Sleep didn't happen

So sleep didn't happen. I have been laying in bed since 2 something and couldn't sleep. I just layed there. Sleep seems like it ain't gonna happen for me. My body is used to be awake not asleep. I can't make myself go to sleep cos I tried that and it didn't work. So I am probably gonna be tired as shit at work cos I am used to being asleep then but oh well that's life. Life and people fuck you over one way or the other. Maybe next time I am sick I will go get a doctor's note and inconvience people. No I woulsn't do April like that but some people don't care. Anyways I am grouchy and bitchy and well taking my Bipolar and Schizo meds tonight are out of the question cos I will fall asleep at work. Ok I am done whining now. But I am still pissed off.

Cleaning

So I finally swept and mopped the kitchen. Figured I would be productive since I cant sleep before work. Jen went back to sleep with Bella. Cinder is outside with me. Guess the neighbors decided to be quiet.

My 27 Day Blog Challenge

I decided to do my own 30 Day Blog Challenge. I don't know about the other 30 Day Blog Challenge because I don't know how I will get the updates of what to write each day. So I am coming up with my own challenge. So I am doing a 27 Day Blog Challenge.

Day 1 - Write about why you started writing. What made you start writing? What inspires to you to write?

Day 2 - What helps you get through the day? What is a typical day for you like?

Day 3 - What do you love about your family? What makes them different than others families?

Day 4 - What are some of your favorite books? What type of books do you read? What do you love about reading?

Day 5 - What type of foods do you like? What is your favorite food and why?

Day 6 - What do you like about poetry? How many poems have you written? Have you had any of your poems published?

Day 7 - What is your favorite holiday and why? What do you lije doing during the holidays? Do you have any holiday traditions?

Day 8 - What do you love about your partner or spouse? How long have you been together? What makes your relationship so great?

Day 9 - Do you have dogs or cats? Do you accept them as part of the family? What do you love about your furbabies? What makes each of them unique?

Day 10 - What is one thing you and your father would do together growing up? What traditions did you have growing up? What was your favorite pasttime together?

Day 11 - What is your favorite hobby or hobbies? What do you love about your hobby?

Day 12 - What do you love about your mother? What are some memories you have of your mother and you when you were growing up?

Day 13 - Do you believe in ghosts? Have you ever had experiences with seeing ghosts? Do you have any ghost stories?

Day 14 - When picking out shoes what do you look for in a shoe? What makes you buy a pair of shoes?

Day 15 - What type of vehicle do you drive? What makes you buy a particular type of vehicle? What do you look for when buying a vehicle?

Day 16 - Do you believe in past lives? Have you had experience or know anyone who has had an experience with a past life? Do you believe people can be reincarnated?

Day 17 - What is your favorite color? Why do you like this color? Do you buy clothes in this color?

Day 18 - Do you have any mental illnesses? What is it like living with a mental illness? How has life been growing up with a mental illness? Have you faced discrimination because of your mental illness?

Day 19 - What are some of your favorite games? What games did you like growing up?

Day 20 - What makes you angry? What makes you upset? What majes you sad? Why?

Day 21 - What do you think about the current situation of our economy? What did you think about the Government shutdown? What do you think about President Obama?

Day 22 - Do you have siblings? What do you think about your siblings? If you don't have siblings what was it like growing up an only child? What do you love about your siblings?

Day 23 - What do you love about your job? Why did you decide to get the job? What is a typical work day like?

Day 24 - What are some things you did as a kid? What memories do you have growing up with your best friend?

Day 25 - What do you love about your best friend? How long have you been best friends? What makes you compatible?

Day 26 - What is one thing that was the hardest thing in your life to do? Why was it hard to do? How did it make you feel?

Day 27 - What do you love about writing? How many times a day do you sit down and write?

What a day

So I woke up late but I went to sleep late. I have fo work third shift tonight and I can't make myself sleep. I had to get out of bed cos my back was hurting. I can't lay in bed for a long time. I had to fet up. So I got up and ate some Pumpkin Pie Poptarts and Pumpkin Spice Waffles. Then I took a shower and got dressed and went to my store to fet my coffee. I was in there for awhile talking and drinking my coffee. Tabitha and April are there working first shift. I can't sleep even though I should be since I have to work third. I took my medicine cos I didnt want to mess up my schedule of taking them. Need to take my iron pills which I havent done yet. April had it cold in the store, even a customer complained that it was cold in the store. Jen got woken up by the neighbors because they were revving up there engine in there General Lee. So she is pissed off that she got woken up. And when I pulled in the driveway the neighbors dog was shitting in our yard. Like really wtf. I told Jen and she went out the door and screamed at the neighbors. She is really mad, she doesnt like being woken up.
Today is a nice warm day and I am outaise enjoying the weather. I should be mowing or raking leaves. These leaves are getting on my nerves. I need to do something about them.

Legalize Gay Marriage

I want Gay Marriage legalized in Virginia so I can finally get a divorce cos in order for me to get divorced I or Deborah have had to been a resident in Connecticut for at least 12 months and neither one of us is or was a resident there. So my only option for getting a divorce is waiting until Virginia legalizes gay marriage.

Sleep and work

Mom and Dad should be calling soon. I haven't told them yet that I have to work third shift tomorrow. I don't know wether to stay up tonight or go to sleep. I hate when my sleep schedule gets screwed up. Oh well I am dedicated to my job. Yes I am bitching a lot about having to work third shift but at least I will work it instead of getting a doctor's note saying I can't work like some people.

Family

Memories, I try to keep them alive. I don't like forgetting things and so if I write something that I have already written then that is why. I like to keep my mind fresh. Grandpa Collins told Mom that is why he talks about the past because he doesn't want to forget anything. Grandpa has a pretty sharp mind for being 92 years old.
So I wrote Aunt Marcy about Grandpa Kirchner and asked her how he died and if he had any health problems and that was about a week ago and she hasn't written me back yet. She has all that information since she is married to my Uncle Hank. I don't have any of that information cos my Dad was adopted and I would like to know what health problems if any are in my family. Maybe she will write me back. I think I am going to write Cousin Sandy and see if she knows about any health problems or mental health problema that are in our family. They may have told me but I need to hear it several times to remember it. I know we have mental health problems in the family but I don't remember which ones. And I think Grandpa Kirchner had Dementia I believe someone had told me that probably Aunt Marcy or Uncle Hank. Who knows. Cousin Sandy and I talk the most. We are very similar and have a lot in common. I am lucky to have found my dad's side of the family. They treat me like family and not an outsider and they don't treat me like the blacksheep of the family. I love my Collins and Wamsley, mom's side of the family but I have always felt like an outsider with them. And I don't talk to them as much and they don't talk to me. I talk to the Kirchner's more then the Collins and Wamsley's. But that's mostly cos we can relate to each other and I am more like them then my mom's side of the family. I am more closer to my Kirchner Cousins then I am with my Collins cousins. It could be cos I am a lesbian and my mom's side of the family frowns upon that or maybe they don't like me or cos I am not like them or who knows. Oh well, I will love those who love me and give my time to those who make time for me. I am a lot like my dad and it sounds like dad is a lot like Grandpa Kirchner and all three of us look so much alike. I guess I feel like I have never really fit in with mom's side of the family. So I am glad that I have found my Kirchner cousins and family cos at least they make feel like I fit in and am part of the family. Funny thing is I haven't even met my Kirchner Cousins face to face yet and I am more closer to them then my other cousins and family on mom's side. It had kinda been bothering me and I talked to mom about it and she seemed to kinda feel the same way. Oh well that's life I guess. I love all my family but sometimes I feel like they don't feel the same or maybe they don't talk to me because I am so much like my dad and his side of the family and not like them. Oh well I am not going to worry about it. Not going to waste my time worrying about it but it was something I had been thinking for awhile.

So its starting to get a little chilly outside. It was like 70 earlier and I had and still have 3 shirts on, a beanie and a coat. I am way cold natured and cold blooded. I am always freezing. Hopefully taking my iron pills will help that. Maybe it will I don't know.

Cleaning & Random Thoughts

Got done sweeping and mopping and decided to go outside. Cinder and I are outside enjoying this weather. Bella is inside with Jen sleeping. All I have left to do is sweep and mop the kitchen. Then I might run a load of dishes but the dishwasher isn't completely full yet though so that can wait.

