Sociable by nature with an eye for the eclectic. I enjoy being around others and am especially attracted to the creative world. Others are drawn to me and admire me. I thrive out in the world and appreciate being surrounded by other people. The only exception to this is when I'm working in the creative realm, finding myself completely engrossed in a project for hours at a time. I am competitive, driven by a desire to outdo others. I am a Leader, I function best when leading others.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Giving up
So troubled.. my mind is so messed up.. Dont care no more.. Dont know which way to go.. Just want to cry.. Just want to shout in anger.. Just want to scream out the pain.. Just want to cry, cry in the rain.. life sometimes becomes a bit too much.. Too much for me to handle.. Dont tell anyone.. Keep the thoughts in my head.. Dont say the things i probably should have said.. Im losing all emotion.. Losing my will to care.. Losing my will to survive.. Almost about to just give up.. Losing who i am.. Hating myself for who ive become.. Losing my personality.. Such a coward.. Ive become such a bad person.. Hate who i am.. Hate who ive become.. Losing.. Giving up.. Jobless.. No money to survive.. No food to eat, becoming skin and bones, wasting away slowly.. Ive lost it all.. Breakdown after breakdown.. Episode after episode.. Its getting harder to survive.. Sometimes life gets worse than we had hoped for.. Didnt want 2 have to resort to this just to survive.. didnt ever want to have to live life this way...........
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