Sunday, July 19, 2009

What's New With Me

I'm going to be working on my guitar skills. Yeah, I'm going to be pulling out the guitar. I plan on getting some new tattoos. I went to a new shrink and she told me I didn't have paranoid schizophrenia or bipolar and my therapist Courtnay said the same thing. So apparently I was misdiagnosed so they tell me. That means that Dr. Agarwell in Hopewell was wrong about what I have. I don't think so but I'm going to be naïve and believe them. I'm going to be in denial. Well, I don't have to be in denial because I don't have mental issues. I'm perfectly normal. I don't have ADHD either. Debbie is pissed at Valley Community Services Board now and mom told me that she has heard people say not take your kids there. Anyways. Okay, back to cleaning.

Addiction and Recovery

Well I am still at the point to which I don't think I have a problem. I went to my therapist and now I am going to be starting something called Women's IOP. It's an outpatient treatment program for people with substance abuse problems. So I am doing some research on the Google and I never heard of animal/pet therapy. I didn't know people actually used aromatherapy and holistic approaches to battling addiction. I think a lot of people have drinking problems but just don't realize it, or maybe not. Maybe they just like to get drunk and party. I mean what's wrong with that? I don't see anything wrong with drinking and partying and having a good time. Wow, they have "Coloring Therapy." That's new, I've never heard of that before. They have poetry therapy. That's interesting. I would definitely be interested in that. I am a poet, I have been writing poetry since I was in elementary school. I don't think I've ever had a problem with alcohol. I always thought I was just having a good time and partying and doing what young adults my age do ya know. But since 2007 it seems I hear more and more people tell me that I have a problem. I have seen people with alcohol problems and I am NOTHING like them. I mean don't you have to do something MAJOR which turns your life around and at that point you decide that you have a problem? Well nothing like that has happened to me. I have been around some people who drink like ALL the time. I never saw them as alcoholic's. I just figured they like to drink you know. I'm just like any other young adult. You put alcohol in front of me and of course I'm going to drink it.