I have had a good day, I have gotten lota done today. Tomorrow I will not accomplish anything probably. I will be resting for work. I hate third shift but oh well someone has to work it. And I should be off Friday thankfully. But I got to go pay bills all day and go to my appointment with Dr Brown which I think is at 11am. So I will have a busy day Friday. Especially since I get two paychecks so thats more bills to pay. I am off on the 6th because I have to go to the Salem Veterans Hospital to get my Depo shot. And thats my two days off for the week. So hopefully I can take mom to look for her two jobs next week and it might have to be on the 6th since that is my other day off. Mom said ahe would figure something out but I do want to take her because it won't take me long at my appointment but it is two hours to get there and two hours back. I will have to check when my appointment is because I don't remember what time it s. Thankfully I have that all written down. I have to write everything down or I forget it. I have a hard time remembering things sometimes. Guess thats what happena when you get older. Then again, I have always had a hard time remembering appointments. When I was at WWRC my counselor got me a Palm Pilot so I could put all my appointments in it. And it really helped me and I never missed an appointment. I still have it but I haven't used it in awhile. I have a Smartphone so I use that but however my phone is on the fritz and it is time to get a new one. Normally I make my phones last and I have only had this one almost a year but it ia acting screwy so it will be soon time to buy a new one. Last year I got my phone on Black Friday for $.1 they had a special going and mom got the phone and that was the last time I owned a Blackberry. I have a Samsung Android phone now and its touch screen which I like much better than my Blackberry. I swore by Blackberry but then I got this phone and I will never go back to a Blackberry ever again.

Cleaning

So I swept the living room, the bedrooms and the hall way. Then I mopped our bedroom. Next is mopping in my bedroom and then sweeping again. Then I gotta mop and sweep the bathroom. Then next I gotta mop and sweep the kitchen. Then I will probably do some laundry because it needs done.
April said jokingly that this Winter if I don't take my iron pills she's putting me on second shift. She said that because I freeze in the Winter and turn the heat up and she gets hot. So I just took my iron pill. I need to remember to take it everyday.

I went in and got more coffee. And while I was fixing my coffee April went out and talked to Jen.

Shew just got done mopping and sweeping. Now all I have left is the kitchen. I am sweating and normally I am cold. Not right now shew.

Bored

So I am sitting on my back porch with Bella and Cinder. Jen is still sleeping of course. And I started cleaning finally. Well I swept then I am going to mop and will have to sweep again. Oh well. The house will be clean when I get done. It's time to take my medicine again. I almost forgot and while I am at it I will take my iron pills.

Dad & Zeus

Thats my pitbull Zeus and my daddy

Cleaning & Coffee

So I have yet to start cleaning. I gaven't gotten motivated to clean yet but I am motivated to write. That's how it works out though. Need to finish my.coffee and make some more. Might have to go get aome Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer from Food Lion since I left mine at Mom and Dad's. I will have to get mine from there house Friday. I will be drinking coffee all day. That will help motivate me to clean maybe. Or it will help motivate me to continue to write. Either way sometime this house needs to be cleaned today and today is probably the only day I will have to do it or the only day I will feel like doing it. I am going to ne tired Friday but I have to stay on top of my meds and on the right schedule. But I won't be able to take my meds Thursday night since I have to work. My Risperdal makes me fall asleep so I can't take that Thursday night since I will be at work. Oh well its all good. Hopefully one night without my meds will be okay.

Cleaning & Coffee

So I have yet to start cleaning. I gaven't gotten motivated to clean yet but I am motivated to write. That's how it works out though. Need to finish my.coffee and make some more. Might have to go get aome Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer from Food Lion since I left mine at Mom and Dad's. I will have to get mine from there house Friday. I will be drinking coffee all day. That will help motivate me to clean maybe. Or it will help motivate me to continue to write. Either way sometime this house needs to be cleaned today and today is probably the only day I will have to do it or the only day I will feel like doing it. I am going to ne tired Friday but I have to stay on top of my meds and on the right schedule. But I won't be able to take my meds Thursday night since I have to work. My Risperdal makes me fall asleep so I can't take that Thursday night since I will be at work. Oh well its all good. Hopefully one night without my meds will be okay.

Connor

Its my Connor Peyton Bean

What a nice day

Man what a nice day it is today. Its warm outside. I might be spending the dat outside. Jen is sleeping cos she has to work third shift tonight. I have to work thid shift tomorrow grrr. Today is my day to clean the house. Gotta sweep and mop the floots and do some laundry which is much needed. Gotta find me a laundry basket cos Jen has all her clothes in them.

Went and got my coffee from work, I love the Juva Roast its my favorite. Now I am home and ready to clean well maybe not ready but I need to clean.

Work

Well my Thursday will be ruined so much for dressing up on Halloween at work cos I have to work third shift. And Halloween will only last 1 hour on my shift. Here I was excited about dressing up in my Spider-Man costume. Some people just have to ruin things for ya. Some.people shouldn't have a job cos they son't ever wanna fuckin work anyway. Guess some people think they go into work and get paid for not doing anything and think they can keep they're job and not have to work. Friday I am off and that day will be ruined too since I won't get off Friday morning until 7am. And I won't be able to go to sleep cos I have a doctor's appointment and then I gotta go pay bills. I will be going to bed early Friday night that's for sure because I can't let my sleep schedule get screwed up cos then I will be all messed up for days. So after work I will probably just stay up. Its going to be hard trying to sleep all day tomorrow when i am used to being awake. I see I won't be getting much sleep. But its not April's fault, its because we have some employees that don't care about others or the bind that they will put our store in. Some people are selfish. When I am sick I still go into work. I have only called into work one time since I been there. And I have been there since July 2011. Other people have called in too many times to count.

Slept in

It was nice sleeping in until 9. I just took my medicine and ate a Pumpkin Pie Poptart. It was pretty good. Thanks to my mommy for buying me groceries. And buying cat food & rabbit food. Ny mom helps me out a lot. I appreciate everything she does for me. Jen ate a piece of Pumpkin Pie last night. I forgot the whipped cream to go with the pie though. I will have to buy that Friday. Mom bought me Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer but I forgot it at her house.

My day, a good day

So today Mom and I went to get her two jobs and then we went to Starbucks and I got a Cafe Mocha and a pumpkin sugar cookie. Mom got some kind of tea with orange in it amd I tasted it and it was pretty good too. Then we went to Wells Fargo and I cashed the refund check from the dental office. And then we went to my other bank and I deposited money into that account. After that we went to Walmart and I got everything pumpkin pie and pumpkin spice. I got a Pumpkin Pie, Pumokin Spice Waffles 2 boxes, and I got some water cos I was almost out. And I got the cat and rabbits food cos they were out. And mom got pumpkin spice cream cheese. I got some milk so I would have it for my coffee. And I got some pumpkin spice poptarts. Then we looked around for clothes for Kaylee my niece. And then mom had to stand in line at the pharmacy. After that we left Walmart amd went to the Augusta Health Pharmacy to pick up Dad's medicine and then we stopped at Sheetz and Mom got me some gas. After that we went to Wendys and got food and then went back to mom and dad's house. I helped mom carry the stuff in and then I came home. Jen is home and she was laying on the couch when I got home. She went and got her glasses today which are cute. She said they gave her a headache and are strong but I told her that her eyes have to adjust to them and get used to them. Mom got Jen and I food at Wendys and I forgot about it. Jen asked me about the food just now and I remembered it. So we haven't eaten yet but we are about too.

Divorce

Okay so I can't get a divorce because neither one of us lived in Connecticut for at least 12 months. The other option was contacting a lawyer in Virginia that handled gay family law but unfortunately there are no lawyers in virginia in the legalshield network that handle gay family law. There are lawyers in Virginia that handle gay family law but just not in the Legalshield Network. So I am just back to being stuck in a marriage that I do not want to be in. To me its just a piece of paper blah. Fuck the marriage it never meant anything to me anyway. And truth be known she pushed me into it in the first place. We hadn't even been together 6 months before we got married. Like I said, its just a piece of paper that doesn't mean shit to me. Jen and I have been together longer then Deborah and I were and our relationship is so much better. We don't need a piece of paper to say we're married cos in our eyes we are married. We have rings that we have given each other and in our hearts we feel married and we act married too. We have a great relationship. We have our ups and downs and we fight like a married couple but we make it work and we have made it last. We are faithful and comitted. Jen helped me get off drugs and clean up my life. I have changed dor the better and I am a much better person. I am more responsible, I pay my own bills amd on time. My life is just so much better than it was when I was with Deborah. Being miserable, feeling stuck, being depressed and unhappy is not my idea of a good marriage or a good relationship.

30 Day Blog Challenge

Looking forward to doing the 30 Day Blog Challenge in November. Each day they send you something and you have to write about it. I started reading about it but then Mom was ready to go so I will finish it when we come back. We are going to go to Starbucka then we are going to go buy cat food and rabbit food. And I have ro cash the check that came from the dentist office. They only refunded a little bit not the whole thing. The insurance only paid 25%. Mom paid $245 to have my tooth pulled. And.of.course we have to go get mom two jobs to apply for. She leaves her resume with them and that is conaidered applying for two jobs. Because she doesn't fill out applications. She applies for jobs in the health industry.

Taking On a Blog Challenge: Day 1

I recently came across an interesting blog challenge that a fellow writer is doing and I thought I would give it a shot. I wanted to do something that would give a behind the scenes look and share the personal side of Freelance Writers Academy and this seemed like the perfect opportunity.

