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Irritable

Yesterday I worked first shift which is 7 am to 3 pm and then I got off work and came home and well I laid down and tried to go to sleep but I was unsuccessful at that so I got up and cleaned the house. I got a lot accomplished around the house which is a good thing but sleep wasn't happening. I tried to later take a nap on the couch but that wasn't successful either. The reason I was trying to go to sleep is because I had to be back at work at 11 pm to work 11 pm to 7 am. Yeah I worked at 16 our shift basically but not back to back. I think I would have liked it better if it was back to back that way I got it out of the way and was done with it. Anyways my point is after working third shift I got off work this morning and man I was exhausted. But then of course when I got home I wasn't tired anymore. Which is okay I guess. I'm tired but I'm not tired. I don't feel like going to sleep plus I have to work first shift tomorrow so I want to be able to sleep tonight. You know be back to my normal schedule and routine. I don't want to throw off my sleep schedule. So I will be sleeping tonight and going to bed at 9 pm like I do every night. I was going to go to Mom and Dad's house today and get my tire for my truck but I just don't feel like leaving the house. I just feel like staying at home with Bella and Cinder and relaxing all day. Glad I cleaned the house last night so I don't have to do that today. Jennifer started laundry thankfully so I should be nice and fold the laundry in the dryer to help her out and get that out of the way. Of course at the moment Cinder is laying on my lap and I don't feel like getting up. I am sitting comfortably in my computer chair that Grandpa Collins gave me with Cinder in my lap sleeping so I am just going to stay put. I am watching Days Of Our Lives right now. I am a little irritable today. No sleep and well I didn't take my Risperdal last night is why I am irritable. Risperdal is my medicine for my Bipolar Disorder and Paranoid Schizophrenia. So its obviously important that I take it. Last night I was hearing things, people talking when there was no one there and other shit. But I made it through the night thankfully and boy was I glad. I didn't mind working third shift at all but since I had forgotten to take my medicine I was hearing things and was all paranoid so I was ready for my shift to be over. I am watching Days Of Our Lives right now and I have missed a lot on the show. I don't like Rafe with that Jordan girl, I liked him better with Kate. He was better with her. And this new Will I am not sure I am going to like him. I liked the other Will better but maybe I will get used to this new Will. And Nick, oh don't even get me started on that douchebag. I hate Nick, everything about him I dislike. And if Gabby gets back with him she is beyond stupid but hey this is a soap opera so they will probably get back together, that's how the plot thickens. Still I don't think Gabby should get back Nick, he's a douchebag and I don't trust him.

Fuck this cold weather

I'm sick of this damn cold weather and I am really sick of the fucking wind. The wind makes it 100 times colder. I can't take this shit. I am not made for Winter damn it. And like an idiot I decided to get my haircut now I am 10 times colder than I was when I had hair. WTF. I just have to be patient, be strong and deal with this cold weather because thankfully it is almost over hopefully. Spring is coming soon and with that hopefully warmer weather will come. I will pray for warmer weather because I can't take this cold weather anymore. I'm tired of my nose running all the time. I'm tired of being cold. I'm tired of freezing. I'm tired of not being able to feel my fingers. I'm tired of not being able to feel my nose. Ahhhhhhhh.. Okay rant over. I am done complaining, at least for now I am.

Personality Test I Took

I took a Personality Test and all I can say is WOW. It describes me to the T. Its amazing how much it describes me perfectly. You should take it and see if it describes you to the T also. Anyways I am going to post my results as screenshots.

I hate this cold weather

My nose is running grrr. My fingers are like ice and they won't seem to warm up. Cinder was on my lap keeping my legs warm but now she is on the couch next to Jennifer sleeping. The wind is ferocious outside, it makes it much colder outside when the wind is blowing. And it feels like the temperature is the negatives because the wind is blowing. Last night wasn't as cold as it is today. This morning has been much colder than last night was. Then again I could be thinking that because I was up and moving around and keeping warm. I don't know but I will tell you one thing, I sure do hate this cold weather. The cold makes me right knee hurt and boy the pain is horrible. I have taken a lot more showers this Winter than I ever have before. I take a shower in the morning before I go to work and then I take another shower after I get off work to warm up. I like it when the water is all nice and hot and I come out looking as red as a lobster. It keeps me warm which is the way I like to be. I can't stand to be cold, I mean I am cold blooded so I would rather be hot and or sweating then to be cold. Jennifer however unfortunately is the opposite. She is hot blooded and so in the Winter the heat isn't turned up as high as I would like it be because if I turn it up she will get hot. And during the Summer since she is hot blooded she turns the Air Conditioner on where I am freezing and I absolutely hate it. I have to wear sweat pants and a hoodie inside the house during the Summer. That is one main reason why I prefer to be outside during the Summer because than I won't freeze to death from the air conditioner. It sucks sometimes that Jennifer and I are opposites on that, we kind of clash a lot because of that. I have started taking my Iron pills regularly again in hopes that they will make me not as cold. I don't know when I say I am cold people are always like, did you take iron pills. So I guess taking my iron pills will help me be warmer or something. I don't know anyways. My Cousin Sandy says she thinks warm, happy thoughts in the Winter and that helps her get by. She is very positive and I am glad that works for her but I freeze all Winter and even if I do think warm, happy thoughts that doesn't make me any warmer. BUT, Spring is almost here thankfully and with that I am hoping it warms up. I can't stand the Winter, I am not made for the cold at all.

A poem I wrote the other day

Staring into the darkness
I look inside my mind
Which is a dark place
Where I keep my thoughts hidden
Fore I keep my thoughts to myself
Because no one would understand
Just a dark soul
Wandering this earth
Filled with madness
Trying to stay sane
In a world full of craziness

- Aiden Bean

There are some things that  money cannot buy. Like manners, morals and intelligence.

Dog's Bedtime Prayer

Now I lay me down to sleep,
The king size bed is soft and deep
I sleep right in the center groove
My human beings can hardly move
I've trapped their legs,
They're tucked in tight
And here is where i pass the night

No one disturbs me or dare intrude
Till morning comes and I want food
I sneak up slowly to begin
And nibble on my human's chin
For morning's here, it's time to play
I always seem to get my way

So thank you Lord, for giving me
This human person that I see
The one who hugs me and holds me tight
And shares their bed with me at night

Amen

Spider-Man 2

Never compare yourself to someone else. The only person you should try to be better than is the person you were yesterday.

Don't ever mistake silence for ignorance, calmness for acceptance or kindness for weakness

Some animals are more caring than some humans. That's why I like animals better. They have good hearts.

The way to happiness: keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry, live simply, expect little, give much.

