Showing posts with label Angela Bean. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Angela Bean. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

I dream A Little Dream Of You Tonight

I dream A Little Dream Of You Tonight

by

Angela Bean

 dream a little dream of you tonight
I hope if I do die tonight
That I will be with you
wherever I shall go
heaven, hell
wherever
whatever
I dream a little dream of you tonight
I dream that we are together
and there is no one there to stop us from loving each other
no one is in our way
no one at all
I love you so much
I love you more than the stars could ever shine in the sky
I love you more than the sun could brighten the sky
I dream a little dream of you tonight
I am thinking about you
I love you so much
I dream a little dream of you tonight
i dream that we are together for all eternity
I dream that we are together
when i wake up from a beautiful dream of you
I dream a little dream of you tonight
and i wonder if you dream of me too
I dream that we make all our dreams come true
i dream a little dream of you tonight
and i wonder if you think of me while you dream
I think of you while i dream
so sweet angel, close your eyes and dream
because when i go to sleep tonight
i will dream a little dream of you tonight

Some People

Some People

by

Angela Bean

They look and they point
They laugh and they shout
who are they to point
who are they to laugh
who cares about their untold stories
they are straight
they make fun us and laugh
we don't care
no one will know
no one will understand

My Friends

My Friends

by

Angela Bean

I'm insane
that I know
it surely will show
what I have
I shall not use
It's a deadly cause
life itself
a faulty move
and your life could be gone
playing with the spirits
you should fear it
the following shall come
withcraft is ordered

This Is Life

This Is Life

by

Angela Bean

the fight of your life
the pain and the strife
the dead and the gone
defying authority
paying respect and loyalty
Harlem world
and the No Limit soldiers
Death Row dudes
and the Wu-Tang Clan
let the violence stop
the rape, and the burglary
mindless thoughts
though from a mindful brain
the voices make me go insane
midlife crisis is now
the bloody massacre goes pow
dude, don't have a cow
you shall revenge your brother's death
prove what you need to prove
die, how you shall die
hazy, it is
quite hazy here
it goes black
all dark and quiet
gangs and chains
the whips and brass knuckles
Sayzar looks up
cuz he's all shook up

don't know where the hell he is
or if his families doing well
when your locked up in the pen you don't feel so well
hanging' round all day in a jail cell
i hate this hell
living' life of not giving' a fuck
defying authority
and disobeying'
trying' to get out
having' to shout
being loud
and heard
getting' everyone to listen to a word
no one gives a fuck
cos this life will always suck
going through school
living' life in a bloody pool
having' razor marks
etched up and down yo' arm
not bringing' no one else harm
this life's unfair
so i ain't gonna complain
no more

Forsee My Death

Forsee My Death

by

Angela Bean

witness to a crime
kind man without a dime
busy dude without any time
got his chick
doing her witchcraft
woeful of woes
passing my foes
I touch the kiss of death
taking one last breath
they lower the coffin
everyone sies
everyone cries
flowers are delivereed
roses are sat there
the coffin is lowered
seeing the last of daylight
darkness, I will see
darkness forever
that's what's in store for me

In A Group

In A Group

by

Angela Bean

the mad
the insane
the no names
no brains
preps, dweebs
nerds, jocks
terds, motor dudes
engine experts
the dweebies, the freaks
the satanists, the nerds
the skateboarders
the wiggas, the brothers
they are all the same
the motorheads and others are alike
preps have no clue
they got it good
they're rich, so they should
the loners and the outsiders
they are the two best
they're the one's who know
wo know how it really is
how life really is
unfair
unfair is the word
that's life

Doesn't Think

Doesn't Think

by

Angela Bean

The occult
the observant
the quiet
the deserving
Octavious and Odysseus
mythological obsession
disgraceful aggression
sadful depression
agreeing to agree
fleeing to fight
all in spite
mindless thoughts in the head
thinking to be dead
foretell the future
sitting on the pedastool
smoking my pipe