The idea of the 30 day challenge is about creating freedom and adventure in all areas of your life. It is based upon Natalie Sisson’s blog and book The Suitcase Entrepreneur. Writers are challenged each of the 30 days with a prompt by email encouraging us to dig deeper into the concept of being a traveling entrepreneur and helping us to develop the habit of writing consistently.

TODAY’s challenge: Write a post on why you started your blog, who you wanted to reach, what you wanted it to be all about. Then state why you joined this blog challenge and what you want to get out of it.

Day 1

I started this blog because I finally decided start living a dream I buried for most of my life. Late last year, I began to realize I wasn’t going to be able to keep going in my current field for much longer. The wear and tear of taking care of the physical and emotional needs of elderly and developmentally disabled clients was taking too much of a toll on my physical body and my own mental health. I started contemplating other ways of making a living. That’s when a dream I abandoned long ago rose to the surface.

Flashback

I fell in love with reading at a very early age. When I was a toddler, my dad would spread out the Sunday newspaper on the living room floor and I would point out words and ask him what they were. As I grew older, I would wander around the house with my bulky tape recorder and pretend to be a journalist, reporting on all the household news and events. I devoured all sorts of books, enamored in the thoughts of others and wanting to learn more about the world around me.

I created crossword puzzles and other fun stuff for the middle school newspaper. I wrote poetry as a teen and dreamed of being a best-selling author. My best friend and I even created our own newspaper just for fun. I loved the creative process and how others thought and came to the conclusions they had. But after high school, that dream began its slow death. I fell into what I thought was love, became engaged, and found myself pregnant. My partner at the time was none too happy to hear the news and walked away from the relationship entirely.

I was not only starting my own life, but bringing in another at the same time. I scrambled over the next few years trying to survive each day and make enough money to support me and my newborn daughter. I met someone new and moved out of state to be with him. We had a child together and I started a career taking care of others in the health care field. Life carried on with the usual bumps and bruises over the next seven years. Then dreams started to turn into nightmares. The relationship went sour pretty fast and I lost everything as a result. Ugh! Time to rebuild all over again.

After 3 more years of rebuilding, I enter into long-term relationship number 3. The trials are far from over. We become engaged and then soon after, my fiancé faces a long-term disability that almost killed him. It took him over 7 years to get to almost normal and still has to fight every day.It’s this relationship that started me to start dreaming again.

My husband has been as supportive as possible, even when things look bleak. We poured ourselves into any business venture we could get into. We share the same values and aspirations and I am extremely grateful for that. I don’t think I could have been as brave enough to do what I have been doing for the past few months if I didn’t have the support I get from him.

A New Birth

I started playing around with the idea of writing again late last year. I started wondering if it was even possible. Over 25 years had passed since I had last written anything on a creative level. Did I even have it in me anymore? I had to test it out.

I started listening to a show online called the Self-Publishing Podcast with Johnny Truant, David Wright, and Sean Platt. I scoured the Internet to try to catch up on all that has happened since I left the writing world. I looked for writing communities to become involved in and settled in with Scribophile. I studied and critiqued other writers and submitted a few works of my own. I received tons of positive feedback and brushed up a few skills that went rusty after so much time away.

I regained confidence in my writing almost immediately. It was now time to put it to the test and see if I could earn money doing what I loved. Poking around in the forums, I posted a question asking other writers how they earned money writing. I didn’t expect the answers I received. The vast majority scoffed and answered brutally that writing was not a profession where you could make a living. Writing was just something you did as creative expression; there was no money in creating  works of art.

Dejected, I refused to give up. There has to be a way! About a week later, I received a message from a fellow writer on Scribophile telling me of an opportunity he knew. He shared the editor’s name and email address and encouraged me to contact her. I jumped at the chance and got the gig. The pay wasn’t much but it was at least a start. I wrote a few articles in my off-time from work and saw all of them published. I looked for other writing opportunities as well. I joined Elance and oDesk and bid for the jobs I felt confident that I could do.

After a few minor gigs and being ripped off by a client on Elance, I quickly came to the conclusion that many freelancing jobs on content mills and freelance bidding sites just don't pay enough to even make it worth your time. I started to feel pretty hopeless about the whole thing but I was determined not to give up.

Phoenix Rising

I discovered the right way to pitch and find high quality clients that will pay you what you are worth. I joined forces with some of the most amazing minds in this industry and we created a place where writers could go and learn how to advance in their careers and earn what they truly deserve. And while this place called the Kingdom of Paidalot costs money to join, I didn’t want writers who couldn’t afford to pay to be left out in the cold. That’s why I offer tons of free information and resources here at Freelance Writers Academy. 

I am writing this blog to not only record my adventures in the writing world but to help and inspire others as well who want to become writers or who are struggling to do so. I hope you will follow along with me. Let's walk together and see where the road leads.

More random thoughts

Thoughts are priceless. They are what they are. You can't change the way people feel. That's why I love Jen, she doesn't try to change me or how I feel. The only thing she changed about me was getting me off drugs amd I have been clean ever since.

Thoughts

Mom and I are going to go to Starbucks later. I asked her to make me more coffee and she said we'll go to Starbucks lol. I guess she didn't want to make coffee. I am waiting for her to get ready so I can take her to go look for two jobs. She is in there drinking her tea though so eventually she will get ready. Kinda my fault because I had a late start today because I slept in then it took me awhile to get motivated this morning. I am still waiting for the lawyer to call and he said he would call mid to late morning and its past that so hopefully he will call with good news since he is going to be calling later then he said. I sure hope he calls with good news because the suspense is killing me. I just want this divorce to be over and done with. But I will tell you one thing for sure, there is no way I am moving out of state just so I can get a divorce. I am not changing my life so I can get a divorce. Eventually they will make gay marriage legal in Virginia and then I can get a divorce. I don't have anything so its not like she can get anything from me because I have nothing to give or take. I am broke I have no money and I have no money in my bank accounts. I have my vehicle but its in my mom's name. And I don't own any property and we don't have children together, thankfully. I am just done with the whole situation and ready to be completely done with her. We all make mistakes in our life and that was one of my mistakes. I jumped into something with a woman old enough to be my mother. And I say that because her kids are not that much younger than me. The age difference didn't make at first but reality set in and it just would have never worked out with the age difference between us. I can't stand someone to try to control me, my parents couldn't even control me and I will be damned if someone else tries to control me. I am my own person and I am independent. I don't like depending on anyone else and I haven't since. I depend on myself. I was always broke with her and I didn't have a job and wasn't that responsible. Getting away from her helped me. Then I met Jen and I became more responsible and got a job and still have the job and life has gotten much better since then. Getting away from her was the best thing for me because it helped me grow up a lot. I felt stuck and alone when I was with her. And we always had tons of people living with us and that is what I like about Jen we don't have anyone living with us but our fur babies. I don't want people living with us it just causes so many problems. I don't even like people staying at my house overnight. I have changed a lot since then and I am a different person but a better person for sure. I like who I am now but I didn't like who I was then. And I am drug free thanks to Jen. I am doing good in life, we get by, we make it through. Jen and I love each other and respect each other.

Lawyer

The lawyer still hasn't called. Hopefully thats s good sign. I hope he calks with good news.

My day so far

At Mom and dads house. Waiting for the lawyer to call. Woke up this morning and Jen was awake. Apparently she had a flat tire last night and had to have het car towed. She had been up all night. Woke up and spent time with her and my doggies then took a shower got dressed and went for my coffee. April and Cheryl were working and I talked to them for a bit. Then headed to mom and dads. Mom bought me a huge thing of Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer. Yay now I have creamer to use at home now I just need milk.

Divorce

So the lawyer called and he was getting my info and explaining things to me and as the conversarion went on I realized he didn't know I was talking about a gay divorce. He was talking about jurisdictions and Connecticut and us residing in Virginia. So I told him that was the thing that we had got married in Connecticut because gay marriage is legal there. And he said ohhh and told me that was something that his law firm has never handled but he would do research on it. He sounded all cool about it when I told him it was a gay divorce. He said he is not sure but he thinks Connecticut doesn't have jurisdiction. But he is going to do some research and call me in the morning. So hopefully when he calls me tomorrow he will have good news for me. At least I am hoping. I think I will pray about it tonight. I am so hoping I can get a divorce. I am so way past done being married.

Laundry

There's so much laundry to do I don't even feel like doing it. Just got done sweeping the bedrooms and the living room. Now I gotta mop the house. Then I gotta mop and sweep the kitchen. And eventually put the laundry away and fold wjats in the dryer and then put the wash in the dryer. Grr so much laundry. Its frustrating because I am doing the laundry but dont know where to put jens clothes.

Laney And Simba

I have come to the conclusion that Laney and Simba don't like each other. They got into yet another fight and now there is cat hair all over my living room. Dang cats I swear, they just can't get along. Maybe if I get Laney fixed he will calm down. I don't know what I am going to do with them two. Now I gotta sweep and mop the living room because when they were fighting they knocked over my coffee cup and coffee went all the floor and all over them. So they are going to need a bath. Dern cats, maybe they will learn to get along.

