Saturday, November 16, 2013
Chapter 6 - My Book
So Petra's son Tony went and signed up for the Army National Guard. He told the recruiter when asked why he wanted to join that he wanted to kill people. The recruiter said well your in the right place. So he had joined the Army. Petra kinda pushed me in a way and well Al was a Vietnam Veteran and Petra had been in the Coast Guard. So the whole family was military. And they treated me and considered me to be family so I kinda felt like it was my duty to sign up for the military. I eventually ended up signing up for the Army. It was my choice but like I said I was kind of coerced and talked into it. I went to MEPS to take the ASVAB and I failed it. Man I was so upset and disappointed. I eventually ended up taking it again and passed it. Time went by and I got ready and prepared to go off for Boot Camp. I worked out and did lots of PT.
Before I joined the Army I dumbly got a joint account with Petra. All my Army money went into that account. Do you know I got not one cent of my money while I was in the Army because Petra took my bank card before I went off to Boot Camp. She said I didn't need money in the Army. My battle buddies took care of me and bought me stuff I needed thankfully. The only reason I had money is because I did other people's guard duty and they paid me. I used my money wisely.
I really dislike Petra for everything she has done to me. She Don't know how she screwed me up. She played so many mind games with me and she was so controlling and wanted me to stay away from my family.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Chapter 3 - My Book
I started talking to a girl named Carol whom I had gone to school with. Carol was in a grade below me and two years younger then me. She was in band at our high school. When I started talking to her she was still a senior in high school I believe because I remember going to the football games and watching her perform in the band. Or maybe she had already graduated I can't remember but I remember she did a lot with the band while we were together.
Carol and I started talking and eventually started dating. She was there for me through some of the Tonya bullshit. And she was there for me when Tonya beat me up the last time and she went to court with me over that situation. Carol even went to the police station with me and to court with me when I got arrested for that whole leaf blower incident. So she was there for me I do give her that much.
Carol and I spent a lot of time together and her best friend Jeremy was around a lot. He didn't have a girlfriend so he hung around us a lot. Jeremy ended up getting his own place, a trailer on his family's property and I moved in with him and Carol.
I had ended up not working at Food Lion anymore while I was still living with my parents because of some bullshit. A girl named Carol worked there at Food Lion and her sister Rachel had been after me but I didn't really want anything to do with her. Rachel wasn't my type at all. Well she wanted me to have a threesome with her and her boyfriend. Because I said no to her she had her sister Carol who worked with me tell our boss that I was sexually harassing her. Such a fucking lie I wasn't harassing Carol, I barely talked to her at work in fact I tried to avoid her most of the time. So I got brought in our bosses office and he told me about the accusations that Carol had made against me and I explained to him the situation with Rachel but I still ended up getting fired over it. Oh well I didn't really like working in the deli anyway, but it was a job.
I ended up getting a job at Alcoa through a temp agency called Express. Alcoa was a factory and paid way better. Through the temp agency I was getting like ten fifty an hour. And I eventually got hired on full time. I loved my job there and I was a Scanner and Label Maker. I worked in the warehouse and had great benefits and holiday pay and vacation. I worked twelve hour shifts from six thirty pm to six thrity am. I didn't mind working third shift cos at the time it worked for me because I didn't sleep much at night because I had insomnia.
So I was working at Alcoa and I ended up moving in with Carol and Jeremy. This is where the partying of my life began. Carol and Jeremy always had people over there house and hanging out. Those people they had over there did drugs and drank. This is where my drug use began. At that time I was more of a follower than a leader so I followed the crowd. So whatever drugs they did I also tried. We did everything from Marijuana to Heroin to Coke, you name it we did it. They were mostly pot smokers but they were always trying new things. My drug of choice was Marijuana and Heroin. Heroin was something I ended up getting addicted to. This is why I can't remember much because of the all the drugs I did back then.