"Start by doing what is necessary; then do what is possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible" – St. Francis of Assisi #quote #inspiration #whatinspiresyou?

Exercise your body, quit complaining, get out of bed, stop making excuses. Why? BECAUSE YOU CAN... Because you have arms and legs that work, a heart that is pumping and a life worth living. Because there are so many other's who can't.

Seriously some people shouldn't come in the store on the phone being all loud. Nobody wants to hear your conversation especially when you sound like an idiot. Besides, it's fuckin rude to talk on the phone when someone is waiting on you.

I can not regret who I was. My past is the proof that recovery produces miracles.

Is it just me or am I the only one who takes my phone to the bathroom with me when I take a crap so I won't be bored? I'm probably not the only one lol. I like to blog when I am sitting on the toilet.

5 Phone Numbers Every Dog Owner Should Have Handy

If you’ve got a dog (or, is it that the dog has you?) this is one list you’ll want to print out and keep near the phone. In an emergency, when the internet is down, or if you simply need assistance with your dog from a real, live person, these 5 phone numbers should be in the Rolodex of every dog owner:

National Animal Poison Control Center: 1 888 426 4435. In an emergency every second counts. The National Animal Poison Control Center is a 24-hour manned emergency hotline sponsored in part by 36 different companies. While there is sometimes a charge for consultation, this call could save the life of your dog.

Spay/Neuter Helpline: 1 800 248 SPAY.Irresponsible breeding results in the abandonment and euthanization of thousands of dogs each year. SPAY USA is a national referral service that helps connect pet parents with free or low cost spay and neuter services in their area. With partnerships at over 950 programs and clinics nationwide, they eliminate finances as an excuse for not spaying or neutering your pets.

Animal Legal Hotline: (707) 795-2533. Do you suspect your neighbors are abusing their dog? Are you having issues with your landlord or tenants over a companion animal? Do you want to report a veterinarian that you believe is operating unethically or illegally? Here is the number to call. The Animal Legal Defense Fund can help with landlord-tenant disputes, veterinarian issues, neglect, and any form of abuse.

Emergency Disaster Information Line: 1 800 227 4645. Provided by the American Humane Association, this number provides support and relief information for pet owners living in areas affected by disasters including earthquakes, hurricanes, flooding, fire and more. While not an official “hotline,” this number is manned by live persons able to direct pet owners in the event of a natural disaster or emergency.

Pet Travel Hotline: 1800 545 USDA. If you plan on traveling by plane with your dog, a quick call to this number will ensure you are prepared for any bumps in the road where your dog is concerned. Run by the U.S. Department of Agriculture’s Animal and Plant Health Inspection Service, this hotline provides travel resources, licensed pet transporter contact information, rules and regulations, and also assists those that believe their animal was treated inhumanely during travel.

In addition to these national helpline and hotline numbers, make sure you’ve got the numbers for your local veterinarian, nearest emergency veterinarian, and your local animal control services handy, too.

God Made a Dog

Samsung Petcam IP Camera

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How to Build an iPhone Accessible Pet Cam

Check out this article on About.com on how to build an iPhone Accessible Pet Cam. Below is the link to the article. Sounds pretty cool.

http://netsecurity.about.com/od/newsandeditorial1/a/How-To-Build-An-Iphone-Enabled-Pet-Cam-For-Less-Than-100.htm?utm_medium=sm&utm_campaign=mobilesharebutton2&utm_content=z1overlay-t2&utm_source=facebook

We don't always need advice. Sometimes all we need is a hand to hold, an ear to listen and a heart that understands. Sometimes all we need is a dog.

I know who I am and what I've been through, what I can handle and how strong I am. Before you say anything about me, do you know who you are.

After Monday and Tuesday, even the calendar says W T F

“Lies are the mortar that bind the savage individual into the social masonry.” 
-- H.G. Wells

I wish Taylor Swift would write a song called, "Maybe I'm The Problem"

People are truly beautiful when they talk about something they love with passion in their eyes

Psychology says, pretending to be happy when you are in pain, is just an example of how strong you are as a person.

Cheating isn't always kissing, touching or flirting. If you gotta delete text messages so your partner won't see them, you're already there.

If you don't want to face the monster don't unleash the fucking beast. I'm like the Incredible Hulk, you better not make me angry. You won't fucking like me when I'm angry.

What a beautiful world it would be if people had hearts like dogs

Talk about your blessings more then you talk about your problems. You will see what a difference it makes when you think and talk about the positive things instead of the negative ones. Be grateful for what you have been blessed with in life. Some others are not as fortunate as you have been.

Bella and Cinder, my babies

Nothing better than naps with my dogs Bella and Cinder. Them laying on my chest or me laying on their chest listening to their heart beat. Its funny when Cinder is asleep because a lot of the time she snores. Jennifer as a video, actually two videos of Cinder sleeping and snoring in the video. Lol. Cinder is so freaking adorable, I love her so much. She has my heart and she knows it. She knows she is my child and I believe she knows how much I love her. I love coming home and being greeted by Bella and Cinder as they jump on me and give me hugs and kisses. The thing I hate the most though is leaving and having to say goodbye to them. Especially when I have to go to work and have to say goodbye to them because that means I have to be away from them for 8 ours but coming home to them is great because when they greet me at the door with their tales wagging and jump up on me and give me hugs and kisses its all worth it. I love Bella and Cinder so much. Cinder is my Basset Hound, Dachshund, Beagle mix doggie and Bella is my Cocker Spaniel doggie. Cinder loves bones, I guess they are rawhide bones. I make sure to keep her bone supply plentiful. Bella is not as into bones as Cinder is. Bella likes her squeaky toys and she has lots of them, a whole laundry basket full to be exact. Can you say spoiled much lol. Bella doesn't eat bones like Cinder does but she likes to eat on them after Cinder has chewed on them a bit. Cinder is sitting on my lap as I write this. Well, now she is looking out the window. That's another thing, she's like to go outside and she knows what outside means. Whenever I say outside her ears perk up. She loves going outside and running in the backyard. And boy can she run, she runs fast too. She does laps in the backyard. Bella is not as much into running around in the yard, she mostly sticks to staying on the deck. BUT, she doesn't mind going in the backyard when the dogs next door are outside and when they're out she goes to the fence and barks at them and wags her tail and well so does Cinder. They run the fence line barking at the dogs. I guess its their way of saying hello to the dog's next door. Bella is closer to Jennifer, she is more of Jennifer's dog and Cinder is more my dog. I love Cinder with all my heart and soul, she is my baby. She is a tomboy and doesn't mind getting dirty and boy has she got dirty before. One time when we lived up in the mountains Cinder was digging in the dirt and she had dirt up her nostrils lol and all over her nose. It was cute. We got Bella first, back in December 2011 and we wanted Bella to have a companion so Jennifer got me Cinder. Bella and Cinder are inseparable and they don't like to be apart at all. Any time Jennifer takes Bella for a ride and leaves Cinder at the house Cinder freaks out and whines and goes crazy. She doesn't like being without her sister. Cinder is very protective of Bella. Cinder is laying on my lap right now sleeping. She is warm and keeping my legs warm. I love my babies and I am so glad that I have them. They have brought such joy and happiness into my life.