Randomness

The wifi on my back porch is being sketchy. I am going to have to check the antenna on the router. Grr.

So one of my coworkers has an upper respiratory infection. I am so not trying to get sick so I am glad she won't be at work. I am trying to avoid getting sick this year. Jen has already gotten sick. She has or still has Pneumonia.

So Saturday Tennessee lost to Alabama 45 to 10. Of course Alabama is ranked #1 I believe. And Virginia Tech lost to Duke but I don't remember the score. Tennessee plays Missouri this Saturday so I will be able to watch the game cos it comes on at 7 dad said.

My Day & Thoughts

Stayed busy today at work. Chopped onions and the tears flowed and they made my nose run, they were strong. Someone said to put a piece of bread in my mouth while I cut them and it will fix that. Jen is at work wish she was at home. The weather is nice and I am not even wearing my coat that tells ya iys warm outside. I do have a thermal on however. I raised $5 or $6 for Breast Cancer on my shift and $2 on Cheryl's shift. So I raised about $8. Cheryl did good last night she raised over $20 and Tabitha and I raised over $15. We have reached $1300 and our goal this year was $700. Last year the goal was $60 and of course we met our goal. In November we will be doing Operation Christmas Child where we raise money and buy stuff to pack shoeboxes for children in other countries. I put my address on one box last year hoping the kid who got it would write me back but I never did hear anything back. I hope the kids have bright amiles and a great Christmas when they receieve their shoeboxes. Its all about brightening the day of a child and them having a good Christmas.

So I was looking out in my yard and realizing how many leaves I have to rake and oh man there is a lot. It seems like it will take forever especially cos I will be doing it by myaelf. And I have to pick up the limbs and put them in the trash can and I still have to mow the grass at least one more time before the cold weather hits. Ugh I am not looking forward to mowing. Oh well it must be done.

Wish Jen was home but she's not but she has to work and I understand. I just wish she worked a different shift. Oh well. So I am off Friday and I get two my pay check and my VA Check so I will be off paying bills plus I have an appointment at the VA Clinic that day so my day will be full. Then on the 6th I have to go Salem VA Hospital for an appointment. So that takes care of my two days off. Friday I am going to have to see if Mom wants to go look for her jobs for the next week because going to Salem will probably fill my day up. Guess we shall see cos I don't know what time my appointment is but its just for my Depo Shot so it won't take long. Maybe I will see if mom wants to go with me then we can go look for her jobs or do it before my appointment.

Blah

Not feelinf good. Think I am going to go to bed early tonight. Jen started laundry before she went to work so I am trying to finish it but it might have to wait until tomorrow.

Cold

My lotion from Bath and Body Works smells good. I got several different fragrances of the men's lotions and they smell good. I took another bottle to work with me today because the bottle I had there was almost gone. So my hands are always smelling good and are always soft.

This laundry seems neverending. Here I thought I was almost done with laundry and almost all caught up. Oh well its all good.

Bella and Cinder and I are outside and its starting to get chilly out here. I am getting cold. Probably gonna be a cold night tonight. But rhe weather report said we are supposed to have warmer weather. Guess we shall see about that.

Sitting here now watching Roseanne. Jen had it on this channel. Then again its been on TV Land for days. I like this channel, some of the shows are good. I like Golden Girls too which is now on.

Thoughts

Man the dryer is so loud and squeaky. Now that Jen cleaned the bedroom there is an endless amount of laundry to do. I am finding washcloths and rags I didn't even know we had. Now I have rags to clean the kitchen with. Which is one thing on my list to do. I need to clean the counters and wipe down the dishwasher and the stove. I need to write down the recipe for Crockpot Stew cos I wanna make some of that. We have a Crockpot bur I have never used it yet. There are so many things i can make in the crockpot. I wanna make Crockpot BBQ. I bet that would taste good. I had a book somewhere of crockpot recipes. I am going to have to get some recipes together and cook some food. I haven't cooked in awhile. I want to go over moms and cook with her. She made cupcakes with Kaylee. I ate 2 and they were good.

Football & Laundry

Everyone seems to be watching football. Not me, I am doing laundry and cleaning my house. I am getting sick. Was sneezing constantly this morning at work and was just talking to Jen on the phone and coughing my head off and she told me to take Coriceden so I took two of those just now. Trying to stay hydrated so I am drinking water. So not trying to get sick and I haven't had my flu shot yet. I plan on getting my flu shot on the first which is when I have an appointment with Dr Brown so I figured I would get it then since I will already be there. Hopefully I am not sick then or they won't give me the shot which is what happened last year. I went in to get my flu shot last year and when they took my temperature it was 101 so they wouldn't give me the shot.

Just cleaned the ashtrays and started folding laundry but then Jen called so I came outside with the dogs so I could talk on the phone. Jen is at work and called me real quick to make sure I was okay cos I wasn't feeling good yesterday. I went to bed early last night but couldn't fall asleep. I think I finally fell asleep after 11.

Bella is barking at the neighbors, they are outside doing something to one of their vehicles. Its such a nice day today with the semi nice weather. Today is one of the nicest days we have had in awhile. The weather is suppised to be nice this week. I hope so cos I have to mow and rake leaves and pick up branches. I will probably do that Wednesday since I am off and Jen will be home cos she has to work third shift that night.

My Day

Feeling better than yesterday. Today the weather is nicer too. Its warm outside and the sun is shining and the wind isn't really blowing but when it does its not a cool cold wind like it has been. Bella and Cinder are happy to be outside enjoying the warm weather. Jen must be at work cos she's not here. I like having her home when I get hime. I wish she was first shift like me. Cinder loves getting rubbed and hugs and all the attention. She acts like she missed me so does Bella. About that time, to start laundry that is. I got more laundry to catch up on now cos Jen cleaned the bedroom yesterday. Its okay I don't mind doing laundry it gives me aomething to do. And I think I will sweep and mop and feed the babies.

I'm off Tuesday and Wednesday so Tuesday I am going with Mom and Wednesday I am cleaning up my bedroom and going to wash the sheets on the bed. Need to go through stuff so I can have a last minite yard sale to raise money for Breast Cancer. If I don't get it by rhen I guess we can still have a yard sale and the money will go to Operation Christmas Child. I xan't remember what our goal is but last year our goal was 10 shoeboxes.

Today was a busy day and I thought it would be slow but it wasn't. We did good in sales today. And we raised over $15 in Breast Cancer Donations. Better than yesterday for sure cos we only got four dollars yesterday.

I ate a hot dog for lunch with all fixins but chilli and cheese cos I don't like that on my hot dog. Didn't drink but 3 cups of coffee and 1 cup of iced coffee.

I didn't forget Tabitha this morning. I was  earlier for work cos I changed my routine in the morning and set my alarm earlier.

Feelin like crap

Been feelin like crap all evening. Normally I come home and clean and do laundry but I didn't do that today. I have been cold all evening but my face has been hot. I ate some Tomato Soup a little while ago. Jen said I have to wait before I take my temperature so it will be accurate. Hope I can get rest and feel rested. Set my alarm for earlier do I can allow time to defrost my windows. Gotta remember to pick up Tabitha in the morning. I am forgetful but I told Jen to remind me. Should be time now tp take my temperature but Jen said to wait 20 minutes. I'm tired and ready to go to bed.

Not Feeling Good

Not feeling good. Hopefully I am not getting sick. Ate some Tomato Soup just now. Going to bed here shortly. My face is hot but I am cold. Hopefully I will feel better in the morning. I just need some rest probably.

Memories

I love my family all of them even if we don't talk everyday. I live how much alike my cousins on my dads side and I are. My Kirchner cousins and I are so similar, we have so much in common and I am glad for that. Its nice to have family that you can relate to and that have similar interests and hobbies and the similar way of thinking.

Its nice to be able to sit down and write my thoughts down and keep a journal. When my dad was growing up my Grandna Bean made him write a journal and he wrote in it everyday. I still have dad's journal but I think its in cursive so I couldn't read it very well. I am sure dad could decifer his writing maybe. Grandma Bean was a teacher I believe and so she was always focused on learning and reading and writing. Maybe that's where I get it from. I have always had a love for reading and writing. I get the love of reading from dad because he has always loved to read. His favorite books to read are civil war books, mostly about the Confederate Army the south. He has so many books it would take me forever to read them all but he has read them all. I have read some of his books. Mostly the ones about Tennessee, Cades Cove and the Great Smoky Mountains. Writing well, I don't know where I get that from. I have always loved to write since I was old enough to write. When I was in elementary school I won poet of the month. I can't remember what my poem was about though. But I remember I was proud of myself. They hung up my poem in the cafeteria for all to see. I rememver getting so many compliments about it too. Over the years I have won the Editor's Choice Award for Outstanding Achievement in Poetry through poetry dot com and the Intrrnational Library of Poetry. I still have two of my certificates from there. I won on October 2006 and June 2005. I don't know where all my other certificates went unless Mom has them somewhere. I have a book that I keep all my certificates in. I have all of my certifications in there. I have my certificate from Basic Training at Fort Jackson and my Cambridge Certified Internet Associate certification from Camvridge Intercontinental University. I have my Career Resdiness Certificate issued by the Commonwealth of Virginia. I have my Annual Report Team certificate from when I worked on the Annual Report at WWRC in 2008. I have my MS Excel 2003 Fundamentals certificate from Brainbench. My Computer Fundamentals (Win XP) certificate from Brainbench. I have my Microsoft Excel 2003 Microsoft Office Specialist Certification and my Microsoft Office Word 2003 Microsoft Office Specialist Certification that I recieved through Blue Ridge Community College. And I have all my certifications from Skillsoft that I recieved while at WWRC. I have Certificate Of Achievement from WWRC for completion of Study Strategies Made Easy. I have my MS Word and English Grammar Certifications I recieved from BrainBeez. I also have my certification from Learn To Type dot com and at that time I typed 60 words per minute without any errors. I have my Customer Service Certification I received while at WWRC. I also have my certificate as an ordained minister from the Universal Life Church Monastry which I recieved on 17 September 2008. Yes I am an ordanined minister.