Smell of cigars linger about
sounds of kids running about
looking, just staring out the window
crystal meth, the deadly drugs
sounds of ghosts, who died from crystal meth
oblivious to what is really going on
no one around
except ghosts walking abound
no one will visit
no one will come
the ghosts who are among
have scareed them all away

Sitting In A Field

Sitting In A Field

by

Angela Bean

Chasing Amy
around the grassy fields of gypsy
note less thoughts of a novel
pondering Diego's looks
Diocletian looks on
Brave army, dignified
shall diffuse the bombardment!
The bookish girl
head dug in her book
Bonfire of the evil Bacchus
Ferocious calls of the Bacchanals
the young, innocent, vampiric girls
Bacchus, their ruler
their lives taken over
howls in the night
like a fiery hell or fright
creating mayhem
all about
walking along
singing a song
there was Elijah Blue
and Fred Durst too
centaurs roam
amazons protect their home
I roam
to find my home
I look,
but no ones there
there stands Zeke
on that high peak

Street Life

Street Life

by

Angela Bean

Children raised up
get out of the house and smoke up
cause and effect
ain't get no respect
been classified
lived life on the streets and then died
say ya need counselin'
fuck dem' they don't know shit
ain't nothing a physchiatrist can tell ya, thatcha' don't know
what, they think ya a damn fool
cuz, when ya quit school
wanna get the hell out
lock up, in a cell bout'
no where to go
runnin' from the cops
on the go
a warrant for ya arrest

The Smell Of Life

The Smell Of Life

by

Angela Bean

Smells like cigerette smoke
the smell of your breath
the smell of near death
hooraay, death man
yeah
smoke up a joint
inhale some shit
blast up a bit
don't give a shit
blast by
when your high
cigar smell
um, rich and fine
smells divine
go down to your local 4:20
a union of brotherhood
peace out man
peace out and get high
as high as the sky
then smoke up
and die

The Person You Think You Know

The Person You Think You Know

by

Angela Bean

The person you think you know
you may not know at all

They could be sweet looking
but could change in an instant

When you get high
you know nothing else

Inhale nitrous oxide
and your ready to kill
you may look sweet and nice
but that's when the mask is off

At night
your ready to fight
and filled with fright

Kill all who stand in your way
death man
death rules you all yell
but not until someone is dead
and your in jail

Nothing

Nothing

by

Angela Bean

I hear whispers
But there is no voice

I see shadows
But no one is there

I see the grass move
But there is no wind

I hear the sound of a train
But there is no train

I hear cars passing by me
but there are no cars

I hear a dog barking
but there is no dog

i feel something warm nudge me
but nothing is there
i am cold and alone

for i feel someone is watching me
but no one is in sight

i hear police sirens
but there are no police stations in town

i hear the sounds of bigfoot
but bigfoot doesn't exist

i see a shooting star
does it exist?
I think maybe it does
So I, on that very night
Why I am cold and all alone
With no one by my side
I wish upon that star

You

You

by

Angela Bean

you are the world
you are the moon
you are my sun
my dream come true

you brighten my days
you light up my nights
you cool the summer days
you warm the summer nights

all my trouble's
all my fears
i never seem to notice
when you are near

if i were granted one wish to
come true
my one wish would be to
always have you!!!!!!!

The Times

The Times

by

Angela Bean


After all the times you hurt me.
The times you made me cry.
Why do I forgive you?
With every little sigh.
The times you betrayed me.
And the painful good-byes.
Why do I still need you?
After all those lies.
The times that you ignored me.
The times the pain has shown.
Why do I still care for you?
After you left me all alone.
With the scars you left upon me.
And the tears that fall each day.
Why am I still in love with you?
Though you've treated me this way?

