My Dad's birth family

I have been doing a lot of family research. I use the Ancestry com website and I have the app on my Kindle Fire. Last year I found my Dad's birth family. We didn't know but we discovered he gad an older brother named Georg Jr, not aure what happebed to him though. We also discovered he has a sister Erika and a half brother Hank. This past February we got to meet our family. We met my Aunt Erika and her husband my Uncle Paul. And we met my Uncle Hank and his wife my Aunt Marcy. They are from Canada. Apparently my Grandpa Kirchner came from Germany to Canada where he became a Tobacco Farmer. I have 6 cousins I found out that live in Canada. It has been an amazing year. It has been incredible getting to know my Cousin's. I am glad I found them, I am glad I posted that ad on the adoption website becauase that's how they found us. I have discivered that I have such an amazing family and there are so many similarities between us and them. We are very much alike in so many ways and that makes me happy. After all these years of wondering about my dad's birth parenta and family I finally found them. And I love my family a lot even though I haven't met my Cousins yet in person we still talk on Facebook but I hope to meet them in person one day.

Family

Memories, I try to keep them alive. I don't like forgetting things and so if I write something that I have already written then that is why. I like to keep my mind fresh. Grandpa Collins told Mom that is why he talks about the past because he doesn't want to forget anything. Grandpa has a pretty sharp mind for being 92 years old.
So I wrote Aunt Marcy about Grandpa Kirchner and asked her how he died and if he had any health problems and that was about a week ago and she hasn't written me back yet. She has all that information since she is married to my Uncle Hank. I don't have any of that information cos my Dad was adopted and I would like to know what health problems if any are in my family. Maybe she will write me back. I think I am going to write Cousin Sandy and see if she knows about any health problems or mental health problema that are in our family. They may have told me but I need to hear it several times to remember it. I know we have mental health problems in the family but I don't remember which ones. And I think Grandpa Kirchner had Dementia I believe someone had told me that probably Aunt Marcy or Uncle Hank. Who knows. Cousin Sandy and I talk the most. We are very similar and have a lot in common. I am lucky to have found my dad's side of the family. They treat me like family and not an outsider and they don't treat me like the blacksheep of the family. I love my Collins and Wamsley, mom's side of the family but I have always felt like an outsider with them. And I don't talk to them as much and they don't talk to me. I talk to the Kirchner's more then the Collins and Wamsley's. But that's mostly cos we can relate to each other and I am more like them then my mom's side of the family. I am more closer to my Kirchner Cousins then I am with my Collins cousins. It could be cos I am a lesbian and my mom's side of the family frowns upon that or maybe they don't like me or cos I am not like them or who knows. Oh well, I will love those who love me and give my time to those who make time for me. I am a lot like my dad and it sounds like dad is a lot like Grandpa Kirchner and all three of us look so much alike. I guess I feel like I have never really fit in with mom's side of the family. So I am glad that I have found my Kirchner cousins and family cos at least they make feel like I fit in and am part of the family. Funny thing is I haven't even met my Kirchner Cousins face to face yet and I am more closer to them then my other cousins and family on mom's side. It had kinda been bothering me and I talked to mom about it and she seemed to kinda feel the same way. Oh well that's life I guess. I love all my family but sometimes I feel like they don't feel the same or maybe they don't talk to me because I am so much like my dad and his side of the family and not like them. Oh well I am not going to worry about it. Not going to waste my time worrying about it but it was something I had been thinking for awhile.

So its starting to get a little chilly outside. It was like 70 earlier and I had and still have 3 shirts on, a beanie and a coat. I am way cold natured and cold blooded. I am always freezing. Hopefully taking my iron pills will help that. Maybe it will I don't know.

Memories

I love my family all of them even if we don't talk everyday. I live how much alike my cousins on my dads side and I are. My Kirchner cousins and I are so similar, we have so much in common and I am glad for that. Its nice to have family that you can relate to and that have similar interests and hobbies and the similar way of thinking.