Brrr its cold

Outside with Bella and Cinder enjoying the rest of the daylight while it lasts. Jen left to take Brittany and Bayleigh home. Now I can continue my daily routine of doing laundry and cleaning. Jen took the old chair outside and we brought in the one Grandpa Collins gave us. I like it better, its more comfortable and warmer then the other one we had. nd its in better condition too. I have like 5 layers on right now of course I am outside though. I am not trying to get sick. Jen had or still has Pneumonia and I don't want to get sick. I have been using hand sanitizer like its going out of style.

Bee its cold outside seems like the temperature is dropping now. The weather is supposed to be nixe this week, supposed to be warmer. And I sure hope the weather report is riggt.

DWP: Favorite Holidays

Daily Writing Prompt: Favorite Holidays

I have a couple favorite holidays and my birthday is considered a holiday to me. So my birthday is one of my favorite holidays. Growing up when I was a kid I never celebrated my birthday because my mom is a jehovah witness and they dont celebrate birthdays. I don't know why they don't but they just do not. Your birthday is a celebration of your life and that's something to celebrate. So I don't see why they wouldn't celebrate it. So I never celebrated my birthday until I was 21. At that time I was living in an apartment in Waynesboro and was working at Alcoa. Jennifer Wimer gave me a kitten for my birthday that year and I named him Harry Potter because well Harry Potter was popular then and had just come out and I was obsessed with Harry Potter. Harry was an adorable kitten and I loved him dearly. My birthday cake had Harry Potter on it. He was flying on a broom and smoking a joint and the cake said Harry Potsmoker. Lol it was the thing at the time of my life that I did. Jennifer Wimer came over to celebrate with me that year and we had fun. I have celebrated my birthday every year ever since then. This year for my birthday we went to Bush Gardens because thats where I wanted to go because they have the Germany part of Bush Gardens and Oktoberfest. I had a lot of fun but it would have been better if it had been just Jen and I and it wasn't. But I did have fun and next year I plan on having an even better birthday then this year. I'm not sure what my plans are for next year but we will see as the time comes near.
My next favorite holiday is Christmas because that is a time of the year that is happy and joyful and you get to spend time with tour family and loved ones. Its such a joyous time of the year. After I atteneded WWRC I always celebrated Christmas at my house and I always invited Bear, Scoop and Eric and cooked food and we all sat around talking and eating and just having a good time. Since Jen and I have been together we celebrate Christmas wirh her family. Christmas 2011 was the last Christmas I got to spend with Grandma Collins and I am glad I got to spend it with her because she died a couple days before my birthday in April 2012. Every year Jen and I go to her grandparents to eat Christmas breakfast and then we all open up presents and take pictures. Its a nice happy time and its nice to be surrounded by family. My parents because they are Jehovahs Witnesses do not celebrate Christmas. I believe Jehovahs Witnesses don't celebrate Christmas because it has to do with Christ. I learned why growing up but I don't remember. Every Christmas I play Christmas music and make my house smell good with Christmas scents. This year I think I will cook up something for Christmas since I like to cook. Those are my favorite holidays and my favorite season of the year is Summer because its nice and warm and hot. I don't like being cold at all. So I love Summer because its warm outside and you can do so much more  lin the Summer. I don't swim but Jen and I and her grandmother always go to Sherando Lake every summer and they swim. I did get in the water this year though. We saw a little baby turtle this year at Sherando Lake. It was so cute and adorable and so small. I also love Summer because that's the best time to go on vacation. Jen and I go to Tennessee a lot. My parents own property down there so Jen and I go and check on the property. Hopefully this year we get to go to Tennessee because we want to go to Dollywood next year. This year we didn't get to go on vacation so we just stayed home plus Jen didn't get vacation time cos she had just started. So this year we want to go to Dollywood. I was thinking of staying in a cabin. They have a package deal on the cabin with Dollywood tickets so thats what we are probably gonna do.

Busy Day

Had a busy day at work. We did good in sales but we didn't do so good in Breast Cancer donations. We only raised well Tabitha only raised $4.33. Tabitha was on register today and she did good. She only asked me a few questions. Stocked the cooler which really needed it. We ran out of Dr Wham which is one of our best sellers. I was able to do paperwork and stuff since Tabitha was on the register. I accomplished a lot today. Now I am home and I came home to a clean house cos Jen has been cleaning the house all day and our bedroom is all cleaned up and looks nice. Jens been doing laundry most of the day. And the house smells good too. Brittany and Bayleigh are here also visiting. Work tomorrow and Monday and then I am off Tuesday and Wednesday yay. Gonna take mom to look for two jobs and spend the day with my parents. The leaves need to be raked cos they are all over the yard and blowing everywhere.  Jen bought me some garden tools for the summer which will come in handy. And next summer I will have a weedeater cos I have one on layaway right now. Its a good one it has a rechargeable battery. Thankfully its not a gas one I don't like those kinds. Jen worked this morning and got off work and came home and has been cleaning ever since.

My Day Off

So Wednesday Jen and I were off work so we got to spend the day off together. I spent the day cleaning the house and doing laundry. I was able to finally tackle cleaning the bathroom. Then around 2 or so I went with Jen to her doctors appointment she had. She had went to Rockingham Memorial Hospital because her ribs were hurting and she wasn't feeling good so her doctors appointment was a follow up about that. The hospital said she might have a Pulmonary Embolism. Plus she had to get her medicines refilled. She got her flu shot and they took blood to rule out the embolism. Not sure if she has gotten the results from that yet. While we were in the doctor's office the VA called me back about an eye appointment. I didn't answer the phone so they left a voicemail. Then the lawyer from Connecticut called while we were in there and that call went to voicemail too. Then the VA Clinic called about my dizzy spells and they left a voicemail. Everyone decided to call back while I was in the doctors office. After that Jen and I went to Panera Bread for dinner. I had Rigatoni and an Iced Mocha and Jen had the Tuna I believe. After that we went home and I finished laundry.

Last night I was asleep and Jen asked me if I was cold and she said I said yes so she put another blanket over me. I was cold but I hadn't remembered her asking me that until she asked me just now. I vaguely remember her asking me that but I do remember her putting another blanket on me. It was cold last night and we even had the heat on. I hate this cold weather its too cold for me. I am cold natured, cold blooded, always cold.

Dinner

Mopped the living room and bathroom and swept the floor. Been doing laundry still. Jen and I went and got dinner at Wendys. We both ate a chicken sandwich mine was grilled of course which is the way I like it. Outside with the dogs now and Jen and I are out here talking. Its not as bad out here as it could be. Jen decided to go inside where its warm. One of the cats are in the bedroom window meowing. Guess Jen forgot the cat was in there.

Just a thought

Be grateful for what you have others would love to have what you've got. Something to remember. So many people are so ungrateful these days. Stick them in a third world country and I bet they will start being grateful. Ungrateful people like that girl who was complaining about her food stamps dropping to $1106 irritate me. I can't stand selfish, lazy, ungrateful people or people who use others and I really can't stand people who lie. I believe honesty is the best policy and that is why I don't lie. Its easier to tell the truth then have to cover up a bunch of lies. So I went outside a little bit ago and its that time again where I will have to rake the leaves. Gonna borrow the leaf blower from mom and dad so that will make it easier to manage all the leaves and there is a lot of them.

DWP: Thanksgiving

Daily Writing Prompt: Thanksgiving

So in November is Thanksgiving. And with that comes what you are grateful for this month. So each day in November I will write what I am grateful for. Last night I wrote a blog about what I am thankful for amd grateful for. But I have lots that I am thankful for and grateful for. So I have all month to write about it and I plan on doing so. I am not sure what we are doing for Thanksgiving but if we don't have plans then we are going to have Thanksgiving at our house. And I will invite all or family and friends. My parents never come to holiday functions because they don't celebrate holidays. Well mom doesn't and its hard to get dad out of the house to do anything at all.