While I lived with Jeremy and Carol I continued to work at Alcoa the entire time I lived there. I loved my job and I was planning on keeping my job there. I made good money and got paid weekly so that was great. Carol and I's relationship was going downhill fast. I couldn't stand that she didn't have a job and wasn't even looking for a job. All she did was party and do drugs and sleep all the time. Carol's friend Mike ended up moving in with us also. And he didn't have a job either. Carol had a job before we got together at Hardees but I am not sure what happened to that. She didn't work the entire time we were together. People kept staying at the house all the time and partying. I was trying to focus on my job and keeping my job. I was trying to be the responsible one in the house. Yes I let them influenece me but I finally realized that I needed to get out of the house and out of the relationship. It was obvious that Carol wasn't going to change and who was I to try to change her. So I did something sneaky and probably wrong. Well it was wrong in Carol's eyes. Carol and I had planned on moving out of Jeremy's house and getting our own place. Well, Carol's friend lived in an apartment in Waynesboro and there was an apartment available. Carol didn't know but I went behind her back and got the apartment for myself. I signed the lease and moved my stuff in. Carol had talking to another girl, Cassie. I remember Carol and Cassie coming to my apartment and Carol being all upset because I had gone behind her back and got the place without her. She was talking to Cassie and they ended up dating but I think for not long. So I didn't cheat on her, seems like she was cheating on me. Bringing another girl to my apartment hello just throw it in my face and say yall are just friends. Come on now I am not stupid. I didn't care cos I didn't want to be with her anyway. I was actually glad that Carol was now someone elses problem and not mine.
I loved my new apartment. It had a fireplace and it was 2 bedrooms and the bedrooms were huge and it was on the second floor. The apartment was heated by a radiator on the wall which made the electric only about twenty dollars a month. I was getting paid weekly so I had plenty of money to live on because my rent was only four hundred fifty a month.
I remember on my twentieth birthday Jennifer Wimer my best friend came over to my apartment and we ate cake. For my birthday she gave me a kitten whom I named Harry for Harry Potter. He was so cute and I loved him dearly. My birthday cake had Harry Potter smoking a joint and it read Harry Potsmoker on the cake. That was the first time I ever celebrated my birthday since my mom was a Jehovah Witness and I never got to celebrate it before. While living at my apartment I smoked pot, that was all I did there. I had given up the other drugs. And the girl who lived next to me and downstairs smoked pot too so I would smoke with them sometimes. The lady downstairs had a daughter named Rachel who didn't live with her and she was around my age. I had a crush on Rachel and I think I became infatuated with her. We ended up dating if that's what you want to call it. I think she just wanted to have sex with me and that was all. We did end up having sex and after that we didn't hang out as much. We were both the more dominant type so we didn't click. But I did still smoke pot with Rachel her mom occassionally. The girl who lived below me Lisa she was Carol's friend. Lisa had gone to school with Carol and I but they were really good friends kinda like best friends I guess.
My sister's friend Shelly had dated this guy named Steve. We all went to school together. Steve and Shelly dated and had a kid together named Brandon. Steve at the time was living in Pennsylvania and wanted to come back home. So one morning after working a twelve hour shift Lisa and I rented a car and drove up to Pennsylvania to get Steve. Mind you Lisa didn't have a driver's liscense so I had to drove up all the way. We ended up getting lost and were heading to Pittsburgh when we should have been heading to Philadelphia. I ended up turning around finally and we made it to Steve's house. He was living with his Mom and brothers. His dad was lived in our area and he wanted to move back down here to be closer to his son and dad. He ended up moving in with me which I had offered which I later realized was a mistake. One time my friend Cindy was over and Steve was in my Ford Ranger truck showing off for her and was switching my gears back and forth which he shouldn't have been doing because my truck was an automatic and he tore the transmission out of it. Dad ended up paying for me to get a new transmission. So that pissed me off highly and pretty much did it for me. Besides the fact that he hung out with Lisa and her husband Josiah who lived downstairs below me all the time. Steve was always at their apartment. The stipulation was that he could move in with me if he got a job which never happened. I got tired of taking care of him and cleaning up after him and him not working. So I sat his stuff outside my apartment and was done with him. I think he ended up staying with Lisa and Josiah.