Its nice to be able to sit down and write my thoughts down and keep a journal. When my dad was growing up my Grandna Bean made him write a journal and he wrote in it everyday. I still have dad's journal but I think its in cursive so I couldn't read it very well. I am sure dad could decifer his writing maybe. Grandma Bean was a teacher I believe and so she was always focused on learning and reading and writing. Maybe that's where I get it from. I have always had a love for reading and writing. I get the love of reading from dad because he has always loved to read. His favorite books to read are civil war books, mostly about the Confederate Army the south. He has so many books it would take me forever to read them all but he has read them all. I have read some of his books. Mostly the ones about Tennessee, Cades Cove and the Great Smoky Mountains. Writing well, I don't know where I get that from. I have always loved to write since I was old enough to write. When I was in elementary school I won poet of the month. I can't remember what my poem was about though. But I remember I was proud of myself. They hung up my poem in the cafeteria for all to see. I rememver getting so many compliments about it too. Over the years I have won the Editor's Choice Award for Outstanding Achievement in Poetry through poetry dot com and the Intrrnational Library of Poetry. I still have two of my certificates from there. I won on October 2006 and June 2005. I don't know where all my other certificates went unless Mom has them somewhere. I have a book that I keep all my certificates in. I have all of my certifications in there. I have my certificate from Basic Training at Fort Jackson and my Cambridge Certified Internet Associate certification from Camvridge Intercontinental University. I have my Career Resdiness Certificate issued by the Commonwealth of Virginia. I have my Annual Report Team certificate from when I worked on the Annual Report at WWRC in 2008. I have my MS Excel 2003 Fundamentals certificate from Brainbench. My Computer Fundamentals (Win XP) certificate from Brainbench. I have my Microsoft Excel 2003 Microsoft Office Specialist Certification and my Microsoft Office Word 2003 Microsoft Office Specialist Certification that I recieved through Blue Ridge Community College. And I have all my certifications from Skillsoft that I recieved while at WWRC. I have Certificate Of Achievement from WWRC for completion of Study Strategies Made Easy. I have my MS Word and English Grammar Certifications I recieved from BrainBeez. I also have my certification from Learn To Type dot com and at that time I typed 60 words per minute without any errors. I have my Customer Service Certification I received while at WWRC. I also have my certificate as an ordained minister from the Universal Life Church Monastry which I recieved on 17 September 2008. Yes I am an ordanined minister.