My Day

So today was day 2 of training Tabitha and she did good. Tomorrow she should be able to run the register by herself while I do paperwork. Today was a busy day and it got even busier after we lowered our gas prices. 711 was having a grand opening or something so they lowered their prices so we lowered ours. After that we were so busy with people getting gas. Since they were having their thing that meant they would change their gas prices back up so April and I stayed over so we could change our gas back up. We sold a lot of hot dogs too more then we normally do which is always a good thing. Now I am home and Jen isn't feeling good. Thinkin maybe the flu shot made her sicker. You are not supposed to get flu shot if you're sick and she had or still has pneumonia. So she is laying on the couch resting and watching tv. We both have to work tomorrow so we will be fighting over the shower tomorrow and she always wins. Forgot to call the lawyer back today guess I will do it Monday since they don't work weekends. Can't wait to get divorced and finally be done with it all and put it all in the past. I had like 6 cups of coffee at work today well I am still drinking on the 6th cup now. I was bouncing off the walls lol. But, I got a lot done today and we were busy so we did good for the day. We raised $20 in donations for Breast Cancer for the Susan G Komen of Augusta County Foundation. We reached our goal for today which I set at $15 so we did good. We did better than yesterday that's for sure. Didn't get to talk to mommy yesterday because when dad called mom was at the kingdom hall at the meeting. So hopefully I get to talk to her today. I posted a bunch of stuff on her Facebook Wall I wonder if she saw it or knows how to look at it. It was a bunch of a recipes I posted on there. I want to make some of those at mom's house, it would be nice to cook with mom. We used to cook together when I was a kid. Mom is a good cook and I learn from the best. Today isn't as cold as it was yesterday but I had frost on my windows this morning before I went to work. I am going to have to start getting up earlier so I can defrost my windows. I hate this weather, the cold sucks but I guess I should look at this way, at least its not raining or snowing. So at least I am grateful for that. Off to do laundry which I am almost caught up on or so I think. Still need to so my Daily Writing Prompt which I have not picked a topic on yet.

Soda

I haven't had soda in like two weeks. Today I took a few sips of Jen's Dr. Wham and man did it taste good. I stopped drinking soda and started drinking only water and coffee and tea. But man it tasted good. I am bad I broke down. Lol. I was wanting something different.

Grateful and Thankful

Man its cold outside and the wind has been blowing all day. Surprisingly Jen told me to turn the heat on but I am glad she did. I have been freezing all day but I have tried to complain less about it. Cinder and Bella must think its cold outside cos they go to the bathroom and come right back in. And according to the weather report its only supposed to get colder. Apparently the temperature lately has been a record low. Normally I believe its still warm or semi warm arond this time of the year. I hate the cold weather so obviously Winter isn't my favorite time of the year. But, Christmas is one of my favorite holidays. Its such a happy time of the year spent with family, friends and loved ones. But we must also be thankful and grateful during the holiday season and realize we have it better than some people do. I am grateful for my family, my job, my health and all that God has provided me and continues to provide me with. God is good and life is great. I am grateful for all things even the simple things in life. I am grateful I have shoes to wear and a warm coat to wear in the Winter. I am grateful I still have my parents and Grandpa and my sister and niece. I am grateful to have such a sweet, loving, caring, sympathetic girl like Jen in my life whom loves me and treats me good and doesn't judge me. I am lucky I found her, we have been together since 25 Dec 2010 and still going strong. We have had our fair share of ups and downs but we have made it through and are still together. I am grateful for everything my parents have done and still do for me. And I am grateful and thankful for the sacrifices my parents made when I was growing up. I am thankful that I finally found my dad's family and now he knows his sister and brother and knows more about his father and where he came from. I am thankful that Jehovah God has given me Uncle Hank and Aunt Marcy and Aunt Erika and Uncle Paul and Cousin Will and Cousin Mike and Cousin Sandy and Cousin Sherry and Cousin Paula and Cousin Chris. I am thankful that I have foind my Aunts, Uncles and Cousins who I can relate to, who are a lot like me, who do not judge me. I am thankful and grateful for my family. I love them all. I am grateful for my babies Cinder and Bella and Zeus whom love me unconditionally and whom are my companions and I absolutely adore and love so much. I can't imagine my life without them. I am grateful to have a neice whom acts so much like me and reminds me of myself as a kid. I love my Niece Kaylee and I love my sister who is always there for me and has always been there most of the time. I am grateful to have a roof over my head and a warm, cozy, soft bed to sleep in. There are a lot of people out therr who aren't as lucky and do not have simple things like that. Be grateful and thankful for things like that because there are a lot of homeless people in this world and I bet they would give anything to sleep in a warm, soft bed under the roof of a warm house for at least one night. I am thankful and grateful to the Veterans who fought bravely and still fight bravely for our freedoms and to keep us safe. I am grateful and thankful to them even though I don't believe really in War and I think they shouldn't be sent overseas to die. But they are heros in my book and they are courageous and brave and very unselfish. I am thankful for all the wonderful things Jehovah God provides for me. Yes I say Jehovah God because well he is who I have really always known because I grew up a Jehovah Witness and even though I stopped going to the kingdom hall a long time ago I still in a way act like a Jehovah Witness and have the heart of one as well. Mom told me one time that I had a heart of a witness even though I don't attend meetings anymore. The way I act is the result of the way I was raised and my parents did a good job raising me considering I was a hard child to raise being ADHD mostly and having behaviorial problems. But the kindheartedness, unselfishness and giving to others comes from the way I was raised. My parents always taught me to be grateful and thankful for what I have and for what I am given. Growing up when I was a kid a lot of the other kids didn't have what my sister and I had. I remember one thing specifically about my childhood and so does my Mom and that being that I felt sorry for some of the kids in the neighborhood and I used to give my toys to them. Mom had to tell me to stop giving my toys away, she said I know you feel sorry for them and are trying to be nice but you can't keep giving your toys away. Speaking of toys, next month is November obviously but what that means is that in the month of November at work we do Operation Christmas Child. If you don't know what that is what we do is get shoeboxes together and stuff each shoebox with school supplies, toys, socks, beanies anything really except for food and after we stuff shoeboxes they are picked up from our store and then shipped off to another country to a boy or girl and each child geta their own shoebox for Christmas. They are sent to children in other countries because those kids don't have anyone to give them anything for Christmas because they are underpriviledged and their parents can barely afford food as it is. Plus those kids over there only have Operation Christmas Child, kids in the America have the Salvation Army, Angel Tree, the Goodwill and many other organizations that provide them with Christmas presents. It feela good stuffing those shoeboxes and realizing that we're going to put a smile on a child's face and that they are going to have a good Christmas. Christmas is one of my favorite holidays and I like bringing joy to others. Christmas isn't very far away so I need to start buying Christmas gifts but I haven't begun to start shopping. Anyways I didn't realize how long I had bern sitting here writing, I have to go to bed cos I got to work tomorrow.

Coffee

Made coffee cos I was cold but I only had original powdered creamer not my pumpkin pie spice creamer :( Its not as good. Oh well, I am going to stock up on it when I get paid.

Some People SMH

Bear shared something on his Facebook that enraged us both. Some girl from Oklahoma posted a status on her Facebook about how she was mad because her food stamps went from $1178 to $1106 and how Obama sucks cos het food stamps dropped. Must be nice to be getting over $1000 in Food Stamps. I can't even afford groceries but you don't see me complaining. She gets over $1000 in Food Stamps and she is complaining because they got dropped by a few bucks. So if you go to Oklahoma you don't have to work and the government will give a thousand dollars in Food Stamps for free. Her profile said she hasn't worked since 2011 so she's been living off the government since then. She was complaining because her Food Stamps got cut and that means food out of her kids mouths. She has three kids according to her profile but over $1000 in Food Stamps a month is enough to feed at least 2 or 3 families. My hard working tax dollars are going to people like her who are scamming the government and taking advantage of it. And you wonder why people are critical and judge people who get food stamps. Its because of ungrateful, lazy people like her.

My Day At Work

So I woke this morning and let the dogs out. It wasn't too bad outside temperature wise. It seems like it got colder as the day went on and it was windy all day. Got to work and got my coffee so that helped me warm up even more. Had my Pumpkin Pie Spice Juva Roast and I drank 3 cups of coffee today. Thankfully it didn't make me bounce off the walls lol. I trained the new girl Tabitha, she did really well. I let her run the register the majority of the time. She has run a register before so she knew what she was doing but she had a couple questions. Otherwise she did good for her first day on register. Nothing too exciting happened at work. Today was truck day so that kept us busy for awhile. Came home and let the dogs out and they were excited to see me. Bella is happy to have her toy cos she left in the bedroom this morning. It is really cold outside. It was sprinkling when I got home. Then Jen came home amd we were sitting outside and it started sleeting then stopped. This weather is crazy. I am about to start laundry and put on something warm. I am so cold brrr.