Talking Dog Device Ready to Hit Market Soon

Has anyone else heard about this yet? I first heard about it yesterday and I think it sounds amazing. Could you imagine your dog being able to talk, I mean actually speak to you. I can't imagine my dog talking to me but it would be awesome. If you haven't heard about it yet here is the article from Yahoo News.

What if your dog could greet you with more than a growl, or announce the reason he's scratching at the door?

It sounds absurd and much like the storyline from the Pixar film, “Up,” but Scandinavian scientists are working to develop a headset that could soon allow your furry best friend to speak his mind.

The Nordic Society for Invention and Discovery is the brains behind “No More Woof” -- technology that aims to distinguish canine thought patterns and then issue them as short sentences via a microphone.

“The brainwaves differ quite a lot from different races as well as individual dogs,” NSID writes on their website. “However it is possible to detect some common patterns and we have no doubt that in the future this technology will open up a vast new era of communication between dogs and humans, or animals in general and humans.”

The research team, who previously brought the world such inventions as the pet flying carpet, weren’t immediately available for comment on Wednesday, but explained the most recent project on their website.

“No More Woof is the result of combining the latest technologies in three different tech-areas - EEG (electroencephalography) sensoring, micro computing and special [brain-computer interface] software,” the researchers wrote.

The operating system relies on sensors in the headset which detect electric signals in the dog's brainwaves. Technology from an in-built processing device then analyses the signal patterns and deciphers them into distinct feelings like anger, curiosity or tiredness.

Sample sentences such as “I’m hungry – but I don’t like this!” or "I'm curious who that is?" will be programmed into the device and emitted through a loudspeaker.

English translations will be available, but Putonghua, French and Spanish language headsets will come later, the researchers say.

How exactly scientists will attach the sensors into a dog's brain has yet to be ironed out. Issues like this, as well as the ethical and social concerns, are the reason why there’s a whole lot more research to be done before the technology becomes available.

The headsets are, however, available for pre-purchase on indiegogo as part of the research funding campaign, with three different versions that range in functionality and price, from $65 for the micro to $300 for the standard version or $1,200 for the Superior customizable mini-speaker, replete with engraved dog tag.

You might have to wait a while for the first prototype to arrive in the mail, but the implications are enormous, the researchers say.

And as friendship is a two-way street, it’s only fitting that the scientists are also aiming to develop a reverse headset for humans to bark their way into the hearts of their canine buddies.

Other applications and accessories the researchers have in their far-sighted future include a “Pavlovian training kit,” with original instructions by the physiologist Ivan Pavlov, to further the owner-pet bond through the use of play and classical conditioning.

“Right now we are only scraping the surface of possibilities,” the researchers write. “The first version will be quite rudimentary. But hey, the first computer was pretty crappy too.”

Lots of Exercise and energy

Well yesterday I worked and it was a pretty busy day. Yesterday was busier at work then Saturday was. Surprising really since you would think Saturday would be busier but no yesterday was pretty busy and the weather wasn't too bad. It was actually pretty nice outside and I got to enjoy it after I got home from work. When I got home yesterday I let the dogs out to enjoy some of the nice weather and I sat down and I smoked a cigarette on the back deck while the dogs ran around in the yard. After I let them in I started a load of laundry in the washer and started exercising. I did Aerobics for 20 minutes and then I ran for 20 minutes. I ran over a mile the first time, well all the times that I ran. I ran a total of 40 minutes yesterday. The last run I did I ran almost 2 miles on the 10 minute run. I exercised a lot yesterday, I exercised for an hour and 42 minutes. I did good yesterday and I drank a shake for dinner. I didn't really eat yesterday except for trail mix. Last night I couldn't sleep and then Jen came home after work and we went to Walmart and then stopped at Waffle Inn for some food. Then we went home and I ate and took my medicine and went to bed. That was around 1:30am. I woke up this morning around 7am, Jen woke me up and we went and got Starbucks and then went to get gas for her car. The pumps weren't working at my store so we went to Matt's store to get gas. Then we went home and I started exercising. I ran for 20 minutes this time. I did the 20 minute run and ran almost 3 miles. I was very close to 3 miles. I did pretty good and I didn't get too exhausted with that run. I exercised for 10 minutes equaling a 30 minute workout and it felt good to exercise. After I exercised I took the dogs out and Jen had went to her Grandmother's to get her Avon order and she came back home shortly after I was done exercising. Jen has to work today so she went out with me to smoke and then went and laid down. Cinder was hyper this morning and she got her exercise by running around the yard. She was running fast doing laps in the yard. Lol. Silly doggie. Bella needs to get more exercise. I wish I could get her to run around the yard like Cinder but she stays mostly on the deck for some reason. After that I came inside and drank my shake and watched TV and then took Cinder and Bella outside while I smoked. Then I came inside and folded the laundry then put it away. After that I gathered up my clothes and went and took a shower. After my shower I took Bella and Cinder out while I smoked a cigarette. Then we came inside and I talked to Jennifer and then left the house. I went to my store to Mom and Me some Juva Roast. April wasn't very talkative. I guess she wasn't in a good mood or something. She didn't talk to me much. So I didn't stay and talk I just got my coffee and left. She didn't seem like she wanted to talk to me. She was fine with talking to Matt and seemed in a good mood when it came to talking to him but not to me and Tabitha. Or maybe it was just me but I can't think of anything I would have done wrong for her to act like that towards me. Who knows maybe she is in a bad mood because its Monday. Anyways I am not going to dwell on it and overthink about it. Maybe she will be fine tomorrow. Oh well, I am just going to focus on my job tomorrow at work and getting my job done. So yeah I left the store and headed to Mom's. Now I am at Mom's and hoping my package from Kmart comes soon. I thought it said it would come between 10 and 11 but here it is almost 12pm and it hasn't arrived yet. But come to think of it I remember seeing UPS stop by on this road in the afternoon like around 3pm or so but I hope it comes before Mom and leave to run errands but if not oh well. I just hope it comes today because that would make me happy. I got three shirts and a watch. The watch I got are Body By Vi colors which are green and black. I would have gotten an orange watch for Tennessee colors but I didn't see one only the green and black. Well the Fedex truck just went by but my package is coming by UPS. Darn. Oh well patience is a virtue so I must be patient. Lol.