Kirchner Family

My dad was born a Kirchner in Ulm, Germany then adopted and became a Bean. My last name is Bean but everyone calls me by my last name not my first name. It stuck after I got out of the Army. They go by last names in the Army. Had my Dad not been adopted I probably wouldn't be here today. My dad was born in Ulm, Germany. Its in Baden-Wuertemburg Germany. My dad was adopted when he was young, he hadnt even learned to talk yet so he never learned German. My Grandpa Bean was stationed in Ulm and thats where my Bean grandparents adopted him. They eventually settled in Townsend TN. My dad got to live on several different Army bases. He was an Army brat growing up. My Grandmother was a teacher I believe. Growing up my Dad was told different stories. He was told he didn't have any siblings. Another story he was told was that his mother ran off and left his father with the children meaning he did have siblings. So he didnt know what the truth was. But I believe my grandparents told him that to spare him from the awful truth that was my Grandpa Kirchner. Growing up I always wondered about my family history and felt like something was missing. The truth was missing, what happened I didnt know. I always wondered about the Kirchner's. I got all interested in my family history and started researching it on Ancestry.com. I had a paid account at one time but I still couldnt find anything on the Kirchners. Its hard to do family research when your family is in another country and you dont know the language. Well I have started learning the language so I know some German now. So as a teen I was on a quest for the truth. I wanted to find my dads family if he had any. I found an adoption website and posted an ad and finally dad got a reply. Last February my Aunt Erika, my dads sister and her husband my Uncle Paul came to visit. As well as my dads half brother, my uncle hank and his wife my aunt marcie. So I have aunts and uncles. And I have cousins. Whom I speak to alot. I have family, we have family. I had finally found my Kirchner family. My Aunt Erika had been adopted as well but Uncle Hank lived with Grandpa Kirchner his whole life. He took care of Grandpa Kirchner in his old age. I was told he died from Dementia. While he was at the doctor one time he told the doctor he was going to kill him so they came in Grandpa Kirchner's house and took all his guns away. They are not clear of what happened to Grandma Kirchner. I guess only Grandpa Kirchner knows that truth and he died in 2002. It was nice meeting our family for the first time after all these years of not knowing anything. Aunt Erika remembers dad when he was a kid. Dads name was Johann and they called him Hans. When dad was adopted his name was changed to Harvey Bean. Since Uncle Hank lived with Grandpa Kirchner he and Aunt Marcie had all the details about him. Them coming here and meeting us was great finally we had found our family. Mom was happy to find out that Aunt Marcie and Uncle Hank were Jehovah's Witnesses like her. Aunt Marcie said I was a lot like Grandpa Kirchner in many ways. She said Grandpa Kirchner used to put a lot of sugar in his coffee too like me. He was a coffee drinker, a big one and so am I. Grandpa Kirchner had dogs like me. If you saw a picture of Grandpa Kirchner and my dad you would see how much they look alike and you will see I look a lot like both of them. I look like my dad and grandpa when they were younger. I have 4 cousins on Uncle Hank's side and 2 cousins on Aunt Erika's side. Uncle Paul is a golfer and he was in the Air Force in Canada. Oh I forgot to mention they live in Canada. My dad was the youngest of three kids. There was Georg Jr, Aunt Erika and my dad. We dont know what happened to Uncle Georg. I think Aunt Erika might know but since having a traumatic childhood I think she supressed those memories. She went thru hynotherapy to bring back those memories but she still doesnt remember some things. I think Uncle Georg died, I believe that's what Aunt Erika said. I remember her saying that Grandpa Kirchner was a mean man and abusive and that one time her and uncle georg were hiding in a closet from grandpa kirchner. It was also said that possibly Grandpa Kirchner killed Grandma Kirchner and Uncle Georg but everyone was so young they dont remember or have blocked those memories from their minds. Anyways after Uncle Georg and Grandma Kirchner "disappeared" Grandpa Kirchner got remarried. His new wife and him had two kids. One being Uncle Hank and another boy but I cant remember his name because not much was said about him except that he had a rough abusive childhood because of my Grandfather and he was adopted by another family and he doesnt like talking about it. Aunt Erika said she met him years after that but he didnt want to talk about their childhood. Juliet I think was the name of Grandpa Kirchner's second wife. So after Juliet and Grandpa Kirchner got married they had two boys. Which left Aunt Erika, Uncle Hank who's name is actually Heinrich (Henry) but he goes by Hank and then Uncle Hank's brother. Dad had already been adopted. They continued to live in Ulm, Germany but eventually moved to Canada where Grandpa Kirchner became a Tobacco Farmer. And they settled in Ontario Canada somewhere. And that's where my family is now in Canada. Uncle Hank and his side of the family live in British Columbia. Aunt Erika and Uncle Paul live in Ontario. So I have family on the east of Canada and the West. If Grandma Kirchner and Uncle Georg survived and are still alive or were still alive and escaped the wrath of my Grandpa it was told to me that they went back to Austria. Grandma Kirchner is from Austria and Grandpa Kirchner is from Hungary. Grandpa Kirchner was a foot soldier for the Nazi Party in the German Army. Aunt Marcie told me that Grandpa Kirchner was a Crane Operator for a steel factory in Germany. I cant remember the name of the factory but Aunt Marcie told me what it was. Apparently my Grandpa Kirchner was a mean, abusive man and heartless too. Since I never knew him I want to think about all the good things about him not the bad. I know nothing really at all about my Grandmother. I wonder if her and Uncle Georg are still alive and if they are where are they at? I am still learning about my family. I seem to be a lot alike with the Kirchner's. I get my mental illness from the Kirchner side. My Cousin's have ADHD also so we have that in common as well. Its so nice knowing we have family and that we found them. I wasnt going to give up. Im still searching for my Uncle Georg and Grandma Kirchner I dont want to give up hope. I have a picture I edited of my dad and my grandpa side by side I believe. I will have to post it on here.