I had a kitty named Harry Potter whom I loved dearly. He was so adorable. I got him for a present from my best friend Jennifer. I loved that kitty but when I moved back in with Mom and dad he had to be an outside cat and he wasn't the only cat cos I had munchkins and Harry didn't like that so he ran away. I never saw him again, I hope he is well taken care of. I ure he found a new home. He never came back, I called his name for days but he never showed back up. I miss that cat, he was my baby. But I also had Munchkin and I loved him dearly too. I got Munchkin when I was living with Tonya at our apartment. Jessie had Munchkin and he was a kitten and she couldn't have him at her apartment so she asked us to watch him. Well, I never gave him back. He was mine and he loved me.
Monday, November 11, 2013
A Great Day
So today was a good day. Jrn and I both were off work. She was tired from working third shift and she wasn't feeling well so she slept most of the day. I went in my store this morning in my pjs to get coffee my Juva Roast and cigarettes. Then I came home and relaxed because well today is Veterans Day, my day and all I wanted to do was relax and do no housework and I haven't. So eventually I decided to get motivated and take a shower and got dressed and went back to my store for more coffee. I earned ten cents today by buying two coffees today on my Shell Fuel Rewards Card. I hung around the store talking to Tabitha and April. Eventually I left and I came home and Jen was still sleeping. She eventually got out of bed. I spent a good portion of the day working on my book. I wrote two chapters today of my book. Over a thousand words written today. After Jen got up she ordered pizza and we went to pick it up. I don't eat a lot of pizza because it messes with my Irritable Bowel Syndrome but I ate two slices and it was good. Bear called and I talked to him for a bit. He gave me a history lesson about slavery and the Nazis. A little too much information that I could have lived without hearing. The details were a bit too much for me. I sometimes prefer not to hear the details of some things. Anyways now Jen and I are watching The Voice and bed will be calling soon. Mom and Dad haven't called but I guess they won't since I will see them tomorrow.
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Cleaning & Coffee
So I have yet to start cleaning. I gaven't gotten motivated to clean yet but I am motivated to write. That's how it works out though. Need to finish my.coffee and make some more. Might have to go get aome Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer from Food Lion since I left mine at Mom and Dad's. I will have to get mine from there house Friday. I will be drinking coffee all day. That will help motivate me to clean maybe. Or it will help motivate me to continue to write. Either way sometime this house needs to be cleaned today and today is probably the only day I will have to do it or the only day I will feel like doing it. I am going to ne tired Friday but I have to stay on top of my meds and on the right schedule. But I won't be able to take my meds Thursday night since I have to work. My Risperdal makes me fall asleep so I can't take that Thursday night since I will be at work. Oh well its all good. Hopefully one night without my meds will be okay.
Cleaning & Coffee
So I have yet to start cleaning. I gaven't gotten motivated to clean yet but I am motivated to write. That's how it works out though. Need to finish my.coffee and make some more. Might have to go get aome Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer from Food Lion since I left mine at Mom and Dad's. I will have to get mine from there house Friday. I will be drinking coffee all day. That will help motivate me to clean maybe. Or it will help motivate me to continue to write. Either way sometime this house needs to be cleaned today and today is probably the only day I will have to do it or the only day I will feel like doing it. I am going to ne tired Friday but I have to stay on top of my meds and on the right schedule. But I won't be able to take my meds Thursday night since I have to work. My Risperdal makes me fall asleep so I can't take that Thursday night since I will be at work. Oh well its all good. Hopefully one night without my meds will be okay.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
My day so far
At Mom and dads house. Waiting for the lawyer to call. Woke up this morning and Jen was awake. Apparently she had a flat tire last night and had to have het car towed. She had been up all night. Woke up and spent time with her and my doggies then took a shower got dressed and went for my coffee. April and Cheryl were working and I talked to them for a bit. Then headed to mom and dads. Mom bought me a huge thing of Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer. Yay now I have creamer to use at home now I just need milk.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Memories
I love my family all of them even if we don't talk everyday. I live how much alike my cousins on my dads side and I are. My Kirchner cousins and I are so similar, we have so much in common and I am glad for that. Its nice to have family that you can relate to and that have similar interests and hobbies and the similar way of thinking.