DWP: God

Daily Writing Ptompt: God

I'm not really a religious person but I do believe in God. I respect if you don't. I'm not a bible thumper. I grew up a Jehovah Witness. My parents were Jehovah Witnsesses. Over time my dad stopped going to the Kingdom Hall and believing. My mom is still a Jehovah Witness and so are so my family on my Dad's side. Growing up we didn't celebrate holidays, none at all. They celebrate their wedding anniversary and that's about all. No celebrating Christmas or Birthdays or anything. I missed out on celebrating holidays growing up. But, I always got what I want so it was always like Christmas every day instead of just getting what I want on one day. Yes my sister and I were spoiled but we never did without. When I was in the Army in 2004 I got baptized Mormon, Jesus Christ Of the Latter Day Saints. I visited the church on base with my battle buddies and liked the church and decided to get baptized. Like I said I am not a very religious person but I do believe in God. Miracles have happened in my life that I can't explain and so I say the only explanation is God's work. God had a hand in that and he saved me many times. You can believe or not, that is up to you.

DWP: Coffee

Daily Writing Prompt: Coffee

That was the first thing that came to mind. I have had 2 cups of Coffee so far today. I have been drinking Pumpkin Pie Spice Juva Roast. I like to experiment with my Coffee. But I like my coffee a certain way. It has to have sugar in it but here lately I haven't been putting as much sugar in my coffee as I used to. We are almost out of the Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer so I am going to go buy more and keep it at work. I think I will buy one for home too. Normally I get my coffee at work and don't make coffee at home even though I have a coffee maker. I don't have milk or creamer at home though so I have to get my coffee at work for now until I get paid again. Hopefully by then I will be able to find the Pumpkin Pie Spice Creamer. Walmart probably has it unless Food Lion has it. I used to not put creamer in my coffee juat milk but the Pumpkin Pie Spice is so good. I have recently came to have an obsession with Pumpkin Pie or Pumpkin Spice anything. I guess you could say I love this time of the year because that's when they bring those flavors out. I heard they have Pumpkin Spice Waffles now. Think I am going to have to buy me some of those, I bet they're good.

Update

The lawyers office called and gave me the number to a CT Lawyer with a file #. So I called him & he was with someone so hopefully he will call back today. The VA Clinic called and I have an appt on the 6th about my dizzy spells. Went into work to get coffee and ended up staying for awhile talking. The new girl is training, I think she will do fine. We are six dollars away from reaching twelve hundred dollars raised. I tried to motivate Cheryl into getting more donations. Jen is off today as well and on the couch sleeping. I am about to start on laundry. I was outside with Bella and Cinder but they wanted in. I am drinking Pumpkin Pie Spice Juva Roast Coffee and its good. I am going to clean house after I start laundry.

Breakfast

Ate Chocolate Chip Waffles. Now off to take a shower and get my coffee. Then go get my flu shot and be seen about my dizzy spells.

Not Feeling Good

I've been cold all day and froze at work. Now I'm home and my face is hot, think I am running a fever. Today is April's Birthday and tomorrow is Cheryl's so I got them a birthday cake today. This morning I had leftovers from Kathy's for breakfast which wasn't much. Then I had cake for lunch. Not a very healthy meal either one of them. I might eat corn for dinner. Came home from work and Jen was sleeping on the couch and still is. She had done laundry before I got home cos the dryer was running but just stopped. Guess I will finish the laundry since she's sleeping. I am almost all caught up on laundry. I still have several loads to do though. Ntelos has been acting up for the past 3 days. Every time I am on the phone I lose signal and the phone hangs up. Mind you the people I have been talking to also have Ntelos and they have been having problems as well. Apparently Ntelos is repairing their towers and switching over to 4G and that is why the service has been screwy. The lawyer called after work but my phone wouldn't let me answer the call. He left a voicemail but it wouldn't let me check my voicemail. Ntelos is pissing me off. They need to hurry up and fix this issue. I can't be missing important phone calls. Damn Ntelos. I haven't felt good all day. Hopefully I am not getting sick. Jen had or still has Pneumonia. I haven't had my flu shot yet but plan on getting it tomorrow hopefully if I can at the Staunton Veteran's Clinic. I went by there today but the parking lot was full so I just turned around and came home. I am off tomorrow so I will go there in the morning and see if I can get my shot and be seen about the dizzy spells I have been having. I have had them for about a week now and I figured they would go away but they haven't so I figure i should be checked out. I guess it could be a number of things. Maybe my blood pressure or Vertigo which my mom has. Either my mom or dad has high blood pressure so maybe it could be that. Who knows. Hopefully they will tell me whats wrong with me and give me something to make it go away. Anyways time to do laundry. I will do my daily writing prompt later. Haven't figured out what the topic will be yet but I will come up with one while I am doing laundry. I have to charge my phone anyway.

Feeling dizzy

Ladt night I had a headache. My head was pounding and the light was bothering me so I went to bed early without taking anything. I fell asleep and woke up this morning and my head still hurt. I took an Advil at work and my head stopped hurting. Then this morning I was doing the Cigarette Inventory Sheet and was sitting on the floor and got up and was dizzy. The whole rest of the day any time I bent down or ovet and got back up I felt dizzy. So I emailed my doctor at the VA about making an appt to be seen about my dizzy spells. Hopefully I can be seen soon about it. The VA emailed back about making an appt for an eye exam so I have to call tomorrow abour that.

Had a good day

Went with Mom today. I got to Mom and Dad's house and Zeus was outside waiting for me. Went in and started watching a show with Mom that was on Animal Planet. It was about dogs being rescued. Then I went and got on the computer and checked my emails and wrote some. Then I decided to work in my online class the IT Course. I did one lesson and took a test which I passed. I stopped at the beginning of the next lesson because the lawyer called and I talked to him about getting divorced. I am supposed to get a call from another lawyer but one who is in Connecticut since that is where we got married. Supposed to hear from the lawyer in 3 days. After I got off the phone with the lawyer I took Zeus outside and enjoyed the nice warm sunshine. The weather was nice today. Probably the warmest weather we will have all week. Thankfully I was off work to enjoy the weather. After I got done smokibg I let Zeus inside and Mom and I left. I took Mom to a place she hadn't been before and she got her two jobs. Then we went to Kmart and she paid on my layaway for me. We were in Kmart for awhile and after that we went to visit with Grandpa. Grandpa gave me a chair that he didn't want. So now I have another chair I can use at the computer desk. After we left Grandpa's we went and got food at Wendys. I got a Chilli with Cheese and Onions but haven't eaten yet because I am not hungry right now. Then we went back to Mom and Dad's and I let Zeus outside and then I left. Now I am home and let Bella and Cinder out to go pee and Jen is asleep. Thankfully she is off Wednesday too because we can spend the day together. I got a headache, think I might take an Advil. Not sure why my head hurts. I haven't had a headache in awhile. Mom and I went to Starbucks after we left the house. I got a Cafe Mocha in my Starbucks cup and a Pumpkin Sugar Cookie. Mom got a Orange something another, not sure what it was called but it had Orange flavor in it. It disn't taste too bad but I like my coffee. The Cafe Mocha is my favorite along with the Veggie Artisan Breakfast Sandwich. I love Starbucks. I always look foreard to two things during the week, one being spending time with my parents and the other being able to go to Starbucks and getting my coffee. Too bad we don't have a Starbucks in Verona, that would be awesome. I don't see that happening any time soon though. So Jen and I went out for breakfast this morning at Kathy's Restaurant in Staunton. I ate eggs, bacon chocolate chip pancakes and toast. I even had leftovers which I plan on eating later. Probably going to eat the rest for breakfast tomorrow. So I Louie gave me a pumpkin a couple weeks ago and I brought it home and sat it on the porch. I haven't done anyrhing with it but its a pretty big Pumpkin. I think I might carve it into something. Jen cared our pumpkin last year and she did a good job at it. I have never carvded a pumpkin before because I grew up not celebrating holidays so I never got to do it but I think I will this uear. Just need to get me a carving kit. So for Halloween this year I am going to dress up in a Lederhosen which is a German Bavarian Outfit. Either that or Spider-Man again since I still have my costume from last year. Anyways time to do some house cleaning amd then eat some of my Chilli.

Zeus

Zeus wanted outside and kept barking so I let him out. Now I am sitting outside while he plays in the yard. It feels so good out here

IT Course

Working in my IT Course. Trying to get through this course but its so long and a lot to learn. I know most of the stuff so its a refresher course really.