The Sun Is Out

The Sun came out and is still out. Yay. So glad the sun has finally come out after we have had rain for 5 days straight. I was really getting tired of the rain and so was everybody else. People seemed to be in a bad mood because of the rain. I know I was too, but the weather does that to me. I woke up late this morning because Jen woke me up at 3am last night because she couldn't sleep and went out to smoke a cigarette and let the dogs out and Cinder wouldn't come inside. So she woke me up and told me my dog wouldn't come inside so I had to go out and get her in. I said to Jen, "This isn't a decent hour to be awake". Now she has been cracking up since I have said that. But really, I am a daylight person, I am never awake at that hour so I didn't think it was a decent hour to be awake and I was sleeping good and she woke me up. Cinder was under the deck and I had to go get her. Something must be under there that she wants. Oh well, I got her in and I went back to sleep and Jen ended up coming to bed shortly after that. I woke up late this morning, around 9am and that is late for me because I normally wake up at 6am every morning. I got up and let the dogs out and then I came inside and took a shower and got ready. Jen woke up and went and laid on the couch and I went to my store to get my coffee and talk to April. April is working by herself today since I am off work. After I left my store I went home to give Jen her drink and then headed to Mom and Dad's. I pull into their driveway and I notice I have a text and don't you know it was April. And I knew what it was about, the gas went down so she needed me to change the gas price sign because the sign is very high up and she is afraid of heights. I told her I was at my parents now and I wasn't at home. Thankfully Matt the Manager across the street came and changed the gas prices for her since she is afraid of heights. He had to change his sign anyway but his sign is one you use a stick pole to change not one you climb but he doesn't mind heights like me so he changed it. So that is one less worry because I was going to have to still change it when I left Mom and Dad's house but now I don't have to worry about it thankfully. Thanks to good ole Matt changing it. I am drinking a Pumpkin Pie Spice Juva Roast Coffee and its so good. I love this time of the year because of all the coffee's that come out. I am a huge coffee drinker. I stopped drinking soda and now all I drink is Sweet Tea, Coffee and Water. I decided to cut soda out of my life. You know they say soda is as bad on your teeth as crack is. Basically it does to your teeth the same thing crack does. So I decided I can live without soda in my life. I get cavities as it is and don't need anymore. I just had one of my teeth pulled because it broke and cracked. I take care of my teeth but I am always getting cavities. Apparently bad teeth run in the family. My Cousin Brian is in town from Maryland but I haven't gone to see him yet. Me and him used to be close but we kinda just got distant and stopped talking as much. I don't think we're alike like we used to be. People change, people grow up and become distant and I think that is the way it is with my cousin and I. Oh well things change and so do people. I need to go see my Grandpa though. I meant to call him last night but I got distracted with cleaning my kitchen and that's all she wrote. I cleaned my kitchen last night and threw a whole bunch of stuff away. My kitchen looks way better than it did. I filled all the trashcans up outside though but thankfully trash pickup is Friday. Hopefully I don't accumulate too much trash by then because I won't have anywhere to put it since the trashcans are almost full now since I have cleaned.Time to work on my online course now while Mom is getting ready. I had to defrag the computer and do a system cleanup since Mom and Dad's computer is ancient. I think they have had this computer since my sister was in high school. I know I used it when I was at WWRC. And that was back in 2007. Off to do class work now have a great day everyone.