Dreams

by: Angela Bean

 

a thousand dreams could not compare
to one dream of you
because a dream of you is ever so sweet,
and lovely and the best dream that I have ever dreamed before
and I hope to have more dreams of you
I could dream forever
but it would not matter to me, if the dream was not of you
dreams are what we make them
and in my dreams, I see you, in my future forever
a dream of you is like being blessed by an angel
and touched by a kiss, the soft lips of a goddess

Morpheus

by: Angela Bean

Cloudy Eyes
But clear vision
No pain, and no spirit
A light touch, and a heavy heart
An awkward sense of self
Thoughts with no meaning
I must be dreaming
It feels like a dream
Tainted thoughts and red streaked arms
A needle and a spoon

Depression

by: Angela Bean

I am not happy all the time
Sometimes I feel I'll never find happiness within myself
I live with pain, hurt,
loneliness
Every day is a struggle
A struggle to survive
A battle I'm fighting within
Every breath is a fight for
survival
As I gasp and slowly come up
for air
I have a deep understanding of depression
I've lived with it all my life
I take a puff of my cigarette
Depression too often
Walks hand in hand
with a deep sense of helplessness
I feel the evil and hurt found within our society
Lost friendships, lost loves
The way we see ourselves is often colored by alter of our
depression
But no matter how badly it seems to hurt
Someone somewhere has felt it too!

Dwell

by: Angela Bean

Here I go again
beating myself up
For all of the things I can never be
Instead of embracing all that I am
After all, isn't everybody "somebody"?
Isn't everyone "someone"?
And all we really want
is to have someone look at all of our imperfections
and say "that's okay, I'll love you anyway."
Oh how I pray for "maître", "loving of oneself"
So that I can be the last woman standing
When there's nothing else left
Here I go again
Wishing that I could turn back the hands of time
And do the right thing instead of the wrong thing,
The strong thing instead of the weak thing

Drink Away the Sorrows

by: Angela Bean

Look back into the past

All I have is the memories

Now I have to look into the future

See what fate is going to deal me now

My scars remind me my past is real

Now I just have to deal

Moving on in my life

Take a puff of my cigarette

And exhale the doubt

This can't be how life is going to turn out

Drink away the sorrows

On My Patio

by: Angela Bean

I watch you, on my patio
Gazing, through light fog
Distant buildings twinkle
An angel on a cloud
you rolled into my life
a fantasy, a dream
looking back at me
your smile envelopes me
lifting me ever higher
on the wings of your soul
My heart, renewed
We dance among the stars
in each other's arms

Invisible

by: Angela Bean

I want us to be more then we can
but we can't
I looked at you
no breath was drew
my heart skipped a beat
I was light on my feet
you look at me strange
as if a am deranged
my head says stay calm
but I'm like a ticking bomb
I slip away
I cry for days