This and That

Just entered to win $10,000 from Camel and then entered a contest to win free gas from Shell for a year. I love sweepstakes but I haven't ever won any yet though. One time I won a drawing at work for my company because I raised more than $200 for MS and I won a $300 Best Buy Gift Card. And one time I wont tickets to the Country Throwdown through WSIG. I have won a lot in my life and I love winning. Anyways I am at Mom and Dad's house right now and I am about to login to my online class and start taking some of my lessons. I called Legal Shield this morning about getting a divorce and someone is supposed to call me back. Hopefully I don't get told the same thing I got told last time by different LGBT Organizations. They told me I had to live in a state where Gay Marriage was legal for at least a year then I could get a divorce. An attorney is supposed to call me back so hopefully they know what they are talking about. I just hope this divorce goes smoothly. I don't want anything else to do with Deborah because I have put the past in the past where it belongs and my future is not with her or associated with her. I forgive and forget sometimes but with some things you just can't forget the pain, the being used, the mental abuse and all the crap you went through. But anyways I can't wait to get divorced, I am done with being married. I have been done with being married for a long time.
So I went to my store this morning and got me some Pumpkin Pie Spice Juva Roast and then I climbed the gas price sign and change the price of the regular gas up one cent. Kind of stupid to have to climb the sign for one cent but 711 changed their price up one cent so we had to match what they had per the home office so that's what I did. Thankfully April asked me to change the gas price before I left the store instead of texting me later and saying the price needed to be changed and me not being in town which is what has been normally happening. 711 is changing their prices just to be a bunch of asses. Oh well that's the nature of the business I suppose.
I brought my laptop with me so I could take it to WWRC to get it fixed but I haven't dropped it off yet. I am not looking forward really to taking it there but they fix computers for free and I don't really have the money to have my laptop fixed. Beside's they actually do a good job because they fixed my parents computer and made it run so much better.
Dad is sitting here watching Reba, he loves this show and I like it too, its a funny show. Mom is over there reading the paper and I don't know what Zeus is doing but he is probably sleeping.
The weather is nice and warm outside today. I think today is probably going to be one of the nicest warmest days we have all week. The temperature has been dropping at night and its been really cold. This morning it wasn't too bad outside and then it warmed up. Not sure what the temperature is now but when I was in my truck the temperature thing in my truck said it was 67 so its probably warmer then that now.
Time to check more emails because I have like 3 or 4 email accounts and I try to keep up with them all. Then I need to check my Facebook Pages and eventually work in my online classes which are two of them. I am taking two online classes currently. I am taking an IT Class and a Web Design Class. Both which I can be certified in and can get a diploma after completion. That's why I like ALISON Courses they are free online courses but once you get certified you have to pay for your certification certificate and your diploma. They have different options on what you can purchase like you can get it framed and such. I probably won't get mine framed because I have book that I keep all my certifications in. I completed and passed the Google Blogger Course so I need to get my certificate in that. I think its like $15 or $25 who knows I will have to check. I looked at the prices but I can't remember what they were. Anyways guess I am going to go smoke a cigarette then continue to check my other emails. Then I might work on submitting more of my poetry and uploading my poems to poetry.com. When I went on the Web Poetry Corner I didn't realize how many poems of mine that I had posted on there. Crazy, there are at least 100 poems on there, maybe not but there sure is a lot of my poems I posted on there. Anyways time to get some more warm sun on my face. Man it feels good outside and I don't want to waste this day by sitting inside. I have to get mom motivated so we can go out and enjoy the day while it lasts.

What A Great Day So Far

I called legal shield about my divorce and an attorney is supposed to call me back today. I figured I would get that out of the way. Hopefully this divorce will go smoothly. Went and got my coffee and while I was at work I climbed the sign and changed the gas price up one cent. Then I dropped off Jen's medicine and headed to Mom and Dad's house. Zeus was outside waiting for me. Lol. About to go check my email and work in my online class. Fun fun.

Breakfast

Jen took me out to breakfast this morning. I had Chocolate Chip Pancakes, Eggs with Ranch Dressing,Toast and Bacon and 3 cups of coffee. Lol. I'm a Coffee drinker. Now we're headed home. I gotta take a shower and go to WWRC and drop off my laptop and get my flu shot then go to Mom and Dads house.

Tomorrow

Gonna go visit Grandpa tomorrow. And I am going to take Mom to look for two jobs. I am off tomorrow thankfully. Glad to have a day off. I miss Grandpa, haven't seen him in awhile. I miss my Grandma Collins. This year will make it the second year without my Grandma. She passed away a couple days before my birthday last year. People don't realize time is short on earth. You can't get time back and life is too ahort to live with regrets. I wish I would have gone to see my Grandma more. My Grandma was the best cook, she made the best Potato Salad and the best Chilli Soup. She made it differently then antone else makes it. I always loved going to her house for dinner.
So mom and I are going to see grandpa tomorrow. Maybe we will stop by Starbucks, at least I hope we will. I love me some Starbucks. That is my absolute favorite place to get coffee and they have really good Veggie Breakfast Sandwiches too.
So its freaking cold outside, my toes and fingers are freezing. Especially my toes, my fingers have warmed up a bit but my feet are so cold. Brrr. Jen woke up earlier but went back to sleep cos she has to work. She's still not feeling good. She needs a couple days off to relac amd recouperate but she is stubborn and she doesn't want to miss work.

Freezing

Man its freakin cold outside. My hands are like ice. I'm cold, I'm thinking about turning the heat on. This morning when I got in my truck I had frost on my window. I'm going to have to get up earlier so I can start my truck so it will defrost. I hate this freaking weather. Summer please come back, I miss you oh so much.

My Day So Far

I had lost my keys yesterday so my boss came in on her day off. Thankfully yesterday evening after I got home from work I found my keys so my boss didn't have to come in today. This morning I got to work and smoked a cigarette.l and then I got my coffee. Since I like to experiment with my coffee this morning I drank Pumpkin Pie Spice Juva Roast Coffee. The day went by fast but the donations raised weren't so good. I only raised Eight dollars and 66 cents in donations for Breast Cancer today. People kept saying no or saying that they already had donated so they weren't donating again. Stayed busy all day and got almost everything done. It was busy for a Sunday which is good for our business. Our gas for regular is two dollars and 98 cents which draws customers. And when you pay cash you save $.06. I cut up onions and put fresh relish out and then put the hot dogs out but I didn't sell any unless you count the one I bought. I ate lunch and took my medicine. Normally around lunch time I switch from hot coffee to iced cold coffee. I drink coffee in the morning and then in the afternoon I used to drink soda but I stopped drinking soda altogether so I drink sweet tea or iced coffee. Today I had Pumpkin Pie Spice Mocha Iced Coffee. It was delicious and I am still drinking it. Jen came by to see me at work which was nice. Got off work and went to the bank then went to Food Lion to order April and Cheryl's birthday cake. April's birthday is the 22nd and Cheryl's is the 23rd so I am throwing them a joint birthday party on the 22nd. After that I went home and Cinder and Bella were happy to see me. Now I am at home relaxing. I swept the kitchen, played Words With Friends and I think I am going to start a load of laundry. I almost caught up on laundry. Never again will I let laundry get behind and pile up again. Geesh. Chris texted me about Karen, I seem to be his go to person when it comes to Karen. I don't mind listening but sometimes I get annoyed. I don't much care for negativity because growing up I had a lot of negativity in my life. Since then I have tried to have a more positive outlook on life and a more positive attitude. I don't like being around negativity. Sometimes I don't feel like being bothered with others problems. I don't mind helping people but sometimes no matter what I say I can't help their situation. Distance supposedly makes the heart grow fonser or so they say but it seems like the distance between Chris and Karen kinda just makes it worse. But anyway I am sitting here watching Roseanne. The tv is still on TV Land lol. It has been on this channel for days. I haven't felt like changing the channel and I have been too distracted and busy to change it. Been staying busy at home with cleaning and doing laundry and taking care of my fur babies. Jen is here at home but she's sleeping because she has to work. She still isn't feeling good but she doesn't want to miss work. Connor is sitting here on my knee asleep lol. Connor is my orange and white kitten. He id a cutie pie and so playful. Cinder is laying here next to me sleeping. Bella must be in the bedroom with Jen sleeping. I think I will give them another bone. What they do is Cinder starts chewing on the bone and then Bella takes over on it. They share their bones, they love each other and get along great thankfully. I'm so glad tomorrow is Monday oh wait I am off tomorrow and completely forgot. Good thing I just rememered because I probably would've went into work. Lol. I believe I have done that before haha. Normally I have Tuesday and Wednesday off but here lately the days off have been different. I hate this weather, its been getting colder and colder here lately. I hate the cold. I like the hot weather way better than the cold. Jen is hot natured so she likes the cols weather and in the summer she freezes me with the air conditioner. But me, I love Summer because I like being hot. I don't mind 90 100 degree weather. I hate the cold and I hate the air conditioner. The air conditioner in my truck hasn't worked since I bought it but I never had it fixed cos I would never use it anyway.
So my mood has been pretty good lately, thankfully my bipolar hasn't acted up neither has my Schiophrenia but the paranoia is still there. Guess that part will never go away even if I do take my medicine. I just don't trust people but maybe that's just me being aware. I have had many people throughout my life give me plenty of reasons not to trust people. You really cant seem to trust people these days because of the way they are. Seems like some people are only after something or they screw you over or uae toy. That has happened to me so many times. So I have my guard up and have for awhile and I'm not letting it down. Anyways I have laundry to do now. I made a pledge to write a page every day in October so here's my page for today.