I might run one last time before i go to bed. Just might. That would be my fourth time running equaling 40 minutes of running. I am freaking determined to beat April's score. Somehow though I doubt that will happen tonight. But I am getting faster and better with each time I run and that's a good thing. I will eventually catch up to her and hopefully beat her score. But the thing is she keeps getting better and each time a higher score. It's on like donkey kong now. 

So not tired. I've got all kinds of energy. Seems like exercising gives me more energy. Weird. I have to go to bed soon though cos I gotta take my mom tomorrow to run errands. And I am finally breaking down and getting my haircut. It has grown long enough and I am tired of it finally.

Waiting for Jen  to get home. I've been exercising all evening, cleaning the house and doing laundry. Trying to stay busy and stay active. As they say a body in motion stays in motion and a body at rest stays at rest. And I hadn't exercised for three days. My body was at rest for 3 days and I couldn't seem to get going and get motivated. But with the help of a little sunshine and a warm day I got motivated and got moving. Now if I could only beat April's score on the 10 minute run on the Wii Fit.

One Of My Customer's Today

So I have this customer that is a regular that always comes in. Today she said to me, "Please pray for the bishop, I have been writing him". First of all I don't pray for child molesters. And he is one because he was charged with molesting several children. He used to run the church she went to until he was arrested for molesting several children. I don't pray for child molesters, I think they all should burn in hell. Fuck that. She is a religious nut always saying Praise Jesus and blah blah blah. She is a little cooky. I am nice to her though, I just listen and nod. She believes the guy didn't molest those children. Of course that is probably what he told her and most of them say they didn't do it. A child isn't going to say he or she was molested if it wasn't true, at least most times they won't. Especially since that is something that is hard to admit and most people don't like talking about when they are molested so why would a child lie you know. I don't believe that guy, I think he is a liar. Some Christian he is going around molesting children what the fuck. She is an idiot to believe his lies. She is brainwashed or something, at least it seems that way. I can't believe she is writing him in jail and still believes he is innocent. What an idiot. Of course he is in jail he probably has no one else because everyone else probably disowned him so of course he is going to tell her what she wants to hear. And she is obviously desperate if she has to seek a man who is a child molester and in jail. Sad how brainwashed and desperate people can be for attention.

My day

I didn't get as much done at work today as I would have liked but my energy level was low today. I am trying to get back into my routine that I was in before I worked those two third shifts. It's hard, it messes up everything. I sold 4 hot dogs today which is good. I cut onions today which helped clear up my sinuses. That's always a good thing. I think I have a cold which sucks. I'm off work now and enjoying this weather. I didn't do the body test this morning on the Wii which is going to make my weight off from what it really is. You're your lightest in the mornings so that's when I like to do the body test but oh well. I will do it after I get out of the shower. I can only imagine what it will say. I ate 5 doughnuts the other morning which equaled to 950 calories. That is a lot of calories. My limit is about 1200 calories a day. I blew thAt out of the water the other day. I didn't even put it in my calorie app. I was afraid of what it would say. I've never gone over before. Anyways time to get on the grind. 

Recovering

Still recovering from working third shift two nights in a row. I was off Friday but I was so tired. I haven't cleaned the house in two days so I gotta do that today and tomorrow. Gotta start laundry after I take a shower. Outside with the dogs enjoying this nice warm weather we have. Bella won't go out in the yard but cinder is running around. Jen's at work and I'm missing her. I wish she was here. I gotta exercise I haven't exercised since last Tuesday. Ugh. I worked third shift Wednesday and Thursday. It killed me and screwed up my sleep schedule. I don't know how Jen does it. No wonder she's always tired. 

Been working

Haven't sat down and wrote cos I've been working third shift and I was sleeping all day. I'm back to my regular routine tomorrow though thankfully. Jen is off tomorrow to so we're going to go pay bills and take care of business. They came and did an estimate on her car and when she hit that deer she did over $1000 damage to the car. Pretty crazy. I got to get new tires on the front of my truck tomorrow. Hopefully I will have time to so it tomorrow. I need new tires for my truck. Anyways

A relaxing day so far

I woke up this morning around 9:30 and went outside with the dogs and smoked a cigarette. I came inside and ate Chobani Blended Pineapple Yogurt and drank my first bottle of water. After that I drank my breakfast Vi Shake. I took some photos of Connor and Cole which I would upload later. I spent some time with Cinder in the living room. I was about to go take a shower when Faline texted me and told me that I needed to call Mom and Dad and check on them. I texted her back and asked her why then she called me and told me there was a standoff on mom and dad's street. So I got off the phone with her and then called Mom. Mom was in bed asleep when I called and she got out of bed and went and looked out the window and said there were police everywhere. She said one was parked in the driveway and most of them were parked in front of Louie's house which is the next door neighbor. Mom said the SWAT Team was out there too. She said the police had guns drawn. She said she couldn't see which house they were targeting but she thought it was Dolly's house. Dolly is the neighbor a couple house's down that is a cop. It turned out that they were targeting the house that is 2 houses down from Mom and Dad's which is next to Dolly's house. That is the house that Will's grandma used to live in. She died and the house got sold and it was recently remodeled. I didn't know anyone was living in that house yet. I haven't seen cars or anything in the driveway, it still looked empty but apparently people are living in the house. The neighborhood is a great place to live, the neighbors are nice and friendly and the neighborhood is quiet. Those new people have apparently brought drama to the neighborhood because everyone in the neighborhood has lived there since I was a kid except for those new people who just apparently moved in. Anyways I heard that it was a shooting from a customer and Mom said that she saw on the news that it was a domestic dispute which turned into a standoff. I read online on the News Leader Facebook page that it was a domestic dispute which turned into a standoff because the guy wouldn't come out of the house and that they were investigating whether there were actually shots fired. Apparently someone in the house managed to get out of the house and run to a neighbor's house to call the police. So that's why there were cops everywhere. It was craziness in our neighborhood for 2 hours.

