Thursday, September 15, 2016

I think I'm Paranoid


Heroin Sanctuary

There is a place I go to brood,
within my soul,
without the rudeness of another's life,
bearing down on mine.

In my place I like to lie,
upon cold stone,
away from the light,
but close enough to the outside,
to hear the ghastly winds arise,
like banshee shrieks in the moonlight,
the winds embellish the midnight,
enough to strike me terrified,
enough to make me fear for my life.

My Hero, His Heroin

When we were young
he was the one,
Who was my hero,
big and bad,
He fought with all he had
to knock out that zero,
and as we grew
I thought I knew
which way the wind blew.

Without a doubt
he would take me out
to hang with friends
and show me how to blend.

Time went and he was gone.

I did not know
how trouble could grow
and before I knew it
he was all into it.

I did not know what to do
and I became blue.

He was not the same
he seemed to be insane.

He started with cocaine
and everyone else was to blame.
then like the wind,
He was into heroin.

My hero was gone
when the beast came along.

Lord please help him change his ways
before he sees the end of his days.

Morpheus

Cloudy Eyes

But clear vision

No pain, and no spirit

A light touch, and a heavy heart

An akward sense of self

Thoughts with no meaning

I must be dreaming

It feels like a dream

Tainted thoughts and red streaked arms

A needle and a spoon

MISS HEROIN

So now little man you've grown tired of grass, L.S.D., Cocaine and hash
And someone pretending to be a true friend
Said I'll introduce you to Miss Heroin

Well honey before you start fooling with me
Just let me inform you of how it will be
For I will seduce you and make you my slave
I've sent men much stronger than you to their grave

You think you could never become a disgrace
And end up addicted to poppy seed waste
So you'll start inhaling me one afternoon
You'll take me into your arms very soon

And once I have entered deep down in your veins
The craving will drive you nearly insane
You'll need lots of money as you have been told
For darling I'm much more expensive than gold

You'll swindle your mother
And just for a buck
You'll turn into something vile and corrupt
You'll mug and you'll steal
For my narcotic charm
And feel contentment when I'm in your arms

The day when you realize the monster you've grown
You'll solemnly promise to leave me alone
If you think you've got the mystical knack
Then sweetie just try getting me off your back

The vomit, the cramps ,your guts tied in a knot
The jangling nerves screaming for just one more shot
The hot chills, the cold sweat
The withdrawal pains
Can only be saved by my little white grains

There's no other way and theres no need to look
For deep down inside
You know you are hooked
You'll desperately run to the pusher, and then
You'll welcome me back to your arms once again

And when you return, just as I foretold
I know that you'll give me your body and soul
You'll give up your morals, your conscience, your heart
And you will be mine
Till death do us part.

hope it is!!!!!

Lips Like Heroin

your lips they are like heroin.
oh how i love the taste

kiss me like you mean it
don't let these chemicals go to waste

give me the taste of poison
i really need these thrills

give me enough to overdose
i don't care if it kills

just let me enjoy this misery
while giving me some bliss

all i ask is that you give me

at least one more kiss

give me all you have to offer
and i'll suffer my own fate

let me taste you one more time
your so addictive, yet so great

all i know is that i need you now
you will help me get by

even though you bring me down
whenever i am high

but i keep crawling back to you
nothing satisfies my crave

all i know is that i need you now
even if it takes me to my grave

your lips they are like herion
don't let these chemicals go to waste

kiss me like you mean it
i really love the taste

HORSE (a heroin poem)

You are now larger than life
Tens of thousands screaming your name
Too much too fast
You are not sure this undeserved success will last

The pain that fueled your art
Is still tearing you apart
What you need is a friend
One who will be with you until the end

I am the Horse
I don't care
About your fortune or fame
I am the Horse
I don't care
About your family or name

Hop on my back for a free ride
Don't believe them about slow suicide
Together we will go and hide
Our bond will last a lifetime

I'll ease your pain
I'll numb your brain
Your friends and family will not understand
How we can be such intimate friends

Who else makes you feel this way
As I take your troubles away
I have removed all your doubt
Isn't this what love is all about

You are young and strong
Can handle anything
To an empty God
You are now praying

It is now too late
You have sealed your fate
Once more push the needle in
Once more inject the venom

My will is stronger than yours
Now that I am under your skin
You are flying so high
Who is listening as your children cry

I am the Horse I don't care
I have many pretty names
I am the Horse I don't care
I have always been the same

Riding in the back of a limousine
A spoon, a syringe and a full magazine
Whether you're in a penthouse suite
Lying in an alley or a shooting gallery

To me they are all the same
As long as I own your veins
You thought you had no innocence left to lose
At first, you chose me, now it's me that chooses you

You thought that money
Was the only price to pay
You will do whatever I require
To remain bound in my chains

Call my name
Every time you call
The deeper into me
You will fall

I am the Horse
I don't care
About what you have become
I am the Horse
I don't care
To my power you have succumbed

It was your pain that brought you to me
It was your pain you thought I took away
It is your pain that keeps you with me
Try to leave, I will increase it a thousand-fold everyday

In the end
You will not care about your family or friends
This is the end
Your very last fix
It is time I ford you across the River Styx

I am the Horse
I don't care
Who is the next in line
I am the Horse
I welcome the curious
Hey you, how about a free ride

I'm Not An Addict, That's a Lie

Its not a habit
Its cool
I feel alive

I'm not addict baby
That's a lie

Free me
Leave me
Watch me as I'm going down

The deeper you stick it in your veins
the deeper the thoughts there's no more pain
I'm in heaven
I'm a God
I feel so hot

It's not a habit
I feel so alive
If you don't have it
You're on the other side

Its over now
I'm cold and alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
Yeah nothing means a thing to me

Watch me as I'm going down
Free me
See me
Look at me
I'm falling
and I'm falling

Not An Addict


Unsteady


Easy Way Out