Its nice to be able to sit down and write my thoughts down and keep a journal. When my dad was growing up my Grandna Bean made him write a journal and he wrote in it everyday. I still have dad's journal but I think its in cursive so I couldn't read it very well. I am sure dad could decifer his writing maybe. Grandma Bean was a teacher I believe and so she was always focused on learning and reading and writing. Maybe that's where I get it from. I have always had a love for reading and writing. I get the love of reading from dad because he has always loved to read. His favorite books to read are civil war books, mostly about the Confederate Army the south. He has so many books it would take me forever to read them all but he has read them all. I have read some of his books. Mostly the ones about Tennessee, Cades Cove and the Great Smoky Mountains. Writing well, I don't know where I get that from. I have always loved to write since I was old enough to write. When I was in elementary school I won poet of the month. I can't remember what my poem was about though. But I remember I was proud of myself. They hung up my poem in the cafeteria for all to see. I rememver getting so many compliments about it too. Over the years I have won the Editor's Choice Award for Outstanding Achievement in Poetry through poetry dot com and the Intrrnational Library of Poetry. I still have two of my certificates from there. I won on October 2006 and June 2005. I don't know where all my other certificates went unless Mom has them somewhere. I have a book that I keep all my certificates in. I have all of my certifications in there. I have my certificate from Basic Training at Fort Jackson and my Cambridge Certified Internet Associate certification from Camvridge Intercontinental University. I have my Career Resdiness Certificate issued by the Commonwealth of Virginia. I have my Annual Report Team certificate from when I worked on the Annual Report at WWRC in 2008. I have my MS Excel 2003 Fundamentals certificate from Brainbench. My Computer Fundamentals (Win XP) certificate from Brainbench. I have my Microsoft Excel 2003 Microsoft Office Specialist Certification and my Microsoft Office Word 2003 Microsoft Office Specialist Certification that I recieved through Blue Ridge Community College. And I have all my certifications from Skillsoft that I recieved while at WWRC. I have Certificate Of Achievement from WWRC for completion of Study Strategies Made Easy. I have my MS Word and English Grammar Certifications I recieved from BrainBeez. I also have my certification from Learn To Type dot com and at that time I typed 60 words per minute without any errors. I have my Customer Service Certification I received while at WWRC. I also have my certificate as an ordained minister from the Universal Life Church Monastry which I recieved on 17 September 2008. Yes I am an ordanined minister.
Friday, October 25, 2013
My Day
So today was day 2 of training Tabitha and she did good. Tomorrow she should be able to run the register by herself while I do paperwork. Today was a busy day and it got even busier after we lowered our gas prices. 711 was having a grand opening or something so they lowered their prices so we lowered ours. After that we were so busy with people getting gas. Since they were having their thing that meant they would change their gas prices back up so April and I stayed over so we could change our gas back up. We sold a lot of hot dogs too more then we normally do which is always a good thing. Now I am home and Jen isn't feeling good. Thinkin maybe the flu shot made her sicker. You are not supposed to get flu shot if you're sick and she had or still has pneumonia. So she is laying on the couch resting and watching tv. We both have to work tomorrow so we will be fighting over the shower tomorrow and she always wins. Forgot to call the lawyer back today guess I will do it Monday since they don't work weekends. Can't wait to get divorced and finally be done with it all and put it all in the past. I had like 6 cups of coffee at work today well I am still drinking on the 6th cup now. I was bouncing off the walls lol. But, I got a lot done today and we were busy so we did good for the day. We raised $20 in donations for Breast Cancer for the Susan G Komen of Augusta County Foundation. We reached our goal for today which I set at $15 so we did good. We did better than yesterday that's for sure. Didn't get to talk to mommy yesterday because when dad called mom was at the kingdom hall at the meeting. So hopefully I get to talk to her today. I posted a bunch of stuff on her Facebook Wall I wonder if she saw it or knows how to look at it. It was a bunch of a recipes I posted on there. I want to make some of those at mom's house, it would be nice to cook with mom. We used to cook together when I was a kid. Mom is a good cook and I learn from the best. Today isn't as cold as it was yesterday but I had frost on my windows this morning before I went to work. I am going to have to start getting up earlier so I can defrost my windows. I hate this weather, the cold sucks but I guess I should look at this way, at least its not raining or snowing. So at least I am grateful for that. Off to do laundry which I am almost caught up on or so I think. Still need to so my Daily Writing Prompt which I have not picked a topic on yet.