So after I got off the phone with Mom I went and took a shower. When I got off the phone with her the cops were still there and that was around 10 something. I went and took a shower and after the shower I turned on the Wii and did the body test. It said I hadn't gained any weight or lost any weight since yesterday. It said I weighed 137.1 which was what I weighed in at yesterday. After I did the body test I got dressed and then took Cinder outside while I smoked a cigarette. After that I went to my store to get some Juva Roast Coffee. April had just made the coffee, it had just got done brewing when I walked in. So it was nice and hot and fresh which is the way I like it. I hung around for awhile talking to April and while I was in there talking to her my phone went off and scared the crap out of me. The reason it scared the crap out of me was because it was an emergency amber alert and the alert tone I had never heard before and it was an emergency tone alert and it scared the crap out of me and I jumped. April laughed and said that all Iphone's get emergency alerts like that. April got it but her phone was on silent so she didn't hear it. I went outside with April as she changed the outside trash and then I came back home. I got home and took my medicine and drank my lunch Vi Shake. After drinking my Vi Shake I went outside with Cinder to smoke a cigarette. I got done smoking and Cinder wouldn't come in so I got on the Wii Fit and ran for 10 minutes. I ran 1.501 mile today. After I ran I called for Cinder and she came inside. Then I did Aerobics on the Wii Fit and did the soccer exercise and Torso Twists and other exercises until I had exercised for 30 minutes. The Wii Fit wants you to exercise for 30 minutes a day. Yesterday I believe it was I exercised for 42 minutes which is good. So after I exercised I got on the computer and I drank my second bottle of water. Now I am drinking my coffee and about to go to bed.

Third shift today

Gotta work third shift today. Oh what fun. Not looking forward to it. Took my medicine and am drinking my shake but haven't exercised yet. 

My day so far and it has been a strange day

So I had my alarm set this morning for 7am but Jennifer woke me up at 5:42 this morning. I turned my alarm off and got out of bed. Jennifer woke me up because she had cooked and wanted me to eat her food. She didn't cook breakfast though, she cooked Hamburger Helper with corn, bread and applesauce. Well, she knows I love her cooking so that is why she woke me up. She wanted me to eat it while it was nice and hot. So I sat down and ate my food and gave some of it to the dogs. It was good but I was expecting to eat breakfast food not dinner food for breakfast but it was okay. So I ate and went and smoked a cigarette and then Jennifer and I went to Steller One to check my account to see if my tax return had went into my account which it hadn't. So then we stopped by my store to get coffee and I got Jennifer a cappuccino. After that we went back home and I tried to get into my routine. I exercised on the Wii for 15 minutes and did the body test and then decided that was enough exercise for the moment. I decided not to do the while 30 minutes at one time today. I had decided to come back to it later on. I took my medicine and drank my first bottle of water and then made my shake and drank it. After that I got on the computer, that was around 8am and then I realized I had to Jim who is Billie's brother to take his drug test. So I hurried up and got my clothes together and went and took a shower quickly and then got dressed as quick as I could. Then I took Cinder outside with me while I went to smoke. April called about that time and asked if I was ready because Jim was at the store waiting for me. I told her I had let Cinder out and I was smoking and then I would be there. So I finished smoking and headed to my store to pick him up. When I was pulling up April was headed to the bank. He got in and I took him to the Clinic to take his drug test. He wasn't in there long which is good that he didn't have to wait too long. After that I dropped him off at Rite Aid and I headed back to my store because I needed a refill on my coffee. That would be my second cup of coffee for the day. I stood there talking to Tabitha as I drank my coffee and then I went outside and smoked with her. After that I headed home and I got here and got on the computer for a bit. It was about 12 pm and I took my afternoon medicine.  Then before I knew it time had flown by and it was time to drink my shake. So I drank my shake and since Laney spilled my coffee I went and got some more coffee which would make that my 3rd cup of Juva Roast. I came home and Jennifer was getting ready for work. She was sitting on the bed for a moment because she was tired and she started her period so she wasn't feeling good. Jennifer since I have been with her has not had a period so its strange for her to all of a sudden have a period. Note that we have been together since December 2010. She had something wrong as to why she never had a period but here lately she has been getting a period. I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing but she doesn't like it very much. I don't blame her though because having a period is horrible. I got put on the Depo shot so I wouldn't have a period anymore and boy am I thankful for that. Anyways Jennifer went to work and I decided to go take a shower and warm up and after that went outside with the dogs and I smoked a cigarette and took my 3rd dose of medicine. I started laundry and put a load in the dryer and thankfully the house has warmed up since I started laundry. Now I am sitting here writing which is one of the things I love to do. I am a natural born writer and poet at heart. I got back on the Wii after I smoked, I forgot that part. Yeah I turned on the Wii Fit and did the Soccer exercise for 5 minutes then I did some strength exercises for 5 minutes and then I ran for 10 minutes. The Wii Fit said I ran 1.342 miles or something like that, it was over 1 mile at 10 minutes. I did pretty good considering I think. I have exercised a total of 42 minutes today. I only did 15 minutes this morning and had decided I would come back to the Wii Fit later which is what I did.

I checked my Facebook earlier and had some notifications from Jennifer Wimer who was one of my best friends in high school. She is on my friend's list on Facebook. It seems as if Karen and I who is my other best friend that we have drifted apart or so it seems. And it seems as if Jennifer and I have gotten closer. I doubt Karen will ever read this because well she doesn't read what I write or at least I doubt she does. She probably doesn't even know about this blog or comes to read it but if she does oh well, I only speak what's on my mind and the truth. But seriously, it seems if Karen and I have drifted apart. Jennifer and I are getting closer or maybe its that Jennifer and I have always been close. We went through a lot together in high school because we were both a target for bullying and had to deal with people being mean to us and making fun of us. And we always stood up for each other no matter what. It seems kinda like me and Karen don't have that much in common anymore. We had the love of writing and poetry but Karen doesn't write or do poetry anymore. At least one of the times we hung out recently she wasn't into writing anymore. We always shared that together but I guess not anymore. I'm not sure what we have in common if anything at all. But Jennifer and I have a lot in common. Our love of animals and our right to stand up for what we believe in and speak the truth and no bullshit or lies. Jennifer is a great person and I am glad she is my friend. I am glad Karen is my friend but I hope that we can reconnect our friendship to what it once was like when we were kids. Then again, I know things change and we grow up and so things might not be the same but I hope we can rekindle our friendship and be close like we once were. But I don't blame Karen because she has been trying to hang out with me and I guess I have had my head up my ass. I don't know its Winter and I have seasonal depression and during the Winter I don't feel like going anywhere really. And well Karen works now so its finding time to hang out. Sometimes I feel like when I hang out with Karen that I have to have money to hang out with her. I don't know why I feel that way but I do. Who knows but hopefully Karen and I will hang out soon but not sure what we will do. Hopefully we can find something that we both have in common and can do together. Anyways the dogs are wanting back inside. I let them out because Cinder was distracting me from writing. She wanted me to pay attention to her and her only and I was in the middle of writing. Guess I will go outside with them then I need to clean the house. I didn't my goals accomplished like I had hoped but I guess you could say I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. Lol.