Friday, August 21, 2009

Rantings of an insomniac

Well I've decided to turn over a new leaf. Life is an adventure even though there are many obstacles in the way at times. I've been going through a bit of a depression in the past couple months and I'm trying to be happier and think positive even though I've lived my whole life in negativity. When I was younger I received a lot of positivity from my mother but not so much from my father. That's just how I lived my life. But I'm trying to change all that. I just graduated from Woodrow Wilson Rehabilitation Center this past March 2009 with a degree in Web Design. I have yet to get a job in Web Design. I currently am working for Krisp Web Solutions which is based in Harrisonburg, VA but my job isn't doing web sites. My job is to call people or talk to people in person and get them as a customer for our company. When I call people I feel like a telemarketer and I think the people on the other end of the phone think I am a telemarketer also. That's not a very appealing part of the job. I was excited when I thought I got my first customer but to my dismay the guy didn't become a customer. In fact the guy told me to e-mail him information about our company and he never e-mailed me back. It's a job but not exactly. The job is paid based on commission and so far I'm not making any money at all. I think it's time for a REAL job. Even though this job seems real. I haven't been working as much with the job as I should be because I kind of got disappointed at the fact that I wasn't getting any customers but I'm not going to get customers if I don't try. I was calling restaurants and my boss suggested I try churches next so I'm going to go with that. I'll keep you updated on how that goes.

Here lately my depression has gotten a little worse and I've just been sitting at home on the internet. I've started trying those work at home things you seen online and tried out some of the web sites that claim to help you make money online. So far it's not going as good as I thought it would. Let's see, the only sites I have made any money on at all are YouData, which is a site where you have what they call a MeFile and in your MeFile you fill it out with your interests and so forth and so on. I've made $.92 cents off of that. YouData deposited the $.92 cents into my PayPal account. Another site I have made money from is Adf.ly, which is a site where you can shorten a URL/link. When you shorten the URL/link you can post the link into your blog, your Twitter, or any other site you choose. When you post the link and someone clicks on it, you get money for them clicking on the site. I can't remember exactly how much you get per click but I've made money from that site. So far I've made only $.17 cents from that site. Of course I haven't checked in a couple hours so that is how much I have made so far according to a couple hours ago. Let's check now to see what my current amount of money made is shall we. Wow. The amount of money I have made total on Adf.ly is now at $.20 cents. To make money on that site I have learned you have to post links for sites that will grab someone's attention. For instance the links that have had the most attention on my account are: My Personal Web Site; the video "I Am No Different Than You Are. GLBT ( Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, Transgender)" from OMFGitsJUSTIN which is a great video about people who are bi-sexual and basically Justin let's all the viewers on YouTube know that just because he is bi-sexual that he is no different than anyone else, straight or not. You will have to check out his YouTube channel. He is very funny, he will entertain you for sure. And the third link that gets a lot of clicks on my Adf.ly account is a YouTube video about Homophobia. It was an experiment on Homophobia. So this is a video on homophobia on YouTube. Check it out. BTW, if you click on any of the links and they look like they are SPAM I assure they are not. That's just part of Adf.ly. All you got to do is click at the top right corner where it says skip ad. Than it will take you to the site I am trying to show you. So those are the three links that get me the most clicks. Let's see what the stats are on those. In first place we have the video from OMFGitsJUSTIN with 81 clicks. In second place we have my personal web site with 54 clicks and in third place we have the video on the experiment on homophobia with 43 clicks. Check out Adf.ly if you would like to make money. I have tried other sites like PeopleString but I'm not having much success trying to get people to sign up on that. What PeopleString is basically is its like a social network site in a way. You get your friends to join PeopleString and you can make money when your friends sign up. You can even make money with PeopleString by reading e-mails. The reading e-mails part I haven't done yet because when you sign up with PeopleString they send you some kind of postcard and you have to wait for it to come in the mail before you can start getting money to read your e-mail. It's been 2 weeks and I have yet to receive the postcard but I do assure you that it does come in the mail because my friend Scott is the one that told me about it and he said he has received his postcard.

Well, it's off to bed for me. I'm getting tired. So goodnight and sweet dreams to all. Also a big shout out to my wife Deborah. I love you!

P.S. - My next blog will be about making money online & different web sites you can use to do so.