Monday, October 21, 2013
Had a good day
Went with Mom today. I got to Mom and Dad's house and Zeus was outside waiting for me. Went in and started watching a show with Mom that was on Animal Planet. It was about dogs being rescued. Then I went and got on the computer and checked my emails and wrote some. Then I decided to work in my online class the IT Course. I did one lesson and took a test which I passed. I stopped at the beginning of the next lesson because the lawyer called and I talked to him about getting divorced. I am supposed to get a call from another lawyer but one who is in Connecticut since that is where we got married. Supposed to hear from the lawyer in 3 days. After I got off the phone with the lawyer I took Zeus outside and enjoyed the nice warm sunshine. The weather was nice today. Probably the warmest weather we will have all week. Thankfully I was off work to enjoy the weather. After I got done smokibg I let Zeus inside and Mom and I left. I took Mom to a place she hadn't been before and she got her two jobs. Then we went to Kmart and she paid on my layaway for me. We were in Kmart for awhile and after that we went to visit with Grandpa. Grandpa gave me a chair that he didn't want. So now I have another chair I can use at the computer desk. After we left Grandpa's we went and got food at Wendys. I got a Chilli with Cheese and Onions but haven't eaten yet because I am not hungry right now. Then we went back to Mom and Dad's and I let Zeus outside and then I left. Now I am home and let Bella and Cinder out to go pee and Jen is asleep. Thankfully she is off Wednesday too because we can spend the day together. I got a headache, think I might take an Advil. Not sure why my head hurts. I haven't had a headache in awhile. Mom and I went to Starbucks after we left the house. I got a Cafe Mocha in my Starbucks cup and a Pumpkin Sugar Cookie. Mom got a Orange something another, not sure what it was called but it had Orange flavor in it. It disn't taste too bad but I like my coffee. The Cafe Mocha is my favorite along with the Veggie Artisan Breakfast Sandwich. I love Starbucks. I always look foreard to two things during the week, one being spending time with my parents and the other being able to go to Starbucks and getting my coffee. Too bad we don't have a Starbucks in Verona, that would be awesome. I don't see that happening any time soon though. So Jen and I went out for breakfast this morning at Kathy's Restaurant in Staunton. I ate eggs, bacon chocolate chip pancakes and toast. I even had leftovers which I plan on eating later. Probably going to eat the rest for breakfast tomorrow. So I Louie gave me a pumpkin a couple weeks ago and I brought it home and sat it on the porch. I haven't done anyrhing with it but its a pretty big Pumpkin. I think I might carve it into something. Jen cared our pumpkin last year and she did a good job at it. I have never carvded a pumpkin before because I grew up not celebrating holidays so I never got to do it but I think I will this uear. Just need to get me a carving kit. So for Halloween this year I am going to dress up in a Lederhosen which is a German Bavarian Outfit. Either that or Spider-Man again since I still have my costume from last year. Anyways time to do some house cleaning amd then eat some of my Chilli.
Sunday, October 13, 2013
My Daddy
This is my daddy Harvey in my Tennessee beanie. I bought him a black Vols beanie. He liked my beanie better. Lol.