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Free Online Courses

I had posted about free online courses, I did several blog posts about them. I am going to finally check some of them out. The only one I have worked with is the ALISON Free Online Courses. Which I have an account on there and have taken some of the courses on there. I am going to check out some of the other websites that offer free online courses. And I am also interested in finding out what MOOC is all about.

Motivated and Determinated

Motivation and determination are the key to success. If you're not motivated and determined you won't be successful. You'll get nothing accomplished if you're not motivated. I am motivated today and determined to get my list of goals accomplished that I have set forth for myself today. When I wrote my list I left out a couple thing a which I had remembered later that I wanted to get done so I will have to remember to do those things. Calling he electric company is one of those things which I won't forget to do. 

Good morning

Gotta take Billie's brother to take his drug test. He's apparently at the store waiting for me. I tried to hurry. I however don't like being rushed. But I should've been more motivated this morning. Tried pushing myself but I kinda forgot about having to take him until around 8 then I hurried up. Just gotta take him to do his drug test then I drop him off. Then I can start on my list of goals for the day. 

Had a pretty good day

Woke up this morning and took the dogs out and while they were out running around I smoked a cigarette and checked my phone for any messages or notifications. Then we came inside and I took my medicine and drank my first bottle of water for the day. With my diet they say to drink your body weight in ounces which mine is 4 bottles of water a day. After that I turned on the Wii to Wii Fit and did the body test. It said I had lost 3 pounds since yesterday. I weighed in at 136.8 and my Wii Fit age said 33. I did the soccer exercise on there for 5 minutes and then did some Aerobics and then for 15 minutes I ran long distance on the Wii Fit. I exercised a total of 30 minutes. Apparently according to the Wii Fit you're supposed to exercise 30 minutes a day at least if not more. So since yesterday I have been exercising for 30 minutes a day. It gets excited when you exercise for 30 minutes lol. After I exercised I went outside with Cinder and then we came in and I went and took a shower and got dressed. I did a little photo session with Cinder this morning lol. I think by the 20th photo she was done taking photos haha. I haven't uploaded them yet though.

The dogs want outside right now so I will come back and write more about my day. Time for a potty break for the dogs. Lol. I love my babies, my children. <3 p="">
Checked the H&R Block website and signed on and then clicked on the button to check the status of my federal return and it says my return has been accepted and it has also says my return has been approved. Unfortunately the Refund Sent is not highlighted like the other two are. So that means my refund hasn't been sent yet. Oh I hope I get it soon. It says I should get it by 20 February 2014.

So back to my day. After I took a ton of photos with Cinder and of Cinder I gave Cinder a hug and kiss goodbye and gave Bella a hug and kiss goodbye and told Jen bye and then I left and headed to my store. I stopped by my store and got another refill of Juva Roast Coffee. I talked to April for a few minutes and talked to Tabitha for a few and smoked a cigarette with her and then I left and headed to Mom and Dad's house. Normally I stick around and talk for a bit but it was like 10:30 or so and I didn't want to waste any time so I headed to Mom and Dad's house instead of hanging around for awhile talking like I normally do. I got to Mom and Dad's house and Mom was already dressed and waiting for me. I had brought my bag in and made my shake and drank it for lunch. While I drank my shake I got on their computer and checked the status of my federal tax return and it finally said it had been approved which it hadn't said the last time I checked it. So one more step forward, now I just need it to say refund sent. I sat at the computer drinking my shake and I got drinking my shake and gave Mom my blender bottle to wash. Then I took Zeus outside while I smoked a cigarette. After that I came inside and took my medicine and then Mom and I headed out. We went to Staunton so she could apply for her two jobs that she needed. She is on unemployment so each week she needs to apply for 2 jobs to keep her unemployment. She got her two jobs so we headed to Verona because I wanted another refill on my coffee and I had gotten the case for my phone in and I couldn't figure it out so I wanted April to help me put it on. When we got to my store I had to pee so I went to the bathroom while April tried to figure out my phone case. April said the phone case I got was cheap and she couldn't get it off. She suggested that I send it back which I am going to have to figure out how to do. I will have to check the email they sent me.

Cinder wants to go back outside wow she's an in and out kind of dog lol.

Back inside where its warm, boy its cold outside. It wasn't that cold today, I mean it was chilly at like 40 some degrees. I was pretty warm most of the day of course I did take my Iron pill today like I'm supposed to which haven't done in awhile. So back to the great day I had today.

So April tried to take the phone case apart so she could put it on my phone and it broke. She suggested I send it back. I told her I would have to find the email receipt they sent me and figure out how to send it back but I just checked my email and I don't have that email anymore. I'm not worried about it, it was only $4.99. I guess you get what you pay for which apparently I got a crappy phone case which April said was a knockoff Otter Box. Oh well, hopefully the 2nd phone case I ordered isn't a piece of crap like the first one was. I am hoping it isn't especially now that I know the first one was crap. The second phone case hasn't come yet but when I checked the tracking info on it online it said it was being sent from China and that it hadn't left China yet. The first phone case didn't take long at all to come in the mail but I'm guessing it came from within the United States unlike the second one. So I left my store and Mom and I headed to Waynesboro. We got in Waynesboro and headed to Walmart. I pulled in Walmart and was going to park semi far away like I normally do because I don't like to park too close to other people because I don't want a door ding on my truck or anything else to happen to my truck. I don't know what it is but I don't like parking too close to people. I was going to park semi far away and Mom said there's a spot closer so I kept going. I found a parking spot but it was still semi covered in snow but I parked there anyway. I went to step down out of the truck and slid on a patch of ice. I fell down hard on the ice, a lady was walking by a little ahead of my truck and she turned around and asked me if I was okay and Mom rushed to my side of the truck and asked me if I was okay. I was slightly embarrassed by falling down on the ice but I got back up and brushed it off and said I was okay. Mom and I went into Walmart and well the main reason we went in there was to get Dad's medicine from the pharmacy. When we got to the pharmacy there was a huge line and tons of people waiting so I told Mom let's just get the other stuff we need first. So we went ahead and did our other shopping. I got 2 more half gallons of my Silk Unsweetened Almond Milk for my shakes and got some more Yogurt and Mom decided to try the Chobani Yogurt so she got a thing of it too. After we got our stuff we headed back to the pharmacy and there was still a line and even more people waiting at this point. Mom stood in line and I waited nearby with the cart. I was getting impatient but Mom came shortly after that. It didn't take as long as I had thought it would. Mom said one girl was on break and just came back from break and that is why the line sped up so quickly. We went and stood in the checkout line, the speedy checkout 20 items or less and some woman had well over 20 items and she was in one of those electric carts and it took forever it seemed. And the guy at the checkout had to put her groceries in the cart for her because obviously she wasn't getting out of it to put her groceries in the cart. I let a guy go in front of me because he only had 1 item, he was an older gentleman and I didn't want him to have to wait forever in line but I didn't realize that woman had more then 20 items. I couldn't see what was in her cart until she put it up on the belt. I kind of felt bad because he could have stayed in the other line and probably would have been done sooner. But he said thank you and was grateful I let him in front of me. He was a nice gentleman. The lady was finally done and left and then the older gentleman paid for his milk and it was our turn in line. The guy rang up our stuff quickly and we headed out of Walmart. I decided to be careful when I got in the truck this time as to not fall again. I put the stuff in the back and Mom opened my door and I climbed in the truck. I lit a cigarette and drank some of my coffee and then Mom and I went to the Caribbean Car Wash so I could empty the trash can in my truck. I took the bag out of my trash can and threw it away and put a new bag in it and then Mom and I headed to Wendy's. Dad wanted a Diet Coke so we stopped to get him one and since we were there Mom went ahead and got their food for dinner because she didn't want to have to go back out. I should have went inside with Mom, I felt bad because the Manager helped Mom carry out the drinks for her. I should have went inside with her but I didn't feel like getting out of the truck. Next time I will go inside with her and help her carry the stuff. I didn't feel like getting out of the truck and I didn't think she was going to get so much. She got like 3 drinks or something a bag full of food. Mom and I left Wendy's and headed to her house.

