for her is much more than it used to be. I love Vickie with all my heart and I couldn't imagine living life without her and I couldn't imagine being with anyone else. SHE IS THE ONE WHO HAS MY HEART!!! On 13 Feb 2016 I asked Vickie to marry me and she said yes. I did it in a corny kind of way, you see, I am a computer nerd, always have been so I decided to since I am also a Graphic Designer, do it in the way of a little video I created. She asked is that your proposal and I said yes. I believe her heart melted, she said she loved it. I proposed earlier then I told her I was going too. But hey, 13 is my lucky number and I wanted the 13 to mean something and now it does, the day I asked her to marry me. Unfortunately for me I am married to someone whom I have no thoughts about getting back with. My ex wife and I got married March 2009 and separated at the beginning of Oct 2010. We weren't married long, well, it just didn't work out for many reasons. Sorry to say, well no actually I'm not sorry to say but she may still love me or whatever and may still want to be with me but I have no reasons to get back with her and have no feelings for her at all. I used to have afterwards feelings of hate towards her and feelings of regret getting married to her. I try to block out all thoughts from my mind of her because all the thoughts I have of her and the time we were together are negative. So enough of that, moving on to my point. So Vickie and I are engaged however I need to get a divorce which I have already started setting up. I hope its an easy divorce and not something messy like you hear about. I have a great lawyer who knows what he's doing and can have it done quickly which is what I want. Vickie and I plan to get married next year but that all depends on how this divorce goes. Man I hope I can get divorced because I hate being married to someone I am not with, someone I do not love and will never love again. I hate being connected I guess you could say to someone I don't even talk too. That is the hold she has over me, the fact that we are married. I am NOT her wife/husband whatever she chooses to call me, which is probably wife even though I am not the wife type, I am the husband in the relationship since I have been going through transformation changes. Anyways, I just hate being tied down and controlled by someone whom I have such a great dislike for. I hope this divorce is over with quickly and I can FINALLY move on with my life. I haven't been able to move on really, I mean I am married to her so at the moment that stops me from getting married to the person I truly love and the person I want to spend my life with. But, of course my ex wife would love to ruin my life, she already has even though I have recovered from all that mostly. I don't like to be controlled by no means at all. I am an Anarchist, a Rebel, I do what I want and so therefore I hate that in a way my ex wife has a little bit of control over me and oh I am sure she is over probably laughing about it and loving the fact that she has control of my life and laughing because I can't married again to the person I love and want to spend my life with. I hate to tell her but I will NEVER get back with her, I have no intentions at all in getting back with her EVER! Her and I lived together and I moved out and back in with my parents 3 different times and kept going back, stupid me but the 4th time I moved back I left and never went back. And I have no plans of going back to her or living that type of life because I am better than that, much better than that. I REFUSE TO LIVE A LIFE LIKE THAT, A LIFE DEPENDING ON OTHERS, A LIFE OF BEING CONTROLLED BY SOMEONE, A LIFE OF MISERY AND DEPRESSION AND SADNESS AND BEING LONELY ALL THE TIME AND UNHAPPY!!! My life is so much better now that I am with Vickie and yes we did break up once but we got back together and love is true and we have a deeper connection then we did the first time and our love is stronger then it was before. You see us together and you can just tell we are in love, yes our love for each other just shines bright like a diamond. Lol. ANYWAYS, on to what else has been going on.
I started working for Mahavir Oil LLC at the beginning of November, I started 1 Nov 2015 with them as Manager at Exxon. Mahavir Oil took over the Shell Stop In and the Exxon Stop In. I worked at the Shell Stop In since August 2011 and ended up leaving in May 2015 which shortly there after the 2 stores were sold and bought by Mahavir Oil and they ended up asking me to come back to work for them but at the Exxon. And I said yes of course. I love being a Store Manager and I absolutely love my job. I am a natural born leader and I love leading and guiding others. I truly love my job and they are really great people to work for. I also had put Avon on hold for a few months, while I was trying to get Vickie back that is but once we got back together I started doing Avon again. Vickie loves Avon's Body Sprays so of course I got place orders for my baby. Lol.
So yeah that's a little update on what's up with me. I'm sure I'll be back later to write another blog. Have a great day everyone and enjoy this beautiful day we're having today. Here in Virginia the weather is supposed to be in the 60's today. Yay so glad for warm weather, I am not a Winter person at all, I hate the cold no matter what.
No comments:
Post a Comment