Time to go back outside lol. Cinder loves to go outside. Bella not so much haha. I love my doggies, they're my babies.

So we got to Mom and Dad's house and I helped Mom carry the stuff in. I had to pee again so I went pee and then went and smoked a cigarette then went back inside. I was in there for a few minutes more and then gave Mom, Dad and Zeus a kiss goodbye and left. I headed home and when I got here Bella and Cinder were happy to see me. I took them outside for a few and we came inside and I decided to start writing. Cinder has been in and out all evening but that's normal for her lol. Plus I go out a lot to smoke and when I go out to smoke they follow. Cinder is laying on the couch and Bella is sitting on my lap while I am on my laptop. The radio in the bedroom sure is awful loud or maybe its just the bass in the radio. It seems loud to me then again Jennifer might have turned it up. Jennifer is at work and it sucks without her but I have my babies so I am okay. I love spending time with Bella and Cinder. They're my babies, my life, my world. Bella and Cinder are laying down right now. I need to get off the computer and spend some time with them but I am in the mood to write at the moment and I don't want to waste an opportunity to write. A lot of the time I am not in the mood to write so when I am in the mood to write I take that opportunity to sit down and write.

Today was a pretty good day and I got a lot accomplished. Unfortunately I cannot log on to Steller One. Apparently I didn't have an account or did have an account and couldn't log on to the online banking. I decided to sign up for an online account on there and it said it would take 3 days to get my log on information. Grrr. I tried to call their 800 number but since its President's Day the bank was closed today and so their 800 number was closed too. I will have to call tomorrow and see if I can set it up. They should be open tomorrow hopefully because I need to get this taken care of. I have for a long time been trying to get online banking but never got around to doing so.

Tomorrow I am off and I have written a set of goals that I wish to accomplish tomorrow so I am going to go by my list and check things off the list as I do them. However calling Steller One wasn't on my list at the time I wrote it so hopefully I remember to call them. I have to clean the house, thoroughly clean the house, like OCD clean the house. And April asked me to take Billie's brother tomorrow to take his drug test because she interviewed him today and decided to give him a chance and so he has to go take his drug test and she sent his background check in and if all checks out then he will be hired for our full time third shift position. I hope he gets it because we really need a guy on third shift. Nobody else really wants to work that shift and I don't blame them and that's me included. I hate that shift but unfortunately April told me today that she needs me to work a couple third shifts while Cheryl is off because Cheryl has been working third since Stefany got terminated. Ugh I am so not looking forward to that. Working thirds messes up my whole sleep schedule and I am absolutely hard to get along with and be around during those days I work third shift. Ugh just want to get them over with and done with grrr. Anyways I need to check my emails because I have some emails I need to take care so I am done ranting about my day for now. I am sure I will be back to write more in my blog. I haven't written a blog post on the topic of the day because well, I haven't chosen a topic of the day or a blog to write about. I am not sure I am going to do that today because I want to spend time with my pups. 

Darkness In my mind and soul

Staring into the darkness

I look inside my mind

Which is a dark place

Where I keep my thoughts hidden

Fore I keep my thoughts to myself

Because no one would understand

Just a dark soul

Wandering this earth

Filled with madness

Trying to stay sane

In a world full of craziness

- Aiden Bean

My Blog, looking back when I started this blog in 2006

I just noticed that I have had this blog since 2006. Wow that's kind of a long time. I was looking over some blog posts that I had made from years ago and wow things change a lot. I am definitely a different person than I used to be for sure. I have changed for the better and grown up a lot and definitely matured as a person. I am not who I once was and that is a good thing. I have overcame a lot in my life and things have gotten better. I have Jennifer to thank for a lot of my changing and growing up. Things have been much better since I have been with her. We have been together since December 2010 and we are still going strong. I love her very much and we are great together. Its kinda funny to look back and read stuff I wrote from years ago. Makes me think, what the hell was I thinking or what kind of place was my mind in at that time. I can't answer that really but its nice to look back but its also like, well I shouldn't reflected back on those times because they were a dark part of my life. But things are better now and that's all that matters really.

Goals For Tomorrow On My Day Off

I am going to start setting goals for myself. I am going to set some goals for myself. I like to make checklists so I thought this would be a good one for me. So here is my checklist of goals I wish to accomplish tomorrow.

• Drink my 1st bottle of water
• Drink my breakfast shake
• Do the body test on the Wii Fit
• Exercise for 30 minutes on the Wii Fit
• Drink my 2nd bottle of water
• Drink my 3rd bottle of water
• Drink my lunch shake
• Drink my 4th bottle of water
• Drink a cup of Juva Roast
• Mop the floors
• Sweep the floors
• Do laundry
• Wash dishes
• Drink another cup of Juva Roast
• Eat some trail mix
• Clean the bedroom
• Write my morning blog post
• Write a blog post for the topic of the day
• Check emails
• Check Facebook
• Enter some sweepstakes online
• Write a blog post with a couple of my poems
• Write at least one poem
• Get on The Web Poetry Corner and post one or two of my poems
• Check my gmail emails
• Look for a new online ALISON Course to take
• Spend time with Cinder and Bella
• Possibly try to shovel some snow

Cinder and Bella

Cinder bean

Cinder bean

Can you tell I dislike Bruno Mars? Lol

Cinder

Started my day off good

I got up and Jennifer got up and we went to Mcdonalds and got breakfast then I stopped by my store and got some coffee and picked up my Thirty One order from April. Then we came home and moved the vehicles so I could get out later. We still have snow, lots of it and we are unable to fit both of our vehicles in the driveway like we normally can. So Jennifer's vehicle is in the front of the driveway closest to the house. She has to work this evening but I probably won't be home until after she leaves. I am going with Mom today and I called Mom earlier and she isn't ready yet. After Jennifer and I came home I went and smoked a cigarette then came inside and worked out on the Wii Fit. Then I drank my bottle of water, my first bottle and took my medicine and drank my shake. I ran for 15 minutes on the Wii Fit, I guess I was being loud when I was running because Jennifer closed the bedroom door. And I also did Aerobics for 15 minutes on the Wii as well as some strength exercises and some balance exercises. I had a good workout this morning and worked up a sweat. I took a shower and got dressed and now I am sitting here drinking my Juva Roast. I am about to head to my store and get more coffee then go to Mom and Dad's house. Cinder is sitting here with me and Bella is in the bedroom with Jennifer. Jennifer has to work this evening so she is in the bedroom sleeping before she has to go to work.I am going to have to work some third shifts which is going to suck. I hate working third shift but since Stefany got terminated Cheryl has been working the third shifts but Cheryl needs a day off. Hopefully the applications we've gotten will pan out and a guy can be hired for third shift. I like working daylight and it fits for me. I like being awake during the day and getting everything done during the day. I hate having to sleep during the day because I am used to being awake during the day. But it must be done so I will just have to grin and bare it for third shift and get it over with. I got my Thirty One order and I couldn't remember what I had ordered but I like it. Its a Thirty One bag with a new design and I am going to put my diet stuff in it. I don't want to have to keep carrying my big rasta bag around. This Thirty One bag is smaller and I think all my stuff will fit in it. Its not that big thankfully so hopefully I can make do with it. I should be leaving soon but I don't want to get to Mom and Dad's house and have to wait around on Mom. I like to keep moving and keep going, it seems if I stop then I get tired. I like to go go go and not stop. I have ADHD so I am always up and moving but sometimes I get tired but during the day I am always going. As long as I have motivation and determination then I can get anything done. I need to be more motivated at work. That is something I need to work on. I am motivated now and determined to have a good day.

Seasonal Depression

During the Winter I'm a major homebody. I don't feel like going anywhere or being around anybody. I just stay at home with my babies. I feel bad cos Karen thinks I don't want to hang out with her but it's not that. I just do t feel like leaving the house. 

Same Sex Marriage Ban Found unconstitutional in virginia

The ban on same sex marriage was found unconstitutional by a judge in Norfolk after valentine's Day. There is a stay on it and it has to go through the court of appeals. Let's hope it is finally found unconstitutional and that gay people can get married. I'm more concerned with it passing because I want to get divorced. I got married in Connecticut in March 2008. It was a big mistake, something I regret. Getting married to an older woman who is controlling and tried to act like my mother was a huge mistake. Eventually the age difference got to me and I was done with all the bullshit. I'm much happier now with Jennifer. She's only like 6 months older then me and we've been together since December 2010. She treats me way better and doesn't use me or try to control me at all. That's why our relationship has lasted so much longer then me and my ex wife's relationship lasted. 

Day started off good

My day has started good so far. Got the paperwork filled out and now just waiting to do the other paperwork. Buddy is playing tickets. Karen sent me a message saying she has an iPhone but apparently her iPhone is so old that it doesn't have FaceTime because when I tried to call her it said she wasn't available. So I'm guessing it's not available on her phone cos it's so old. Well at least she has iPhone even if it doesn't have FaceTime on it. Drank my shake and already drank my first bottle of water and now I'm drinking my first cup of Juva Roast. About to get the paperwork finished up. 

Bella in the snow

Cinder running through the snow

Bella and Cinder

Snow on my back deck

Bella in the snow

Me smiling

Jennifer the love of my life

Jennifer and I in Pigeon Forge Tennessee 2011

Spider-Man Tattoo I want

Another view of how long my hair is

My hair's getting long

My baby Cinder Bean

Letting my hair grow out for the winter

Me at the Roanoke Mall touching the statue's butt

Me in Tennessee

Bella in the snow with her toy

Somewhat productive day

Woke up this morning and took the dogs out while I smoked a cigarette then I came inside and got me some yogurt, pineapple kind and a bottle of water. I ate my yogurt and drank my water and then took my medicine. I got on the Wii Fit and did my body test for the day and it said I weight 137.8. Then I went and took a shower and got dressed for work. Off to work I went after saying goodbye to Jennifer and Bella and Cinder. I got to work and Cheryl was there and I made my shake and put my waters in the cooler. I had finished my first bottle of water before I got to work and after drinking my shake I drank a cup of Juva Roast Coffee which is antioxidant enriched coffee and has no calories in it. Its actually coffee that's good for you. After that I started on my second bottle of water and ate some trail mix. I vacuumed the rugs and made fresh coffee and cleaned the bathrooms. I wasn't too busy but I got busy when Buddy came in because he kept me busy getting his scratch tickets. April came in to help me with the truck since it came today. It normally comes on Thursday but with the snow it was on a 48 hour delay. April came just in time as the truck came, I was panicking because she hadn't gotten there yet but then she pulled in. So we put the truck away and I priced the cigarettes. I was happy to see that my cigarettes came in, the discounted ones. I smoke Camel Lights and we got the discounted ones in and I bought some. I put hot dogs out and did the buns. I swept and mopped the floors. Vacuuming was pointless because the rugs just got dirty again but oh well, its a never ending process there. It was a busy productive day. I stocked the cooler before I left because Peggy asked me too so I went ahead and did it. I took my trash out and went home. I got home and Jennifer woke up and told me she wanted me to take her at 5 to get her truck and then she went back to sleep. I woke her up after 5 and she went back to sleep and then she eventually woke up and I took her to get her car. After she got her car she went to Mcdonalds to get us food and while she was doing that I stopped to get me coffee and then headed home. I didn't think Jennifer would get her car in the driveway because there's so much snow but she managed to get it in the driveway. Now Jennifer and I are sitting here with the pups and watching TV. Cole is sitting on my lap because she was scared of Smoky. Smoky keeps bothering her but I keep getting after him. Talked to mom earlier though text message, I sent her a photo of Cinder that I took. I got another photo of Cinder running through the snow. Her ears were up and she was in midair. Lol.
I wrote my blog post topic of the day on Same Sex Marriage Ban being considered unconstitutional. Mostly I just wrote a blog and posted links to articles about it in the blog. I need to be more creative when writing a blog post topic of the day.